THINK GLOBAL

taking stock

2011-08-22T10:05:00.002-07:00

Unless you've been living under a rock, I'm sure you're well aware of the recent fluctuation of the volatile US stock market, as well as throughout international markets. Markets have also been volatile in Greece and throughout Europe for several years, and as you undoubtedly know, Greece made the switch to the Euro for their standard of currency upon its inclusion into the EU. According to Biblical Prophecy, in the End Times, our world and its inhabitants will have become so unruly that we must resort to a unified currency, unified government, and possibly even a one-world religion. I say "possibly" regarding religion, only because human free will lends to individual personal choice, versus the globalization of governments which may manifest as the impending doom of the inevitable. Do you see the writing on the wall, in the economy, the government, and in upheavals throughout the Middle East? Syria, Iran, and Russia will join forces to attack and attempt to destroy Israel. It's already happening.

Last weekend I attended a Yoga/Ayurveda/Sacred Music Festival in Santa Monica, California (about 2 1/2 hours from San Diego). I was invited by an old friend who has always been into spirituality and higher consciousness, with a very global mindset, like myself, and another friend who I used to train Capoeira with in Arizona, several years ago. I've found that surrounding myself with like-minded individuals, with similar cultural interests, broader understanding of the world we live in, and open-minded acceptance of humankind's differences, bring me into a better personal space - mentally, spiritually, and even physically. While many of these open-minded transcendent folks may be more liberal in their political views, they don't aim to minimize mine, in fact we can dialog and interact with one another in a more open respectful and educated way. I mean, I respect their views and they respect mine, because we respect each other as fellow humankind, coexisting together. We share a common focus on health, wellness, and mindfulness, and this is what it really boils down to - the condition of the heart.

I finally hooked up my little TV I found in an alley in Seattle, so I could watch the Chargers pre-season NFL game yesterday. I just watched a surfing documentary on the Universal Sports network. They are in Bali, not only talking about the great surfing there, but about the culture of this beautiful part of the world. I have never been to Bali but from everything I've heard, I know I would absolutely love it. In addition to being paradise on earth, the locals these surfers encountered were so peaceful and centered. They described their religion as a mix between Hinduism and Buddhism. One cultural ritual some of the locals practiced was in giving offerings (looked like a plate of fruit and flowers, with incense) to both the low life (people who cause traffic accidents, mean or impatient people), and those they honor or revere (peaceful, positive, helpful people), and/or their gods. While I am spiritually grounded and can generally deduce good from bad energy fairly easily, I can also appreciate these types of ritual traditions of other cultures. In the Bible, Jesus instructs us: if someone asks for your shirt, give him your coat also (Matthew 5:40, paraphrased). Be mindful of those less fortunate than you, and treat others with the respect you'd expect. Be mindful of other walks of life, their cultural, religious, and political beliefs. We may be forced to live under a one-world government with them someday soon!

Since the festival last weekend, I have felt incredibly inspired, motivated, and more in-tune with my surroundings and my overall life path and mission on this earth. Despite current circumstances which are not ideal (aspects of finances, stock market, family's health, a few interpersonal relationships), I am more able to put these in proper perspective, and thrive in my own environment. In my current profession of teaching Yoga, I am also able to draw on these inner truths and higher consciousness, as strength comes from within. I always play international/world music in my classes, and I throw out all kinds of little nuggets regarding Yoga/Eastern philosophy and aspects of spirituality in my classes. Yoga is a mind-body practice, and known for centuries as one of the healing arts. It has its roots in ancient cultures of India and China, encompassing (and transcending) elements of Hinduism, Buddhism, incorporating meditation, transcendence, and expanded levels of consciousness and awareness. These concepts are foreign to a lot of Westerners, not only regarding religion (though Yoga itself is not a religion per se), but in challenging themselves to detach from unpleasant circumstances as they focus their gaze inward. Focusing on the breath for an entire hour as we stretch, balance, and strengthen our bodies is a simple way to do this - and ideally blend a little bit of East with West.

In addition to teaching Yoga, I will begin teaching my online class, World Culture and the Arts again in a few weeks. Besides vocationally, I have been striving to improve myself interpersonally, as I continue to weed out the rotten apples (people with negative energy, narrow-minded ideals, and shallow intentions). This process will only continue as I grow and progress in my own life. Speaking of apples, I admitted to my Facebook community that "the worst decision I ever made was selling my Apple stock in 1998", shortly before the iMac and iPod were introduced. One of my stock-savvy lawyer friends (whom I fondly refer to as "my lawyer" in my pet-naming system of friends and foes) pointed out that had I not sold it, my investment would have earned $30,000 by now. Another friend pointed out that this was indeed not the "worst" decision I've ever made, referring to some poor relationship choices. In re-evaluating this comment, I would indeed prioritize my mental/emotional health over any stock account. After all, in the words of Dierks Bentley (whom I had the opportunity to see in concert the other night), "I could make a million or wind up broke... can't take it with you when you go... so, free and easy down the road I go!" Time to take stock, in mind, body, and soul.

it's not you, it's me

2011-08-02T01:05:00.007-07:00

There has certainly been a lot going on in our world within the last few weeks, terror attacks in Norway and India, escalated violence in Libya, Syria, and Yemen, and successful bipartisan efforts to curb the US national debt crisis - problems as well as solutions. People are born every day, and people die every day. But when that person is close to you, such widespread common occurrences suddenly become localized. People often blame someone else for their problems. A political party, a terror group, corporations, or even the government itself. Have you ever blamed someone else for something you should have taken the blame for yourself? Have you ever taken someone else for granted, their talents, strengths, or contributions to your life, their community or workplace, or their place in in the world, worse yet, have you criticized someone for the work that they do? Maybe someone trying to help another, doing what they knew or thought to be right, dedicating their efforts to stand for or contribute to their beliefs, their work, their political party, or their country?

Throughout the history of this blog, I have shared personal stories from my travels abroad and throughout the US, compared and contrasted many people groups, religions, cultures, ethnicities, political parties, and paradigms. Everybody has a voice, everybody has a platform from which to raise that voice and to let their beliefs be known to others. Some people choose to keep their thoughts and feelings inside, others choose to debate or rationalize, still others choose to stir up controversy, sometimes to the point of conflict or inflicting harm upon others. I always stick to the Golden Rule: Treat others as you would like to be treated. But not everyone operates that way. Some people (we can also apply this to religious groups, terror groups, political parties, etc) see things only one way - and it's "their way or the highway". In recent months I have shared scenarios from my personal life regarding an ex and his narrow-minded way of thinking, his hostile, crude, demeaning behaviors and negative mindset (similar to terrorist ways), although despite this rigid frigidity, rallied his troops to his cause, fighting against those who represent goodness and truth (namely myself). Do you ever stop to think that for once, just once, such narrow-minded groups (again can apply to personal, political, religious) take the time to consider the sanctity of life, and the families or health of others? Probably not, crude is crude, rude is rude, and disrespectful is, well... perhaps akin to blasphemous.

A few months ago, I was selected to be featured in a series of fitness videos, to appear on a public website available for download by members who paid monthly fees or subscriptions to the site. I filmed a total of 4 videos, 2 of which I was only paid for half a session (though still the same amount of mileage and gas to get to their studio), and I never saw or received any of the footage of my fitness instruction. Unfortunately the scheduling never quite seemed to work out for all parties in an ideal manner, thus my involvement with this production ceased. The problem was two-fold - though of course, there are at least 2 sides to every story. First of all, this was a new "start-up" fitness company, they were supposed to go live with the website in May, it is now August and the site still does not exist on the internet nor any fitness videos to download. Secondly, the individuals in question are two 24 or 25 year-old men, with absolutely no business sense, no viable communication or organizational skills to speak of, and no respect for other humans, namely females.

Of course I found this out the hard way, through trial-and-error, as I ultimately figure out most interpersonal situations in which I've been fooled or taken advantage of in some way. After filming the 4 videos, and during said timeframe, numerous situations came up which were (as I surmised) caused by forces of the universe - beyond our human control (to some extent), forcing scheduled filming sessions to get canceled. These situations included: one of the guys slicing part of his finger off while cooking and having to spend the weekend in the hospital, one of the guys having to go out of town and thereby cancel all the weekend's scheduled sessions, one of them having to transfer video footage before he could film me thereby changing our appointment time twice in one day ultimately cancelling it, another day they misplaced or lost a video cable, again having to cancel our appointment, one day it started raining suddenly and we were supposed to film outdoors, and one day while on my way to meet them witnessed an accident on the freeway with corresponding traffic jam, which ultimately kept me from the filming session. Talk about the Universe being against us. I knew it wasn't me, but perhaps them, and perhaps just the forces of nature to some extent.

Other than the traffic and weather issues, I finally decided something had to give, and I said "look, why don't we work out some kind of a filming schedule, I'll write up a proposal" followed by a detailed lengthy email of my entire schedule, including full details of when I was and wasn't available, where I would be specifically and at what times - so there would be no further confusion regarding MY availability. I believed I was doing my part, and that was all I could do. After two such detailed lengthy emails with all the specifics, I received no response. I thought "ahh 20-year olds are sooo busy that they cannot reply to an email" as I'd experienced such ignorant behavior by other men in the past. Several weeks later, one of them posted on his Facebook page "we are looking for quality instructors, we will pay $30 an hour!" I read this and thought: finally, a response! I immediately replied: "sounds great, I'll definitely do it for $30, I wondered what happened to you guys." I had been paid anywhere from $12 to $25 for previous sessions with them, so I was eager to get started at the higher rate, now that they seemed to have increased their instructor pay, and fortunately now had my new, fully detailed schedule to reference. A few days later I received an email from one of the guys which stated "you've stood us up too many times in the past for us to want to continue this relationship." Come again? This is a "relationship"? and *I* am the Universe? *I* caused your finger to get sliced off, your video camera cable to stop working, and accidents on the freeway? I mean, I've been blamed for forces of the Universe in past "relationships", but really: "it's not you, it's me. Or, it's not me, it's you! Wow. I wonder if my ex paid them off...? Maybe just the liberalism that comes with the territory in California?

Lately I've become too busy to even worry about what to do about these guys, or if I should just forget about it- like I said earlier, they are very young and inexperienced. I am guessing they continue to film people and move on to the next, a bit like recycling. Use em and lose em. As human lives, feelings, emotions, souls, and dedication are, well disposable. No sooner did one drama end in my life, the next one began. About a month ago, the guy (I believe around age 21 or 22) who lives next door to my rental apartment, was having a loud late-night party. He has had several of these, but this time it was unreasonable. I leaned my head out the door and asked them to be quiet at least 4 times, as most of the tenants were trying to sleep (this was about 2am on a Wednesday, a work-night). Of course the guy never listens to me. For example, he smokes outside my window when he knows I am allergic to smoke, and the windows are not insulated properly. Anyway a few minutes later I pop my head out the door again (to once again tell them to quiet down), only to see him carrying a young woman about 21 years old, in his arms out of his apartment - he then proceeded to THROW her - literally - down the concrete stairs, backwards, head over heels. The woman was badly injured, the police and paramedics came to her rescue. Meanwhile the neighbors and I were still trying to sleep (so much for that idea!) I heard the guy "testifying" to the police, saying "I didn't touch her, I don't know how she got down the stairs!" Once again I popped my head out the door and this time told the police exactly what happened. Not only did he throw a young woman down the stairs, he lied to the police about it! He was arrested that night and went to jail, but he has since been telling neighbors "that girl is crazy, I have a restraining order against her". Therefore, that makes it OK to throw her down the stairs and send her to the emergency room (or into a coma)?

I doubt that any of these men in the above stories, nor my ex or his idiot friends have ever lost a loved one, or if they have, do not have the audacity to put themselves in someone else's shoes for just one moment. These are the kinds of disrespectful, heartless people who my best guy-friend refers to as "douche-bags" - as crude as that term may sound - fitting for their ignorant mindset and degrading behavior towards other humans. Who throws another human down a concrete flight of stairs? Who slices one's own finger off then blames someone who was not even there for the mishap? Who bombs a city or center of commerce, like the terror attacks in Mumbai, Norway, or the World Trade Center? Justifying that its OK, because one's religious, political, or personal views support or inspire it? Who is right, the Muslim who believes he's commanded by his God to kill non-Muslims, or the Christian who thinks its wrong to kill, because the Bible (God's 10 Commandments) instructs us not to? So then does this make it ok to "hurt" someone, by throwing them down the stairs, as long as we don't "kill" them? Or only if they are "crazy" and we have a restraining order against them? Likewise, must we continually object to individuals of an opposing political party, because they vote against a bill that we support (or vice versa)? What about those individuals' personal feelings, their bodies, their souls? Or must we place blame with no regard for others? It's not me, it's YOU.

I don't know for sure if all of the aforementioned individuals who have crossed me (or another woman in my presence) know that I lost my Dad a little over 2 1/2 years ago. I'm pretty sure they're too wrapped up in themselves to care about another human life. Although if it were their Dad, they would probably think differently. But they can't put themselves in someone else's shoes. Similarly, my Mom was diagnosed with cancer about 7 months ago, around the time when I was with my ex. He and all his friends were made fully aware of the situation, I invited him to meet her, everything. He was just so ignorant and disrespectful about the whole thing, like he didn't even care about her health. I remember having a conversation with my mom while visiting her in the hospital right around New Years, about him standing me up. She had advised me something to the effect of seeking quality relationships with men who did not "use me" or otherwise disrespect me. I told her he was just busy, and I knew he was "the one" because that is what he had made me to believe, and of course I trusted him because he was introduced to me by a good friend (who else can you trust?). However this was well before I discovered many of his unhealthy tendencies including but not limited to his hostile behaviors. Thank God he never threw me down the stairs!

I wish my mom could have met him because she is a very good judge of character and could have spared me months of being disrespected and degraded by he and his friends. She is now suffering from adverse effects of cancer treatments, and is very very weak. I am trusting God to keep her in His care and make her healthy again. I've already lost my Dad to a debilitating disease, I don't want to lose my mom too. Now I wish I lived in the same state so I can see her, but I did not move to AZ in favor of my safety from the hostile ex. Instead I have a violent neighbor who is also hostile to women. I wish people (men in particular) could be more sensitive to human life. My ex and his friends KNOW what I went through with my Dad, but they are inconsiderate - they just sit around and make jokes about me, my family, and my family's health. How disrespectful they are, how inhumane! My Dad was the most genuine trustworthy wonderful man in the world, and My Mom is equally wonderful and special. Sure people are born and die every day, but why are my family and I discredited, belittled, and persecuted? How long will you go on doing this? Stop hurting other people, blaming other people for your own idiocy, and try a little understanding and compassion. It's not all about YOU, it's also about the other person, and believe it or not, you might actually be WRONG. I wish more people would realize that human life is precious, and we only have one life to live - in the best way we can. People are not discardable.

choose your attitude

2011-07-11T23:11:00.005-07:00

For years, I have been blogging about international politics and current events. In recent months my focus has become localized, particularly onto individuals whom I know personally. I realize that everyone has their issues, whether a terrorist world leader across the globe, an ex in another state, or myself, my students, my family, and my friends. My best friend who is a flight attendant came to visit me in San Diego on an overnight the other day, and we were able to catch up, as we usually do. We were long overdue for an update on each others' lives, although I had just seen her a month ago in Los Angeles. A lot has happened in a month. A lot continues to happen. And everything happens for a reason. When it happens, I never know quite what the reason is. After time elapses, the lesson is usually revealed to me eventually, or something finally gives.

Before I decided to move back to San Diego, I was here on vacation, on a break between Seattle and Phoenix, awaiting a job transfer to Phoenix. As the transfer fell through, so did a few key relationships with a few friends and a guy I was seeing in Arizona, who I was 100% dedicated to. At the time, I thought I could not bear to be without these people in my life, but as time progressed, I realized how I could not live WITH their negative attitudes in my life. Looking back upon that time-frame, I wonder now how I was even able to maintain such a narrow focus on these few select individuals, who meant the world to me. The world is a really big place, it was time to adjust my perspective, while maintaining a positive mindset.

While I was in San Diego on vacation, I decided to attend a few Yoga classes. Yoga is a personal discipline which helps ground me, both physically and mentally/emotionally, as it is a mind-body practice. One class I attended was taught by a fit gay black man, who played loud house music and made the class sweat, almost as though he was a drill-sergeant. The next class I attended, the instructor did not show up. All of the students sat around bewildered, until someone informed the manager that there was no instructor. He then asked if anyone wanted to teach the class (was he serious?). I volunteered, and the group was exceedingly grateful. The manager had a great sense of humor, and put others before himself - as he'd rather ask a random person to teach the class than to cancel it for the 20 people sitting around waiting. However at first impression, I didn't know what to think of this guy - desperate or dedicated?

Subbing that random class led to the job I have now, teaching Yoga and other fitness classes in America's Finest City. I have had several conversations with that manager since our first encounter, and when reflecting back upon it, he stated "everything happens for a reason". He is a great manager to work for, as are all of my other managers. I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be, although at the time, the circumstances around my relocation looked bleak and hopeless. In recent months, I have not only re-acclimated to my previous home of 14 years, home to my favorite sports teams, the beautiful coastlines of the Pacific Ocean, and home to many of my lifetime friends. I have likewise made many new friends, experienced many new situations and encountered new dramas, far more interesting and less ridiculous than the Arizona dramas. Of course, everywhere I go drama seems to follow me, but it is my positive attitude and my transcendent perspective that helps me rise above the challenges that might pull another person down.

That's not to say my life is not filled with challenges, it is - its just a matter of keeping a positive mindset. For example, I teach one Yoga class in a fairly affluent part of town. I guess their affluence somehow gives these members the liberty to act out of selfishness or haughtiness. For the past several weeks, one member has been complaining about the temperature in our classroom. I agree it is well below appropriate temperature for a Yoga class, or any human gathering. This person got me on her bandwagon for a while, she had already complained to the management and nothing changed, so I went up and spoke with the powers-that-be myself. I found out that the air conditioning was controlled by the building management, and the building houses several other businesses, who rely on air conditioning as an essential aspect of their company's operation. In other words, there was no way for me (or our management) to change the temperature.

I have confirmed this information to my students in recent weeks, but the woman continues to bicker about the cold classroom and influence others with her negative mindset. Today she busted in and announced "whoever is here first needs to close these doors, and the doors in the back, so it stays warmer in here", while I was setting up the class and connecting with students. She seemed to get everyone riled up, and before I knew it, the bickering took over. It was my job to cut it off and get them to simmer down. I first suggested everyone wear layers of clothing to class. I then started immediately into the practice, asking students to focus on (and be grateful for) their breath. Grateful for a beautiful environment to practice Yoga in. Grateful for all their working limbs. The bickering finally stopped, but only after these individuals realized I had begun the practice amidst their complaining. My eyes were closed, I was focused on my breath, and many of the conscientious students followed suit. After class, everyone appeared much more peaceful than when they came in. I had done my job. I later mentioned the continued bickering to the manager, who has a broken foot and wheels herself around on a scooter. Are we grateful for all our working limbs, that we can practice Yoga at all? The manager can't, yet she did try to help us with the temperature control initially. Are we grateful for our breath, that it sustains us minute-by-minute, day-after-day? We are not hooked up to an oxygen tank, as my Dad was while in the hospital, just before he passed away from a lung condition. Are we grateful for a beautiful space to practice Yoga, with nice hardwood floors, mirrored walls, amazing acoustics, and peaceful serene lighting?

I teach another class for Senior Citizens. One man complains almost daily, and his negativity is really starting to wear on me. I usually have some sort of positive anecdote for him. He says things like "I am an 86-year-old man, I can't do any of this" when in reality he does just fine. If its not one thing, its another with him. One day he'll complain about the music, another day about my microphone. Last week he complained about the music, the microphone, the room temperature, the level of difficulty of the exercises, and random people coming into the room to do sit-ups - all in one class! My patience was worn down to the last thread. He stresses himself out every time, and he usually stresses out some of the other students in the class. They have become used to him "oh that's just how he is" - but this attitude is self-defeating, negative, and definitely not necessary. After the class I informed the manager about this man (I had mentioned him before) and then worked out my frustrations on the elliptical machine. I am a peaceful person, but when people who have such a negative mindset push my buttons, I seriously need to pump some iron!

These students I have mentioned remind me of the aforementioned people in Arizona with whom I had my challenging relationships. The one man (a 42-year-old man who dates 20-something women) literally complains about everything. He is either complaining, or says negative things about a situation or person, to the point of applying prejudice or unhealthy bias. The girl he is currently with puts up with his negative antics (or at her young age does not know any better), although he finally wore me down, I had to remove his thorn from my side. This man was not merely an irritation, like a small pebble in a shoe, but rather a ton of rocks in my socks, my pockets, and carrying as weight upon my shoulders. Despite his own heaviness, he did not see the "log" in his own eye, he repeatedly made a point to point out the "speck" in mine. My ex and his other friends did the same thing, painted me as some sort of a villain. I realize that everyone has their issues, some even have their skeletons. Better to shake them out and rid them of cobwebs than to continue to wave them around, spreading dirt and brokenness to all the "living" creatures - or those who choose to live peacefully and happily.

My challenge to everyone: try to live your life without bringing other people down. Work things out, find solutions, make amends, just stop your bickering. Placing blame on others or constantly pointing out negative aspects of a situation or a person reflects a negative mindset, an unhealthy perspective, and a poor attitude. My ex had a huge ego - he could do nothing wrong, although his judgment was WAY OFF. He blamed me for EVERYTHING, especially his own faults and shortcomings. He even created scenarios in his own mind that were not even real, then disseminating this false pretense among his friends and family, as though I were some sort of an evil woman. When in reality I am somewhat of a peace-maker, grounded, educated, and spiritual. You can place blame on anyone or anything, but recognizing the fact that your reality is a reflection of your perception, and your attitude about what you perceive.

I have indeed endured lot of interesting situations and scenarios in the last few months, I have barely begun to scratch the surface of my current "dramas". But as you can see, regardless of where life takes me, I must deal with my fair share of challenges, and maintain a positive mindset. As my manager said, "everything happens for a reason". I am eternally grateful to him for giving me that chance to sub the first Yoga class that day, it has turned into a wonderful rewarding job (despite having to deal with challenging people). Remember we are not responsible for anyone else's Karma, but perhaps we can help them with their attitudes. Sometimes a move to a new city, or even a visit to a different city can help adjust our perspective. We don't have to wheel around on a scooter to appreciate all our working limbs.

Every time I visit with my best friend, we exchange stories, and we end up being thankful we are exactly where we are, and NOT in each others' shoes. She has 3 kids and home ownership/financial issues, I have no kids or parenting issues, but I daily endure all sorts of other scenarios, mainly interpersonal. A "drama" can be put into proper perspective when looking at another situation of greater difficulty. An attitude of gratitude can take us a lot farther in life than a lot of bickering, complaining, negativity, and finger-pointing. Choose your own attitude, but try to see situations from other perspectives.

karma police

2011-06-30T01:14:00.005-07:00

"Karma Police, I've given all I can, it's not enough. I've given I can but we're still on the payroll. This is what you'll get when you mess with us." -Radiohead

This song by one of my favorite bands totally resonates with me, as sometimes I feel like the Karma Police myself. However, although I am not responsible for anyone else's Karma, I observe people making bad decisions every day, and I really wish I could help them. "Do unto others as you would have done to you" is an age-old Universal Truth. So why don't people realize it, and simply comply with the Universe? The forces of the Universe are greater than us, but people continue to anger the gods daily. "This is what you'll get when you mess with us." When people project their ill-mannered behaviors onto me personally, I quietly sing the lyrics slightly altered "this is what you'll get, when you cross a Scorpio!" Bad idea in general.

I've written about a few such folks in recent blog postings, who've purposely crossed this Scorpio, and their resulting Karma was not pretty - a severed finger, someone was arrested for substance abuse, etc. "It ain't pretty after the show. It ain't pretty when the pretty leaves you with no place to go" -JD Fortune. Anyway, these people still have to live with themselves regardless of how poorly they treat ME. I do wonder how long they can keep on keeping on as total inconsiderate "humans" (doesn't this defy all laws of human coexistence?). Not only will it catch up with them, it's not very attractive. Not to mention they live in the hot dirty mess of a desert cesspool in Phoenix Arizona. I am often baffled when reflecting upon how I ever got involved with anyone of this lower-end of humanity to begin with! These men are extreme bottom feeders, the ones who suck the life breath out of healthy species, they sure took a lot of my energy. I was talking to a friend today, explaining how I ended up back in San Diego, after I was supposed to move back to Phoenix. After severing a few unhealthy relationships with people who daily bask in their own negativity, paranoid delusions, and condescending attitudes, I admitted to this friend that I am indeed in a better place without them in my life. San Diego it is - 70 degrees today versus 110. Its a no-brainer!

In the case of my ex, the lyrics of the Radiohead song Karma Police totally apply: "I've given all I can it's not enough. I've given all I can but we're still on the payroll." I gave and gave and gave to that relationship. I went out of my way for the guy. I would do anything for him. I even requested a job transfer from the most beautiful place I've ever lived, Seattle, to the dirtiest ugliest hottest place Phoenix, just to be with him. What did I get in return? A major slap in the face, extreme emotional abuse, a few severed long-term friendships, and loss of work for about 2 months while dealing with health issues brought on by his irresponsible and insensitive behavior. But we're still on the payroll. What does that mean? Regardless of what I do to try and improve the situation, I cannot control the Universe, but God has a greater plan, and I need to just persevere as I live my own life to its fullest. I can't worry about him, he will get his karmic payback for what he did to me, in some form or another. I choose to be a positive person, spreading love and light wherever I go, treating others as I want to be treated, smiling at strangers, helping others improve their lives in some way. I am only responsible for my own Karma.

There may still be a lesson to be learned from all of this - though I've yet to understand if/how these individuals will ever be a part of my life again. I'd love to make amends with them, if only they could somehow become positive, loving, caring, understanding, compassionate people. We are indeed still on the payroll, a part of this human race together, until the Universe dictates otherwise. After 6 months of rough waters from the wake of this tumultuous extravaganza, I'm still afloat. I'm rebuilding. I'm staying positive. I'm surrounding myself with healthy (physically and mentally) people. I'm doing my part. I'm sharing my good energy with others, and I'm staying positive. Meanwhile Captain Hostile and company are the ones who have to live with themselves, and are likely still going around treating others with disrespect as they insist on doing to me. They operate like shady criminals, lying about people and situations, one lie covers up the next, and the next, until their reality is built upon lies. Its almost like an alternate reality, their story is so skewed. I figure that at some point, he will be so worn down by his own negativity, previously directed at me. And for what purpose does he do this? It certainly doesn't add any years to his life. In my absence, who is he directing it upon now, or is he still venting about ME, a person who gives nothing but love and positive energy? I haven't been the direct recipient of that hostile energy for a while, though a few of my friends have suffered his wrath. He is a fire sign, so of course burning up in his own negativity. I can't change that, just like I can't control the tides. Fortunately, a new moon and a solar eclipse are upon us today, inspiring everyone to make positive changes as we enter a new cycle.

In case any of my readers are still not familiar with the concept of Karma (what goes around comes around), I will assure you that this can also manifest in a positive way. For example, I am the polar opposite of my ex and his weirdo druggie friends. I spread positive energy everywhere I go. I am a giving person, with a kind heart and a devoted soul. I honor God and the Divine in all that I do. I live every moment to the fullest, and I embrace every relationship with reckless abandon -as we may never have another shot. Life can end in the blink of an eye, why waste it by being negative or condescending? Anyway, today, my endless good energy + Divine timing resulted in some good Karmic payback for me. This afternoon I walked out to the alley to throw out my trash, and suddenly 2 random people appeared, carrying this really nice IKEA dresser they were just going to leave in the alley because the girl was moving out. SCORE! All my furniture is back in Phoenix, so I can really use this dresser! I thought maybe it was my reward for always being so giving. When I left Seattle a few months ago, I left a nice futon and IKEA shelf behind *for whomever*, which I had actually received in a similar manner (in the alley and from a previous tenant). Coincidentally, the girl getting rid of her dresser - to the "magic alley" as she called it - was originally from Seattle. Yep, that's how it works! The Universe gives you what you need, when you need it, and in such a way that you know it could only be Divine Providence. That is, when you keep your heart, mind, and intentions right.

"Karma Police, I've given all I can it's not enough. I've given I can but we're still on the payroll." I've given all I can, but it IS enough. It's just enough for today. Wherever you go, your Karma follows you. If you project positivity and a giving spirit, you will receive the same good energy. We remain on the payroll as long as we inhabit this earth. Your life is yours to do what you want with. You can choose to get involved in toxic relationships with negative condescending people, or you can choose to take the high road and detach yourself from them. Then you can watch through the window, as they tiptoe across broken glass or stumble through desert valleys with swords in hand, to bring other people down into their cesspools of negativity. Call the Karma Police, its a New Moon. We all have a choice, manifest Love and Light, and be the peace.

la haim - to health

2011-06-17T16:17:00.007-07:00

I'm sure you've raised your glass to another person, in a bar or at a dinner party, and said "cheers", in a toast to good fortune or otherwise reveling in celebration. In the Hebrew we raise our glass to toast and say "la haim", which when translated means "to health". Do you consider yourself healthy? Your initial reaction to this question might be "of course I am, that's a silly question". Many people consider themselves healthy, or at least in average health, regardless of unhealthy lifestyle choices they might intentionally make (or mind, body, for spirit). Many others take their health for granted, and even their own breath, which is a gift, as your breath sustains you. You are likely not hooked up to an oxygen tank, therefore awareness of your breath is secondary, if not completely dismissed from your thoughts. You instead might focus your thoughts on work, family, home responsibilities, social life, or even fixate on imperfections you find in others, and allow any of these things to "take over" your life or cause you undue stress. Many people claim they don't have time to work out, travel, or get outdoors into the fresh air, they say they are too busy, have no money, or otherwise speak negative or self-destructive thoughts over their circumstances. I have even heard people go as far as to say they don't have time for a friendship with someone, and they don't even care about another human being's health (physical, emotional, or spiritual), discrediting the beliefs or lifestyle choices of healthy people as "not good enough" for them, or invalid altogether. They prefer to fixate on their own negativity and speak negatively of others rather than to embrace friendship or even act cordial to other humans.

Take a few moments to consider which kind of person you are, healthy or unhealthy? If you claim to be a healthy individual, what parts of your daily lifestyle contribute to your good health? Do you go to the gym, practice yoga, hike, or go for walks around your neighborhood? Do you travel frequently, to explore your world, get out of your little box, and experience other cultures, cities, and countries? Do you eat healthy foods, raw vegetables, natural proteins, avoiding processed foods, bleached carbohydrates, and deep fried fatty excess? Is your weight at an ideal for your age, height, and bone structure? Do you take time to consciously recognize that the spine and core muscles protect your inner organs? Are all your organs in good working condition? How do you know, if you cannot see them? If yes, for how long do you project they will remain that way? Do you smoke, drink alcohol excessively, or use illegal drugs, or abuse any of these substances to the point of addiction? What about other addictions? Do you watch violent, bloody, gory movies, television shows, or play video games containing violence, promoting death and destruction? Do you think that as long as its fiction, then it has no effect on your real life? Did you graduate from high school? Were you active in sports, class council, or receive any honors or scholarships? Do you have a college degree, Bachelors or Masters? Do you read to enhance your personal life, challenge your mind, or increase your knowledge? Do you believe everything you read, hear on TV, or hear from other people, whether you know them well or not? Do you go to church, believe in God, or practice a religion or spiritual path? Do you embrace basic human principles such as "the Golden Rule", treating others (even strangers) with respect, or at least with some ounce of kindness and decency?

Life is a journey. Regardless of where you live in the world, what you do for work, how many children or siblings you have, and what kind of education you have chosen to obtain. As humans, we are all pilgrims on our own journey through life. One wrong choice can lead us into addiction, disease, or even an unwanted child (as if life itself were unwanted) leading to a negative mindset about some aspect of our health (mind, body, spirit). As humans we are also all created as spiritual beings. The simple act of respecting other humans shows that we have an evolved awareness and decision-making process beyond that of a non-evolved species, such as a household pet. Although I've met men who act like dogs, eat like pigs, and treat women like trash. If you have fallen guilty of that, please take some time to reflect on the above paragraphs, and consider the way you treat women - or disrespect them - as a part of a unhealthy lifestyle.

In this journey of life, wherever it takes you, Israel, Mexico, Japan, or the United States, coexistence with other humans is essential. When natural disasters strike such as have recently in Japan and the United States, connecting with other humans, respecting and caring about their lives, and even coming to their aid, is one outward way to demonstrate that you are a healthy person - you care enough to care about someone other than yourself. If a man-made disaster such as violent clashes in Israel and other parts of the Middle East, or acts of terrorism in any part of the world, we may suddenly find ourselves victim to the violence, in which case we can only hope our lives will be spared.

As for our own spiritual connection to the life journey, most people do believe in a higher force of life, a creator or a guide, whether a God, a prophet, angels, and also demons. The energy of the Universe suggests a greater life force, as evidenced by the vast creation of the earth, sky, stars, moon, sun, and planets. Choosing how or what we believe about these tangible aspects of environment as well as foundations built on faith, require a healthy mind, to work in tune with a healthy soul, or spirit. Just as the God of Israel led the Hebrew people out of the wilderness into their own homeland, He too can lead you to safety, out of and away from unhealthy lifestyles, unhealthy "friends" (who may support your unhealthy lifestyle while simultaneously making equally unhealthy choices of their own) just as He continues to provide a safe haven for the Jews despite violent clashes in their homeland.

Make a conscious effort today to live a healthy lifestyle, in the best way you can. You can begin by treating others with respect (even if you feel they've wronged you), and don't speak evil or negative thoughts over them - as you likely don't truly know what has gone on in their life journey. If you feel someone has wronged you, go to them and ask their forgiveness, make things right, instead of living with a grudge against them. Ill feelings or negative thoughts can also contribute to health problems, with the internal organs, excess weight, as well as a clouded mind or figuratively, a hardened heart. Raise your glass to health - "la haim" - as you embrace the world around you and make a conscious effort to be a positive person, on your own individual life journey on this planet.

lost angels

2011-06-07T10:11:00.002-07:00

This past weekend, I visited Redondo Beach, in Los Angeles. I have been a San Diegan most of my adult life, I rarely venture much north of San Diego County, but I have indeed been up to LA a handful of times. Los Angeles means "the angels" in Spanish, or often referred to as the "city of angels". However other than the Anaheim Angels Major League Baseball team, I have not seen an angel, or anything "holy" for that matter, in this particular region of Southern California. This region is home to perhaps the most immoral, ungodly people, with focus on SELF, their egos, their bodies, even plastic surgery for some in maintaining this focus. Thus many individuals are seemingly "fake" or trying to "be someone", as Hollywood beckons and debauchery abounds. Of course ungodly and immoral people live all over the world, but in the United States, Los Angeles has always been known as a mecca for sin-filled lifestyles. There is a lot more crime, violence, and illegal activity to match. In recent years, Arizona seems to have become an "extension" of Los Angeles, as many Californians realized how much cheaper the cost of living is there, and have migrated east. Hence the Phoenix metropolitan area has become overrun by Lost Angels, and I continue to detach myself from this mayhem each year I move away to someplace different (Israel, Seattle, now once again to San Diego).

In recent blogs, I have mentioned a group of people who live in Arizona (extension of LA), known as Team Hostile. These are perhaps some of the most "lost souls" I have encountered in my lifetime. Most of them are addicted to illegal drugs, alcohol, pornography, other evil-influenced media, and choose to live the same sort of self-proclaimed immoral lifestyles as in LA, and as in the Bible before the Great Flood. While spending time in Redondo Beach with my best friend who is a flight attendant (on a long layover there), I shared many stories with her regarding these immoral people and their incredulously ludicrous antics. I told her I ended up filing a police report due to threats upon my safety by a few of them. One of them (a health professional who is ironically a Marijuana addict, dating another drug addict, go figure) spouted off all sorts of delusional banter in an email to me, going off on me about my beliefs, told me "no one cared about my beliefs" or my blog (lol you're reading it aren't you?), accused me of stalking her, and other ridiculous talk. Another friend of theirs threatened to hire a "hit man" to come after me and kill me. And yet another threatened to violently beat me to death. This was a 20-something year-old girl who had just been released from an Arizona Prison on substance abuse charges. I was rather appalled, as although over the years people have shown opposition to my beliefs, no one has actually threatened to physically injure or kill me.

My friend was perhaps the most startled by the revelation that the leader of this pack (Captain Hostile himself) has his own pornography website. She asked "if he has his own porn website, how does he never have any money?" I thought that was a great question, and I told her probably because he spends all his money on upkeep for the website, alcohol, and drugs. His friend who is a gambling addict keeps up that addiction to feed his drug addiction. Its an ongoing dependent cycle, but certainly not a healthy one (as co-dependence rarely is). I also heard that these two men practice bisexual acts with each other and other men. Really, are these REAL people I write about? Who lives their lives like this? A few of my friends have asked "where do you meet these people?" Seriously, right? I didn't even realize such immoral souls existed in this world. Coincidentally, I was introduced to them by a former friend, who is a pedophile (a 40-year old man who historically dates 17 year-olds, and has not yet broken that unresolved pattern). They all feed and support each other's addictions, they accept and encourage each sin as normal and healthy behavior, and I am ostracized for not supporting it. That's fine, I don't need that kind of dirty energy in my life. Honestly, these are NOT quality people for me to be spending my time around/with/on. But, strangely enough, they are Catholic, and I've always wanted to learn more about Catholicism, so this has been a great opportunity. NOT. They are Lost Angels. Skipping right past Pergatory and heading straight to Hell in a handbasket. Burn baby burn!

I've had a few other friends get mixed up in this mess, a few guys (Catholics also, ironically) who basically helped me uncover a lot of this information about these lost souls. Team Hostile and their friends opened their Facebook pages up to the public eye, at which point their immoral lifestyles were revealed publicly. Then they got upset when their naivete regarding leaving the information exposed was brought to their attention. They of course blamed their idiocy on my friends and I, deleted all of us from their Facebook accounts, and blocked a few of us. A few of the team (the gambling/drug addict and the ex-con) referred to my male friends as "girls", and other ridiculous claims. Again, they are on drugs, causing paranoia and delusions of grandeur, and these guys are basically coming out with their bisexuality by referring to men as women, and some of the other things they post on various websites. The whole thing is just bizarre, regardless of whether they delete my friends and I, they are the ones who still have to live with themselves, and rot in their filth. Of course, the individuals who threatened me have been reported to the Police, so I definitely did the right thing in detaching myself from them in this way. Drugs are illegal in the United States. But of course, these people are in Arizona, which seems to currently be burning down by wildfires. Natural disasters: random coincidence or a signal from "Mother Nature" or "Father God"? (see my last blog). Arizona's normally uncomfortable above-100 temperatures already makes it the closest place to Hell on earth, add to that all the socially-accepted debauchery prominent throughout the dull dreary state.

I am blessed to live in San Diego, known as America's Finest City. We keep it classy, people are real and down-to-earth, and we generally have no time for the superficiality of the Lost Angels from neighboring LA or Arizona. Not to say this fine city does not contain sinners, we have quite a few! All human beings are inherently good, but with the fall of Adam and Eve, sin is forever present in each individual. I'm just saying that, although I've had my share of drama in San Diego over the years, nothing tops the cake quite like Team Hostile with their beyond-human levels of debauchery. San Diego does have a big homosexual population. I recall a few years ago when we had our own wildfires causing severe devastation throughout the county, just after a bill was passed favoring homosexuality. I immediately saw it as God's Wrath upon the people for their liberalism in support of homosexual acts, although many residents did not see it as that (other people's homes were destroyed besides left-voters or gays). I just think that all God needs to do is exhale and a tornado can uproot trees. God judges the heart - each individual is ultimately responsible for his or her own soul, and his or her own Karma based on their conduct. This can indeed extend to others in their close circle or community.

I do realize drug abuse (illegal or pharmaceutical) is prominent in San Diego as well as in LA and Arizona. Because San Diego is close to Mexico, we have quite a bit of activity and trafficking here, and always have. Regardless of that I've come to accept Mexican culture as part of our own, many of the city and street names are in Spanish, and we enjoy many of their regional foods. I generally date Mexicans due to their prominence around these parts. I was in Vons the other day and noticed a series of "Jesus candles" (candles inside tall glass jar with decorative Jesus iconography on the outside), a type of votive used by Catholics - displayed randomly on the shelf next to the Mexican spices. It caught me off guard (almost like "Jesus is watching you" even while in the grocery store), so I took a picture and posted it on my Facebook page. Someone posted a comment "are Mexicans and Catholics always synonymous?" My response: "Except for the Juans who aren't." Offering a prayer for the Lost Angels - only Jesus can save you!

natural disasters

2011-05-25T22:38:00.004-07:00

My blog has gotten a lot of hits this past week. I am guessing that my readers either expected me to have been "raptured" on Sunday, or to have written about the controversial "event." Well readers, sorry for the delay. I have been busy finishing up my last week of my online World Cultures class. I'm blessed to have been graced with the inspiration to start blogging again. Between my intensely engaging class and other recent social experiments regarding highly immoral people who have been harassing and threatening me (stupid human tricks, essentially), I have transcended beyond the mundane chit-chat that many of today's Americans engage in. I remember this happening as soon as I moved back to the USA from Israel also. I was in such a different headspace with focus on world events and international culture, that I almost felt as if I could not relate to the local folks back in Arizona, and even in San Diego, my home of 14 years where I returned after living abroad. The wisdom I have attained within my lifetime has indeed influenced my groundedness through recent challenges, providing essential levels of clarity, which has somewhat esoteric, if not surreal qualities.

I do realize my blogs are often hard to read and often even harder to digest. I also realize that many of my readers do not possess any type of higher education, and I've even noticed a particular representation of young adult white-middle-class demographic, or those in the immoral lifestyle bracket - who tend to "make fun of" or misinterpret/re-hash much of what I have to say, and even go as far as taking it out of context. To this I can't relate, nor do I have sympathy when people are that blatantly stupid. You can always ask me questions directly, I am reach-able. Overall, I do try to expand on each of my thoughts, as thoughts become things - real and apparent, often manifesting in tangible ways within our lives. The Universe suggests we hold respect for ALL other living beings, in our presence, or within our reach (which if transcendence applies, projected energies of fellow beings are also included in this). Again, perhaps too much to chew for the simple cud-chewing cattle of suburbia. I do try my best with them, but I cannot continue to coddle them, or to the other extreme, use water-boarding techniques! I must try to accept them, bear with them, stay positive regardless of their negativity, but let it out (as to not hold my thoughts inside like Mr Hostile/Passive Aggressive). Hence I blog about my thoughts, my experiences, my thoughts regarding my experiences, and my experiences regarding my thoughts. Yes, indeed! Today I will touch on the Rapture, and on Natural Disasters. Are they related at all? How do they relate to the Divine, spiritual energy, or the Creator himself?

Throughout these past few weeks, the midwest and southern regions of the United States have endured the deadliest storms of this type since the 1940s. Hundreds have died, at least 700 injured, and nearly 1500 unaccounted for, in the Missouri area alone. One of my students was late for her presentation last night, because in her area of the country (Wyoming), her neighborhood was evacuated due to flooding. I had to accommodate her even though she arrived after all the other students had presented, and some had already left. Another student arrived late, supposedly because "it was his birthday". When he gave his presentation, he appeared less serious, as if perhaps he had been drinking before arriving to class. I had absolutely zero tolerance for him, although I had to try and pretend I did. I had the utmost respect for the woman who had survived the natural disaster in her city. I will admit that with my professional role as an instructor of many subjects at many levels, I have developed a high level of tolerance and despite my frequent ambivalence regarding challenging students. I can honestly say that I generally apply the same principles to non-work-related relationships, whenever possible, this is just my modus operandi. I TRY to keep an open mind and remain objective to them, giving people the benefit of the doubt IN MOST CASES. Unless of course they blatantly disrespect me, like a man referred to in a previous blog as DBWB (douchebag with baby) who I do not know personally. I've blogged about him before, hiding behind his tiny precious baby, all the while spewing out pea soup of his own. Ugliness and its ramifications for natural disaster. So I asked him the other day: "you dish it out, but can you TAKE IT?" I returned to him some of his regurgitated pea soup. I need to focus on TRUTH and REALITY, and put it out on the table with your lunch. So now back to the weather...

Last night, there were 14 tornado warnings in effect. I have never been to the region of the US where these extreme storms are occurring, but have traveled around the US pretty extensively. If you haven't followed these storms, considerable footage is circulating on the internet right now, by amateur videographers and stormchasers alike, such as on holytornado.com. What causes such natural disasters? Are they controlled by the Divine Hand of God, or the WRATH of God? Or are they simply mere *random* occurrences of nature? You may have heard phrases like "mother nature's stern warnings" or "don't piss off mother nature". If you don't believe in God as Creator of the Universe, then these more "earthly myths" might apply to you. Whatever your belief, do you not see the Hand of some Divine force? This is clearly not the work of humans. How is each powerful funnel formed and how is it ultimately so powerful to uproot trees, destroy buildings, pull people from cars, and take people/objects up into the sky - with no mercy upon landing - IF they land in one piece. Mother Nature (aka Father God) has NO MERCY. Similarly there has been considerable flooding in the central states in recent weeks, and of course you know about the recent Earthquake in Japan, and resulting tsunamis upon the Pacific Ocean to coastal cities. Recent extreme weather "happenings" have peaked the curiosity of critics and believers alike - could we be nearing "the End of the World"?

In my last blog regarding the Middle East "peace process", I mentioned that any Nation which intentionally turned its back on Israel (i.e. turn its back on God) would not be spared, and would be destroyed. These *natural catastrophes* began to occur right around the time B. Hussein began the "peace treaty" talks with Netanyahu. Other than Hurricane Katrina (the Gulf oil spill, and 911 which were essentially man-made disasters), and a few earthquakes off the coast of California, the US has never seen such widespread devastation, throughout the entire country. So, is this a mere *coincidence* that God is essentially "destroying" large areas of the United States right now, in the wake of the Middle East Peace process? No. This is a wake-up call, and AMERICA NEEDS TO WAKE UP. Our President has attempted to take on the role of God, and try to "control" what goes on in God's Holy Land. Well, this IS prophesied, in the Bible. From the time the "peace treaty" is signed, the 7 year Tribulation as a countdown to "the End of the World" will begin. In the end times there will be wars and rumors of wars, many more natural disasters than the world has ever known, and of course, widespread debauchery and immoral lifestyles, not to mention idolatry. People's hearts will have turned from God onto self, and even doing harm to others. The "Rapture" will occur before the end of the Tribulation, but "no man knows the day or the hour" -Matthew 24:36-37. Get your heart right with God ASAP.

In the Biblical account of the Great Flood, God instructed Noah to build an ark, and take with him 2 of every living creature, to spare them from the upcoming flood which would cover the earth. Many people think of Noah's Ark as a "children's story", as the Bible is often referred to as "just stories", not applicable to our modern-day lives. But in this account, God decided he was going to destroy all of the evil in the world, washing everyone and everything away and just starting over with the few deemed as heirs to be the lone survivors on the boat. The reason for this flood was that the people had become way too immoral to even be considered human anymore - completely cracked-out and just blatantly belligerent. Sounds like a few folks I've mentioned on my blog, though this is only a sample of a few individuals, who live in a very small speck of the planet. The world contains many such ignorant souls, so this can indeed be viewed on a larger scale. Their immoral lifestyles, hostile treatment of others, and blatant disrespect of God can be compared to the people at the time of Noah before the Great Flood, or many the people living in America currently. As I mentioned on my last blog, one of the Team Hostile members had a *random* bout with Karma, as a direct result of his hostility. But immoral people continue to cry: "why do bad things happen to good people?" Define "good" - are they really?

If the Great Flood was somehow "just a story", it should serve as an illustration to us: continue in your immoral ways, lewd conduct, inappropriate behaviors, disrespectful treatment of other humans, worship of idols or "other gods", sexual sins, and extreme debauchery - and you will be DESTROYED by the Wrath of God (or the forces of nature). Isn't this almost like the premise of "Hell" (for those that believe in the afterlife)? Well what about "Pergatory", since many so-called "Catholic" or "religious" people indeed won't make the cut for the Celestial City in the Clouds? After the Karmic Episode mentioned on my last blog, a "Catholic" (one of the people involved in said incident) told me that he didn't believe in The Universe - referring to the Universal Laws of Karma. Which if that were the case, he would not be STANDING IN IT. Isn't the Earth itself be a part of the Universe? What about inclement weather upon that very Earth? Are such natural phenomena NOT part of the Universe, thus NOT fair-game for "Mother Nature" or "Father God" to influence with the simple touch of a finger? In fact God would not even have to lift a finger, He could simply exhale and a volcano could erupt. You are just ONE PERSON, but your own life, limbs, home, city, or state could easily be destroyed by that exhale as well. Don't hate - appreciate - every breath you take. God judges the HEART.

Well, of course if you don't believe in God or the Universe (the guy I mentioned uses Illegal Drugs by the way, I just like to point out how utterly foolish his statements ultimately sound, once unpacked). What he actually said was "my god does not believe in karma", with a small "g", leading me to believe that we were not talking about the same God, not the God of the Bible (who created the Universe) obviously. Besides for him to "know" what this so-called "god" of his "believes" would suggest he was wearing the actual monkey suit of this "deity" or "demon". There are many "gods". Worship of idols is one of the greatest sins of Biblical times. The first Commandment when God imparted the 10 Commandments to Moses in Sinai: "Thou shalt have no other gods before me" -Exodus 20. This applied to both "graven images" as well as ANYTHING (another "deity", material possessions, another mortal person, a lifestyle choice) that comes between you and God. This man often speaks on others' behalf, so it was no surprise for me to hear him speaking on behalf of "his god" as if he had the authority to do so. This actually convinced my family and friends that the guy is a delusional nut job (as most good drug users are). I couldn't help but to reply to he and his girlfriend with similar regurgitated pea-soup cud as well. Eat it up, posse!

As for the Rapture, "no man knows the day or the hour". This was perhaps the most essential little piece of information which was left out of the Rapture theory forecast by Harold Camping. Although many of his scriptural references were sound, he did not bring it all together. Just like many people in this world know "a lot of stuff", but without that connection, the simple missing puzzle pieces, words, phrases, or ideas - they cannot deliberate a solid theory. Likewise no man can "become" God or attempt to 1-up God somehow, or he will somehow be punished or destroyed. The same principle can apply to any situation, really. Understanding often comes after ALL the pieces of the puzzle are revealed and fall into place. A member of "Team Hostile" recently contacted me, and after providing a series of true statements and facts to them, said "we don't believe you, we think you are lying". Well, all I can do is provide facts, but if you leave your heart and mind closed, nothing can get in, including truth and revelation. The Bible itself is a FREE publication, accessible on the internet and free phone apps as well, but do people read it? How to understand if not by study? You can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink. Like a child putting his hands over his ears and "la la la la, I don't hear you!" All I can recommend is: keep listening, thinking, asking questions, and seeking the Truth. Only the Truth will set you free from your disbelief, from your confusion.

God is a just God. But He brings people and situations to Justice in His own way, in His own time, by His own hand. Any man who puts himself before God, whether regarding Israel's independence, whether in a lifestyle of immorality, or in behaving with hostility or disrespect towards another human, God will judge them and deal with them accordingly. A Nation, a Team, or an individual. The Forces of the Universe (Mother Nature, etc) have no mercy. So think about this before you try to play "god". Human life is precious. We must be thankful for every breath, for all our working limbs, for life itself. We must continue to treat others with respect, especially if they are struggling or suffering in some way, physically or amidst their circumstances (you may not even know their background, or their current circumstance, so don't judge based on your ignorance). My heart goes out to the tornado and flood victims in the United States, but my heart remains turned towards God, as an American-born citizen, I stand for Israel as the the Holy Land of the Jews - even if the government of my country does not. Stand for something, or you will fall for anything. Don't be an ignorant cud-chewing cow and follow the pack, even if you can't see the forest for the trees. When the trees fall, you will be left alone in the vast wilderness of death and despair. And you WILL be left behind.

the peace process

2011-05-20T14:04:00.000-07:00

This week's Scorpio Full Moon has certainly brought about the intensity for which it stands. A full moon is like a spotlight, shining down to help bring healing and resolution. "This Scorpio Full Moon is all about opening the heart and allowing the dark emotions to rise to the light of day and find the security and serenity offered" in that solace -for those who choose Love and Light for their lives. So how could I not blog about it? Well, lets begin by considering my recent titles "religious zealot" (for my faith in God and broad understanding of other religions), a "weirdo" (for believing in the moon and stars which God created, i.e. Astrology), and "many levels of crazy" (for my transcendent levels of depth beyond surface perception, and inclination to push the envelope at times). To the casual reader, perhaps confusing or overwhelming, but for those who know me personally, that's just Scorpio Lisa, in full intensity.

The week began on an intense note for the international community with the violent clashes in Israel, on 3 borders. Coincidentally on Sunday, I went to a pro-Israel rally/festival at Mission Bay in San Diego. It was mainly held to create awareness about Israel, and many of the Jewish organizations in the area were represented. Of course most of you know I lived in Israel for about a year, while working on my Masters in Middle East Studies. In fact the initial purpose of this blog was to document my travels, but since my return has turned into a collection of writings, political, sociological, philosophical, and religious in nature. Anyway when I got to the rally, there was quite a bit of security all around, I felt like I was being closely examined by a few of them. I was thinking, come on folks, don't I look Jewish to you? Well I got a little refresher on my Hebrew while I was there, and signed up to be involved with a few pro-Israel activist groups (as if I didn't already have a target on my back) look forward to some upcoming posts on that! Since I left Israel I have not done too much with my Middle East knowledge, my languages learned while over there, or my degree in general (I really only use my 1st MA, Communication). I recently dated a guy who practiced Israeli martial art Krav Maga, although I never got to see him do it because he was essentially paying for the classes but not going... but I digress. The reason for the heightened security at the rally was because Sunday marked Israel's 63rd anniversary of becoming a state in 1968, thus the anniversary of the Nakba. I was later informed that violent clashes had been erupting all day, by the Palestinians upon Israeli territory and inhabitants thereof.

The other day, President B. Hussein Obama declared publicly that he would be working towards a 2-state solution for Israel and the Palestinians, in the wake of the Scorpio Full Moon chaos over there. This is certainly not the first time a US President has declared such, in fact the Middle East Peace Process has been going on since the British first inhabited the land in 1917. But it is the first time since he was elected that - the Kenyan-born, Muslim-raised, somehow-elected US President - has even publicly considered "going there" since he's been in office. I vividly remember one of his campaign speeches during which time he was running against Hillary Clinton (his now Secretary of State, yes I still want her job) that he addressed this topic, and rambled on and on for what seemed like a half hour about his opinion on Israeli-Palestinian peace process and 2-state solution - a topic which was obvious he knew ZERO about! I'm sure he's been debriefed since that time, probably by his former Chief-of-Staff, the Jewish Rahm Emanuel (who I have a love-hate relationship with and wish he would have stuck around, but again, I digress) per his extensive international expertise. Either way, the majority of the American public has no clue about this region or the reasons why a 2-state solution is not feasible, primarily because they have no first-hand knowledge of the region, the people, the culture, or the inherent reality conceived only by living there and studying it while immersed in the culture. Do I understand it all? You betcha. After all, that's why I moved to Israel and obtained the degree that I did. And its in my blood, being of Jewish descent.

In regards to a 2-state solution (i.e. peaceful coexistence among parties), I am seeing a parallel in my own life, especially this week with the Scorpio Full Moon's amazing "spotlight" energy. You know what they say "NEVER cross a Scorpio", so who in their right mind would do that anyway, but under a Scorpio Full Moon, look out! Scorpio represents intensity, and this full moon's energy proved that to be the case indeed. As I mentioned in a recent blog, a group of individuals headed by a hostile ex, launched a hate-speech campaign against me on a private Facebook page (public to only about 200 people, mostly unknown to me personally anyway). A few of them had been incredibly hostile to me, to the point that I have never experienced such hostility upon me directly in my entire lifetime. These people were vulgar, belittling, condescending, mean, and spiteful. They have yet to display the backbone necessary to have a conversation with me directly regarding the very issues they question (ill-founded false accusations, and denial of medically-proven facts, primarily), ignore, avoid, or block me when I extend my hand to them, yet they continue to go behind my back, backstab me, and encourage others (whom I don't know) to do the same. I learned of all the backstabbing through a mutual friend, literally the next day after I had stated my peace to the leader of this warring faction.

Anyway, in my unwavering attempts to make peace with this warring faction (we'll call them "Team Hostile"), I continue to extend my hand in friendship, send them positive thoughts, notes of encouragement and love, kindness and forgiveness, and offers for reconciliation. I pray and meditate on the situation daily, but I keep thinking, if I was supposed to have closure, I would have got it by now, so what to do? If I have released this to God, and trust the Universe that they will either come around and accept my friendship and love, or that they will just basically be left at the mercy of God's Divine Hand, I no longer have a hand in the matter. From that point, whatever happens is left to God, the Universe, Karma. God is a just God and judges the heart, but if the heart remains hardened, and only negative energy and hateful speech continue to spew forth, God has no choice but to spew them out of His mouth. Regardless of my positivity, which it takes much less energy to maintain than negativity. Well, I have shared my beliefs in God, Jesus, Astrology, and the Laws of Karma with them, but again, no takers, no responses, like talking to a wall. I can only speculate that in their continued avoidance of ME, their fire of anger and ill-will is still burning and churning like a big boiling cesspool of unresolved angst. Whatever the state of their hearts actually is (I don't know because I they do not talk to me), as human beings on this earth they are well aware of the Laws of Karma, and they themselves have been known to quote the Golden Rule (although they clearly do not practice it). Keep in mind I have no control over either of these Universal Truths, I am just Love and Light, and will continue to be.

The other day, under the Scorpio Full Moon, I decided to lay all my thoughts out to this ex in an email, just to release the situation again. I had done this a few weeks ago in the form of a formal written letter delivered to the person directly, but had not heard back, so I wanted to follow up and re-iterate a few things. Mainly about the condition of his heart, my concerns regarding some of his lifestyle choices (such as alcohol addiction/sexual promiscuity), and vices (such as pornography addiction) which hold him back from being able to peacefully coexist with a woman who cares about his HEART. I sent his sister an email addressing my primary concerns as well. Of course, coexistence is key among any people in any culture or community, or on the planet as a whole, so stating my position was crucial for any type of peace process to begin. We have seen issues between Israelis and Palestinians for years, but both sides' resistance to change has created tension, social, political, as well as spiritual.

I had suggested blogging as a great outlet for Mr Hostile (of course as long as it is not on his private, members only porn site where only porn stars who could care less can read it) but although he said he was going to, he hasn't yet that I know of. But I can still feel the energy he projects, which is pretty intense, its actually kind of scary for me, after having felt his love and now the dark contrast. One of my doctors suggested I "report" this guy, but I realized this is a totally different level than domestic abuse or harassment or something. Its a heart and mind issue, his closed heart and negative attitude have created negative energy for everyone around him, who are all subject to his ill-founded nonsense and then in turn become negative in joining him (again people I have never met), defensive (blocking me), avoidance or even afraid to reply (as if I am going to hurt them) and seemingly paranoid (delusions of grandeur, stuff blown all out of proportion) based on some of the stuff I've read. People have accused me of judging or slamming THEM, when in reality, I am the one being slammed, and God knows that because HE alone is the Judge. The Judge of the Heart, who controls the Universe.

Literally the next day after I sent him this open-hearted letter (revealing all Scorpio intensity of the Full Moon's Energy), the Universe decided it was time to send a little Karmic payback to him and his Team Hostile. Somebody else dear to his circle actually took one for The Team. As I mentioned, all along I have been extending my hand to them in friendship, support, love, and good will gestures, including providing help and information regarding some things related to health. That day one of the Team members was moving, and her dad extended his hand in love, to help and support her with her move. In doing so, somehow *randomly* the car door slammed shut on his finger, completely amputating part of his finger off, and he had to be rushed to the emergency room! When I received word of this incident, I almost could not believe what I heard, and have been in an utter state of shock since that time, I've actually been really shaken up about it. My prayers go out to her and her family, and was a real shame that her dad had to suffer the brunt of her boyfriend's (my ex's best friend) negative ju-ju and unrelentless slamming hostility of me. Innocent bystanders who mean well continue to get hurt by the fallout of this. Point is there shouldn't still BE a fallout, but the Universe promises that there WILL be until they can make peace with me. Well I'm in!

Nothing happens *randomly*, so we can certainly see a clear connection to the unrelentless power of Karma in this situation. You could say God has a sense of humor per the irony of it all, although His wrath is certainly *no laughing matter*, and He won't be mocked, nor will His children. Just as I have had my hand "slammed" or slapped away endlessly by Team Hostile, for the father of one of them to have the same thing happen to him, only NOT figuratively, is a sure sign that there are forces greater than ourselves at work in our lives and controlling it all. They call me "crazy" for believing in the truths of the cosmos, but if this is not as black-and-white as it gets, I wonder what ill will befall them next? Obviously I did not cause or create this *random* situation with the car door slamming on his hand, but all of Team Hostile's hostile energy towards me DID (cause-effect law of Karma). I always tell them "remember the Golden Rule" in how you live your life, and "do unto others as you'd want done to you", but in a once-removed situation, where I was not geographically anywhere near them, we definitely need to credit this one on the Universe. Team Hostile=0, Universe=1. Her dad took one for the Team indeed. Will they learn their lesson? The only way I'll know is if they release their grudges against me and make amends. Then we can all truly have peace.

I was truly totally shocked by this news at first, but now I realize this is likely *only the first of several* incidents that will occur in their lives under the current cosmic energy. As long as they continue to have hardened hearts, closed from receiving God's love, my love, my friendship, my peace offering (wholeness of heart and hand extended), they will not have true peace. This is not any kind of ultimatum set by ME personally, nor can I judge them for their actions, NOR DO I - I simply KNOW they are wrong, because what they do violates the basic tenets of humankind. This is just point-blank the way the Universe works, per the Laws of Karma, which I did not create, and similarly I have no control over their Karma (other than opting to extend my hand, I have done my part). God is a Just God, but a Vengeful God, especially when someone blatantly harms one of His own. I also know that if somehow they decide move their target off me and onto someone else, perhaps another innocent bystander who means well (like they did to one of my guy friends a few weeks ago and attempted to do to my best friend) then they will continue to have unfortunate situations occur in their lives, and perhaps doubly so by that token. Karma can be a bitch, but only if you treat her like one! .

The Jews have been persecuted for years. Persecuted for their faith, persecuted for inhabiting the land which is rightfully theirs and has always been, persecuted for their success on this earth, in Israel and to the ends of the map. This is because the Jews are God's chosen people, they are His own, descendants of Abraham under the Covenant. The Arabs think they are, but their race was born of Isaac, Abraham's illegitimate child from which time he impregnated an Egyptian maidservant. History and politics are complex, especially in Israel, but let this be a lesson. No one can kick the Jews out of their homeland, not even B. Hussein with his wanna-be peace treaty. They say "peace peace" but there is not peace. True peace only comes from God, and from submitting to His will, placing Him as sovereign. The Bible indicates that anyone who denies God or denies Israel as the Jews homeland will be cursed. The US is in for a big surprise if we turn our back on Israel. Sure coexistence among warring factions in Israel is necessary, but they get along as fine as they can now, each going about their business, as long as they treat each other with respect. I lived there, I know how it is -not what the media tells you necessarily. If everyone could just be a little nicer to each other, more open to the others, and less resistant, they can accept it for what it is - necessary peaceful coexistence. The people I met first-hand while I lived there were ok with it, it is what it is basically. But the terror groups like Hamas (and like Team Hostile) make it really hard for people to simply BE PEACE. They blow things out of proportion, basing the mere need for their conflict on lies and ill-founded precedence.

Is it possible for these people to find the peace they seek? Yes, but only if they seek God first. If not for God's Peace, there can never be true peace, in this peace process, or for eternity. This applies to conflicts among warring factions and individuals alike. Our time on this earth is short, indeed too short to hold grudges, but as long as we do, we will have conflict (brought upon by the choice to maintain the negativity), as the energy of the Universe, Laws of Karma, and Wrath of God will dictate - and will show no mercy. You saw this with the example of the man who simply tried to extend his hand in love, but had it slammed per Team Hostile's hostility towards others who extend love. Keep it up kids, and keep reaping your Karma. You reap what you sow, and what you do will be done to you, ten-thousand fold, if even in an indirect manner. We hold these universal truths to be self-evident, thus there is no arguing with them. Forgiveness, reconciliation, and a shared understanding is what I seek, in our peace process. The Golden Rule is the only way to live - lest we endure payback from the Universe, beyond the traditional Nakba.

confessions on a dance floor

2011-05-15T23:58:00.001-07:00

"Confessions on a Dance Floor", perhaps my favorite album by Madonna, controversial yet wildly successful international pop icon. While I have been a professional dancer, choreographer, and dance instructor for years, like Madonna, I am no stranger to controversy. In the 1980's Madonna's heavy religious themes juxtaposed her suggestive promiscuity, thus may critics jumped on the defense against her. How risque, how dare she push the envelope in such a manner? How will this influence the millions of young women who look up to such a pop icon? Well her music has certainly evolved over the years, as has she, in her own personal, professional, creative, and spiritual journey. I believe she started as Catholic, then Jewish, and now? She's still just mainly doing what she does best, and that's what matters most. She is indeed a successful woman to be respected.

One of my favorite TV shows is "Dancing with the Stars", in which a "star" (actor, athlete, or other celebrity) is paired up with a professional dancer to teach them how to dance, perform, and compete in front of a live audience, and millions of viewers at home (who then cast votes electronically, to seal their fate). I have been teaching dance classes and performing for years, and I find this show to be wildly entertaining, enriching, and valuable for anyone who has ever worked in the performing arts. This season's cast is laden with controversial contestants, including a sex-talk-radio DJ host (who unfortunately got voted off in week 1), 2 Playboy models, a liberal talk show host, and always graced with the presence of flamboyant professional dancers and judges. The inherent issues such a spectacle creates is nothing new to myself personally, having worked in the dance performance industry, the professional design industry, taught at art schools, and also in the fitness industry. It is what it is, although I don't necessarily agree with these lifestyles - it certainly makes for great entertainment, for any average viewer.

I was not familiar with her before this season, but contestant Kendra Wilkinson was a once a stripper, and part of Hugh Heffner's crew, and I believe upon her involvement with DWTS introduced Karina Smirnoff to Playboy, as she has recently posed in the popular publication as well. When I learned of Karina's nude modeling in Playboy, I was a bit surprised, as I had a little higher level of respect for her. However I realize many people have differing views on Playboy, and on pornography in general - is it "art" or an "appreciation" for women's bodies, or is it demoralizing and raunchy? I personally feel it is degrading to women. While of course I do not know Karina personally, she is one of my favorite pros on the show. A good friend with whom I watch the show can't stop commenting "I have seen ALL of Karina now, and I wish I hadn't, because that's all I can think about when she is dancing with Ralph!". Although many of the costumes are quite revealing, there is a fine line between flashing some skin and sacrificing one's integrity as a woman. As a relatively attractive successful female performer myself, many fans and friends at times have suggested I become a stripper, because of my natural gravitation to the limelight, my Scorpio sensuality, and skill in dance (the pole being no exception), and the monetary compensation it would provide for my life. But I have indeed maintained my moral backbone over the years and not subjected myself to the inherent perils of the pornographic lifestyle. I have heard stories of women who become strippers and porn stars, becoming hooked on drugs, contracting and transmitting a plethora of STDs among other adherents of this paradigm. Who would purposely invite any of that upon themselves?

I recently dated a guy who had his own pornography website. Believe it or not, this was not Red Flag #1, because I did not find out about it until after we had broken up, even though I knew he was formerly employed at a porn billing company so I should not have been surprised. If I had to list his immediate Red Flags, they would have probably been: lack of desire to go out due to gravitation towards staying home and watching movies and TV every night, lack of monetary funds to do so, unbearably messy apartment, unsanitary bathroom, snoring, hot temper, continual insistence on telling me what to do or ordering me around, inability to have a cohesive conversation -as his attention was always on TV or random people in the bar instead of me, no college education, incredible substance abuse problem, frequently said things which he later didn't remember saying, denial of all of the above, and overall disrespect for women, myself primarily. Needless to say, I am no longer with the guy. I think I thought he had a little more to offer initially, but soon figured out there was just a few sandwiches missing from his picnic basket. My curiosity peaked however, and I've since discovered many more issues especially regarding his (in)ability to communicate openly and honestly with women. He grew up with older sisters, one of whom ironically insists on speaking on his behalf. You'd think that the women in his life who are positive influences (like sisters and mother) would help nurture, teach, and encourage him regarding relationships with women, but regardless of upbringing and female influence, not all men possess the same integrity or convictions about important life issues.

In a recent email to his sister, I asked her what she thought of his pornography addiction. Rather than looking more closely at this as a moral values issue (they are supposedly Catholic, Virgin Mary is holy Madonna), she accused me of "harassing him" because I discovered his website (via a simple Google search for his name and email address) and then brought it to his and her attention. I also asked her how she felt about certain porn stars who were among his Facebook friends, as well as his relationship with another woman who works in the pornography industry who is a personal friend of his. To which his sister exclaimed to him, "how does she know who your Facebook friends are, I thought you blocked her from your page? Block her, and change your passwords - I command you!" In her overprotectiveness of her brother and attempting to maintain high standards for his dating life (I was certainly never good enough for him, God knows who else she's disapproved of) she totally missed the point of what I was asking her: "are you ok with his porn addiction? Do you know these individuals whom he calls *friends*, and do you believe they are wise choices for his companionship?"

I felt like she was protecting him, trying to shield him from what she perceived to be unhealthy for him (i.e. ME), all the while he had actually chosen to stick with the route most degrading and disrespectful to "real life" women, by choosing the porn over me. He had basically closed himself off, deleted and blocked people on Facebook (myself and some of my friends), and instructed his friends and family to do the same. He had essentially isolated himself regarding this issue, to keep his addictions private, or at least push me as far as possible away, because I had become fully aware of some of his more unhealthy tendencies. Protect thyself, lest anyone discovers your secret addictions! I wonder if his sister is fully aware of his activity in this realm, or if she thinks she is helping him by encouraging him to stay in it and in turn push me away, even as a friend who cares about him. Perhaps I'll never know, but perhaps I am in a better place having moved on from him. Although our secrets are safe with God, and He forgives us of our deepest darkest sins, Catholics believe they must practice admission of guilt in a semi-formal "Confession" in front of a Priest. So what's done in darkness will eventually come to light. Unless of course, we keep these undisclosed desires suppressed.

Recently, actor Charlie Sheen was caught red-handed in his debauchery: heavy cocaine addiction, running a porn ring, and a lot of high-strung euphoria, which would be perceived as cream-of-the crop by anyone in this lifestyle. He was running 2 porn houses down the street from each other, basically mansions for the porn stars to go and party, and film their porn. I am not clear as to what the charges were against Mister Sheen, or if the porn houses are still open for STD exchange, but his career has certainly suffered as a result when his hit TV show was pulled from the air in the wake of all the controversy. Also in the news, upon searching through Osama Bin Laden's personal belongings after his removal from our planet, it was discovered that he had his own extensive porn collection. For a Muslim, this sin transcends far beyond that of a non-religious man or proponent of any other faith (as we can choose to go to God, confess our sins, and be forgiven). Muslims believe that once they reach Janna (heaven) they will have 40 virgins (or Madonnas) awaiting for their pleasure.

It is probably unfair to isolate any one instance of sexual addiction, as any red-blooded man should naturally have a desire for women's bodies. Its just a matter of respecting the woman as a fellow human being, understanding and being sensitive to her mind, spirit, soul, feelings, and emotions, not just her beautiful body. Last night while out dancing at a Salsa club, a man approached my friend and I and asked us the following question. "Would you rather have a guy who can cook, or a guy who can dance?" My friend became giddy, and blurted out "cook!" but before she could answer fully, I glared at the man and stated firmly, "DUH, DANCE." They both looked at me in amazement, jaws dropped. I proceeded to explain rather simply, "its about the connection between your mind and your body. If a man can't connect, he can't respect". You see, for women, respect is all we require, but we have a mind, spirit, soul, feelings, and emotions in addition to our beautiful bodies - all of which can be fragile at times. But it takes two to Tango, so please be careful to not step on our toes, or you will get voted off the dancefloor and sent home! Keep up the with the tempo of the music, and tune in to your partner on all levels. Try to let go of unhealthy habits or secret tendencies that might hold you back from truly WINNING, as a competitor on the dancefloor of love and life.

Interpretive Art

2011-05-11T06:32:00.005-07:00

You've heard it said, "there are 2 sides to every coin", or to every story - perhaps sometimes even 3 or 4 sides, or interpretations of something. Interpretation is a concept which is certainly prominent in critique of art, but what about in critique of people? In my last blog, I mentioned the concept of perception, and how when critiquing art, some students may provide a different assessment of the piece when describing it, or lack the depth of critical thinking often necessary to review a piece. In the class I am currently teaching, we have been studying art of the Renaissance, an era in which many artists were commissioned to paint inside churches and other standalone pieces (reliefs, paintings, sculpture, etc). The artists were often paid to provide significant pieces containing depth of meaning which were often interpreted in many different ways, even by the patrons themselves. The art of the Renaissance was largely based on themes both religious and political, and borrowed from themes of previous eras such as the Greco-Roman cultures - juxtaposing idealism, humanism, myth, and perfection. The Greeks portrayed finely-chiseled bodies, with muscular and skeletal strength displayed as the human "ideal". The artists of the Renaissance then took this concept and added to it, incorporating elements of perspective (2D vs 3D, as well as interpretive) and realism to each human figure.

It seems silly to think of a human being as "perfect", because our roots in the Garden of Eden (which is in modern-day Iraq btw) set forth the evolution of our own demise. Humans are imperfect beings, although God our Creator Himself is perfect, and creates each of us in His image (or in his own special way), under a particular set of stars, at a particular time, with a unique essence breathed into each of us. Regardless, humans often hold an ideal image of what another human should be, an idealized version of a mate, a family member, a family member's mate, a friend, a colleague, an acquaintance, or even an enemy. If we as imperfect beings do not match that ideal (or fantasy) held by the other imperfect beings, we are often criticized and critiqued beyond that which should be accepted in any society or era. I have noticed this occurs quite a bit more in American society than many other countries I have lived in or visited, and surprisingly occurs moreso among Catholics than say Buddhists, Muslims, Jews, or even Christians (the religion which has provided a springboard for the ritualistic traditions of Catholicism). While I study/practice a variety of religions and schools of thought, I am able to thus delineate the various nuances exhibited by proponents of each.

As I mentioned in my last blog, as with the example of the Hot Pink girl, some people's perception is just off. The concept of finger-pointing is especially prominent among proponents of the Catholic faith, because of the heavy guilt factor instilled into them. They have envisioned themselves as perfect, exalted beings, thus nobody can hold a candle to their flaws. They have to go to "confession" in front of a priest, behind closed doors, to confess their wrongdoings. Yet publicly they pride themselves in putting others down in order to elevate themselves above others, even if it means altering facts, creating false pretense, taking information out of context, basing their reality on skewed tangents of self-generated confusion, or nitpicking on a detail which was meant to be a flaw (yes, Hot Pink, we all have them -even "perfect" you with all your own inherent contradictions). Jesus the Master Teacher stated in Matthew 7:4, "How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?". However many individuals who practice the traditions of Catholicism (or claim to be Catholic) don't spend the time studying and applying the scriptures of God's Holy Word. Most of what they chant in Mass is in Latin, as if they are speaking gibberish (particularly for those who don't speak Latin normally), therefore unable to apply this text as truth in their own lives. Some do choose a path of moral upstanding in society, and even explore their spirituality in conjunction with tradition of the text.

Now back to the Renaissance. Let's take Leonardo da Vinci's famous masterpiece painting, the Mona Lisa, as an example. In this era, paintings were often commissioned by church officials, such as the Pope. While the commissioner of the painting may have one interpretation of the painting, a random viewer might have another, an art student yet another, the artist of course another, and perhaps even the subject of the painting (as in this case a portrait) a different perspective on her own life than her myriad of critics might speculate. A few weeks ago in class, the students were instructed to provide a critique on a particular piece of artwork, based on the culture and context in which the piece was created. What were the artists thinking when they created this art? Most renowned works of art have been critiqued endlessly throughout time.

In viewing the Mona Lisa, one student in my class asked "is that a woman or a man?" The subject seems somewhat asexual. Some viewers have speculated the Mona Lisa is Leonardo's sister, some say his lover, while others may say she was a distraught woman because of the seemingly expressionless look on her face lending to the complexity within. A Catholic priest who is a pedophile might speculate that the Mona Lisa is a lesbian (due perhaps to his own unresolved sexual issues). Of course, how would we know for sure unless we ask the artist Leonardo directly, or the woman in the painting herself? Perhaps she will tell you that she is a single mother, who had a child out of wedlock, before putting herself through college (so she could attempt to learn to read and write in complete coherent sentences). Or what if she cannot respond directly, due to temporal-spatial restrictions, or chooses not to, due to communication barriers? We can ask other people who might know her, or others who have looked at this painting of her, but if they do not know the artist or subject themselves, we would be basing our own evaluation on someone else's opinion (which may or may not be positive, or even true!). Thus we are often left to mere speculation, and the inner workings of the mind can sometimes produce quite a riot.

Now in the critique of other people living in our current era, do we have the option of interacting with the person directly, or must we merely speculate as with the art of the Renaissance? Some people such as celebrities or politicians are often inaccessible, yet they are evaluated under microscopes daily, completely chastised and ridiculed, or to the other extreme, exalted above the rest of humankind. If they (or we) are the subject of public criticism or slander, but not all sites are monitored, how can this critique be controlled? If the internet was somehow policed, a lot of blogs and opinion websites would probably be taken down, including "private" Facebook pages, even those only available to a small exclusive set of 200 mere blue-collar workers, most of whom possess no higher education, and no first-hand knowledge (direct experience) with the person or idea they are ranting about. The "pseudo-public" forum that is created as a soapbox for 1-2 individuals then welcomes the other 200 "exclusive" members (only about 20 of whom -also completely uneducated and ignorant- actually opt to read and reply) thereby creating good times for morons, at someone else's expense.

Thanks to a serindipitous series of events, I was recently granted access to one such "exclusive" forum, which was basically a negative hate-speech soapbox, or critique, about me. I saw that they called me LL (which stands for "Love and Light"), but they also labeled me as a "stalker", due to my forthcoming communication style and persistent efforts to request a conversation regarding an issue which affects someone's health. A fellow health professional (we'll call her LB, my initials also) suggested I could be her BFF, which if I had the opportunity to meet her personally we would probably have a lot of commonalities to share and discuss, she seems like a really nice person who does not deserve to be subjected to such negative hostility. However her comment seemed more of a jab, as though she was actually trying to undermine my extensive expertise regarding homeopathic remedies, the fitness and wellness industry, and knowledge of chronic diseases (made fun of my medical paperwork). These critics also suggested that I "drive in diapers" (like I'm going to crap my pants upon finally meeting them in person because they will probably sit on me with their massive weight, thereby forcing something out instantaneously?) and am technologically challenged when trying to block someone's email address (gee I wonder why I needed to block them? Don't hate the player, hate the game, fool!). They called me "crazy", an "idiot", and a "nutter" -can't say I've ever heard that one before (a man I've never met but hides behind a picture of his baby, who will probably also grow up to be a disrespectful douchebag like his belittling father). Those whom I'd never met personally proceeded to advise others in the forum on how best to further their ignoring or slandering of me. If I did know these individuals personally, I would probably consider driving over to their homes or offices and leaving a beautiful boquet of flowers on their doorstep (and I bet it would still be sitting there dead a month later due to their ignorance of how to care for something so beautiful). Kill 'em with kindness, I always say. Treat others like you'd want to be treated, the Golden Rule. You know, the basic Karma 101 stuff. What do you mean you've never heard that? You living in suburbia, where only our homes, cars, and credit matter? Out on a boat at sea? Welcome to the mainland, o exclusive excitable ones. Be positive and love your life. I fail to see what in this critique of me is remotely positive.

One of the individuals responsible for the slanderous hate-speech forum against me (we'll call him Mr. Hostile -somewhat of a Passive Aggressive type) went as far as saying he wanted to start a blog about me. He has previously expressed that he does not like my behavior, and asked me to leave him alone (I should have thought to tell him the same, about 3 years ago!). I would love if he does start a blog, and if he does, I will be sure to link to it from this blog! I was pretty impressed about this (not to mention flattered) because this is an individual who generally keeps all his feelings suppressed and refuses to have direct conversations with the person whom he most harshly criticizes, behind their back. Blogging is a great outlet, it can be compared to writing a critique about a piece of fine art -especially with a theme-based blog. Whether we know the subject in the painting (such as the Mona Lisa) or we are merely studying the piece of art, we may or may not have access to the painter or creator of the art. Mr. Hostile does have direct access to me as well as to my Creator, God (the Divine Artist), but chooses to not contact either of us directly. Fear must have a root somewhere, no? On a more somber note however, a well-meaning good-natured friend deleted his own Facebook profile due in part to the excessive levels of slander written about me on Mr. Hostile's page. Another friend recently deleted his Facebook page also because he realized our virtual selves are not always necessarily our true selves. We humans as individual thinkers with free will, possess the ability to control the levels of critique we want to let in, or surround ourselves with. The ability to critique, criticize, support, praise, or think positively or negatively about someone or something, real or imagined. We are each responsible for our own Karma.

Mr. Hostile finally went on to critique this masterpiece (me) as having "many different levels of crazy". I thought this was indeed profound, as many works of art and artists throughout time have possessed multi-faceted layers of depth and interpretive qualities. A comparable masterpiece which comes to mind immediately is Michaelangelo's Sistene Chapel, a collection of detailed ceiling frescoes painted with vibrant colors, to celebrate Catholicism and belief in God during the Renaissance. The average viewer might see this deeply extensive and complex work of art with uncultured eyes and proclaim "that is crazy! What was going through this guy's mind?" as this highly regarded series of paintings covering the ceiling provide varying levels of intricate detail and complexity. Many of the master painters possessed and exhibited such complex levels of philosophical, theological and even psychological depth, that I often think that we artists are generally on a different playing field than the average little Tommy student. But these lower-level learners don't even go as far as to observe beautiful art, read descriptions of depth, or write their own critique, only quick to retort and dole out criticism without an open mind or a connection to deeper inner truth. Some have not even passed a second-grade reading comprehension level, so how can they be expected to demonstrate "the ideal"?

If Leonardo da Vinci were a virtual artist in today's world, his Mona Lisa would get added, deleted, liked, poked, and tweeted, by a myriad of critics. Would this painting have such an impact in society if the subject were wearing a Hot Pink shirt instead? If this is the ideal, why doesn't everyone fit into it? By disallowing ourselves to see the beauty in all creations, or multiple sides to every coin, its like we are leaving a beautiful boquet of flowers outside to rot.

Golden Fools Despise Wisdom

2011-05-03T01:50:00.004-07:00

"Do not speak in the hearing of a fool, for he will despise the wisdom of your words." -Proverbs 23:9, NKJV.

Well hello world! Once again I return to the blogosphere, with this very special message for this very electric New Moon. If you've followed this blog in the past, you know that other people's oddities often fuel my passion, thereby driving my writing. Within the last few days, I have been labeled a "fool", a "weirdo", and "crazy", by someone who has never met me personally. None of these terms, of course, describe my true essence, in fact, quite the contrary. Anyone who actually knows me knows that I am grounded, intelligent, and, well ok - spiritual. What were my last 2 blogs about, religion and astrology? Could it be that God created the Heavens and the Earth? If so, could a religious person also be aware of various items in the sky, such as sun, moon, and stars? I know most of my readers' lightbulbs go on when I break it down like that...

Anyway, what I've discovered (as if it were a big mystery of the cosmos) is that some people's perception is way off. I've found this to be true particularly among those who refuse to see the truth for what it is, even when written in black-and-white. Sure everyone perceives things differently, take a painting for example. As I am currently teaching a University-level Art History class, we critique works of art from various eras. I love hearing how each student has different things to say about that art - what they perceive. Rarely is their perception ever "wrong", though it may be a bit lacking in depth at times. Regarding writing, the same can apply. I tend to be quite a black-and-white writer, although my knack for vivid description and lavish detail often overwhelm readers who are not quite at the same level, or who may not have a college education. For those readers with the lack of depth of understanding in their perception, the message is often lost in all the words. My emails tend to be rather lengthy, well, quite frankly, because I have a lot to say and I will indeed say it! Challenge my intellect in some way, and you will get an honest answer.

The individual who has recently challenged me, claims to have a high level of education, although not quite as high as mine - she likes to throw her implied weight around, and attempts to undermine me and belittle me every chance she gets. I will not say what this person does for work, but let's just say its probably not as glamourous as she envisioned when she went for her degree initially, perhaps more stressful. As a religious person, I generally adhere to the Golden Rule "treat others as you want to be treated" - basically the crux of all major religions. This person does actually call herself religious also, but I have now seen that she may lack the spiritual depth which accompanies religion. Of course we all know that religious ritual without spirituality is merely pasty tradition and may lead to an untimely death for the soul, but I digress. Put yo money where yo mouth is, err, that is, you got a degree, let me see yo big brain. Do I underestimate her as she undermines me? Naw, she's simply just missing the deeper meaning of the words I'm saying. I don't care how much money you make, you need to stop and listen to the true message, not just immediately negate the person, jump to a conclusion or your own defense, or put them down in a condescending way every time they appear. That's not the Golden Rule, that's a "Golden Fool!"

When we were children, we learned our ABC's. As we proceeded through our elementary education, we learned how to put these letters together to make words, words to make sentences, sentences to make paragraphs - we even had to "read aloud" in front of the class sometimes, yikes! Did you ever listen to the content of these other students while reading? When you read aloud yourself, were you just listening to hear yourself speak, or did you get meaning out of what you were saying yourself? Let's hope someone else was paying attention, or you might as well have been talking to a wall (which I feel like sometimes). Was it more important to get a good grade on this read-aloud activity, per your accuracy of dictation, PROJECTION OF YOUR VOICE, and posture? Or did the meaning of the content really sink in and get those brain juices churning, all around the room? Alas, we were probably more concerned with what our peers thought of us, the Hot Pink shirt and fancy hairdo was a good strategy for the "look at me, I'm better than you, never mind what I'm actually saying because I'm important" during read-aloud. And thus the haughty condescending attitude was born for some, out of their own insecurities. Although the small nerdy girl with the glasses sitting in the corner may not PROJECT HER VOICE the loudest, she absorbs all stimuli in the room thereby enhancing her own knowledge, which she may draw upon later in life. Which of these students is the "Golden Fool"?

After read-aloud, we reconvened outside for a recess on the playground. The Hot Pink girl yelled to the small introspective girl "hey you crazy fool, you are a weirdo". She of course went back inside and began to cry. Another student saw her crying and after hearing what had happened told her to repeat the mantra: "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me". The small girl just looked at the other student for a moment, and then said "well thank you for being so kind to me, but her words did hurt me. That girl thinks she can throw her weight around to try to be popular and get good grades. But she is so mean! I feel like a pinata sometimes with all her sticks and stones." The other student said "then she is a fool, and you need not let her get under your skin like that." The small girl went back outside and said in a loud voice "I won't let you harass me. I am putting my foot down. I may look small, but I am wise." The Hot Pink girl just laughed at her, looked down her nose in a condescending manner, and retorted defensively, "you don't get it do you, you stupid fool." When the students went back inside from recess, the teacher began to lecture about the concept of "neighbors", and used the Golden Rule to illustrate the notion of getting along with others in your community for good will gestures like neighborhood watch, planting flowers in common areas, and sharing cookies at Christmas (even if they were "unwanted" by the Grinch). The Hot Pink girl had fallen asleep.

As I got older, I ditched the glasses, but explored the depth. My knowledge continued to expand as I evolved in my own quest for wisdom and understanding. Several advanced university degrees later, I have grown not only in intellect and reading/writing abilities, but also gained considerable depth in spirituality and Godly wisdom. Through my formal Christian education, study of five major world religions, astrology, and the human body, I have gained more depth of wisdom and understanding than simply cold hard book knowledge, can provide. But now, my expertise and boldness gained through this process often intimidates people. The tables turned since those days on the playground. I am still being labeled "weirdo" and "fool" but because the fools themselves despise wisdom and understanding. They are so busy working on their next docket item. Truth is, I take the time to read each person in depth, the depth with which I absorbed all the stimuli in that elementary school classroom during read-aloud. Then I write about what I see, and sometimes takes me to a level of spirituality that is not found in the ritual of tradition. When my words are actually read and taken to heart, my writing can become applicable to the lives and situations of others.

While we can take a Hot Pink shirt to the hearing and wear it proud, without the open-mindedness to embrace someone's words for the message, we become the fool. Without connection to our own spirituality or acknowledgment of the Divine, our souls are dead. I was labeled a "weirdo" when I sent this person a few links to a horoscope forecast. The forecast itself contained multitudes and was spot-on, but my simple gesture of sending the links was mis-perceived and shunned as invaluable to her condescending "know-it-all" attitude. As if a verifiable proponent of truth and source of wisdom through the ages (aka the stars in the very sky she was born under) didn't apply to her. Well if God created the various items in the sky such as moon and stars, why would he create them if not for our study and personal enrichment, a deeper understanding of our own souls? I perceived my good will gesture in sharing this highly relevant essential information was like sharing "cookies on Christmas" with the people on my street. Yet I was perceived by this individual as an uneducated fool, my contributions to her own personal situation as insignificant, and that was immediately projected upon me with coldness of soul. But when I was labeled a "weirdo" I responded "I take that as a compliment", because I knew she meant "anyone who is so spiritually in-tune with a higher force is beyond my comprehension". Golden Fool, the fool is you. But treat others as you would like to be treated, keep your heart open and your mind open to understanding of deeper meanings, and watch in awe as God's Love and Light flow into your life.

religious zealot

2009-11-28T06:30:00.003-07:00

I was recently labeled a "religious zealot" by someone who, although they had never met me, did not seem fond of me (per a preconceived bias against Scorpios, and a problem with strong women in positions of authority). Like my existence was seemingly somehow unfair to her, as if I posed a challenge or threat to her comfort zone. At first I was taken aback by the comment and her attitude, and immediately told my mom about it, who is partly responsible for my Christian upbringing and unwavering faith in God. I asked, "can you believe she called me that?" and my mom answered "well, you ARE". I sat and mulled that one over all night, while poking around on my laptop and watching Christian satellite TV programming. I have recently become re-connected with these enlightening channels, and have resumed watching the very interesting international programming which is often shown. You could say I took a hiatus from my ritualistic absorption, with the baseball playoffs occupying my screen, and several recent trips out of town, the TV did not get my full attention.

The other night I watched a program called the Jesus Boat Revealed, which was an archaeological/historical commentary on the Galilee region (present day Tiberias) and relevant artifacts found there. While Jesus' ministry was focused throughout northern Israel, he spent a fair amount of time around the Sea of Galilee, including the famous "walking on water" episode. This boat, which was discovered in recent years, is commemorated in a museum/store just off the shore of the Sea of Galilee. While I visited this store during one of my trips to Tiberias, it was interesting to watch the historical commentary regarding this relic, by many credible researchers and ministers alike. This film in part helped re-ignite my fire for all things religious and historical. If you want to talk about religious persecution, Jesus was the Prime Mover. Religious zealot? If so, I copy. No time to be lukewarm, or the God of Israel will spew you out of his mouth. Do you think Jesus knew he would die at the age of 33?

Immediately following that program was a movie called Kabul 24. It was an account of 8 Westerners who were kidnapped and detained by Al Qaeda in Afghanistan in 2001, just prior to the terror attacks of 911. All 8 were accused of trying to convert Muslims to Christianity. The Taliban had them in a type of prison. At one point an English Journalist got thrown in there with them, for donning a burka and venturing into one of the Afghan cities. When interviewed about her observations in the prison, she stated "I've got religious fanatics on one side, and religious fanatics on the other side." She was released soon thereafter for her "unruly attitude". They probably would have kicked me out too, I would have asked "where is the salad bar?" The prisoners were tortured, and later forced to ask their governments for money as an exchange for their release. They were ultimately released shortly after 911, a point in time which these prisoners did not experience the same collective feeling that the rest of the world did.

At a Thanksgiving function yesterday, I got into a deep discussion about Judaism with my step-brother in law. I really don't remember how it came up, but I mentioned I went to a few Jewish Synagogues while living in Israel. Keep in mind that I am of Jewish descent, but am a Christian by faith. I was able to come and go freely while in Israel because of a student visa, and American citizenship. Not all inhabitants of the Holy Land have it that easy. Anyway, I shared with him that the men and the women are separated by a temporary wall or partition during the Jewish services. Same is true when visiting the Western Wall in the Old City of Jerusalem, women must enter to the right and cover their heads in reverence. Again regardless of your religious beliefs, everyone must follow the rules - when in Israel, do as the Jews do! Later my mom came up and contributed to the conversation by reminiscing about the bustling Ben Yehuda Street in Jerusalem at the end of Shabbat. We found ourselves there one Saturday night after a Messianic Jewish church service in a building nearby. She mentioned the groups of Chinese Christians singing and playing music, and that although Christian, we are referred to as "Believers" in Israel, to distinguish us from the Catholics and other Christian sects.

I think I like this new title, I can get used to it! But my blog about me the "religious zealot" would not be complete without honorable mention of my Palestinian refugee Muslim boyfriend (who I met in Berlin). A week or so ago, I spoke with a man claiming to be Palestinian, hailing from the island of Cyprus (ok dude, you are mistakenly Greek, not Palestinian). I had approached him and asked "is that a Palestinian scarf?" referring to a distinctly patterned cloth draped around his neck. He asked me "how do you know about that?" I answered "uh, because I had a Palestinian boyfriend?" He became mesmerized by me. I admitted that I had lived in Israel/Palestine for about a year and had earned a Master's Degree in Middle Eastern Studies - a truly life-changing experience. He then asked me, "what do you think about the Israeli-Palestinian issue?" I was like "are you serious? do you realize what a loaded topic that is? how much time do you have?" His time was limited, and although he was interested what I had to say, he concluded "I don't think we're on the same page". This inclination may have been partly due to my admission of being 1/4 Jewish. I told him if these people had roofs over their heads, he didn't really need to worry about it, personally!

There is a difference between being a "religious zealot" and holding a Master's Degree in Middle Eastern Studies from an Israeli University, and a Bachelor's Degree from a Christian/Nazarene College. Errr, or is there? You decide. I may have studied Islam, but I do not typically wear a hijab as the Muslim women do. I may have lived in Israel, but I do not speak fluent Hebrew as the modern Jews do. I may have bought a rosary while in Brazil, but I do not say the Hail Marys as Catholics do. I may have spent time in Greece, but that does not make me Orthodox. I may practice Yoga, but I do not bow to the Hindu deities. And I may be a Believer, but I will not be persecuted for my Faith. Call me what you will, but knowledge is power, and the Power of God is behind me.

whats your raashee?

2009-10-01T18:26:00.003-07:00

Last night, I watched a Hindi movie called "What's Your Raashee?" (What's Your Sun Sign?) It was a perfect movie for me to see, because I'm really into Astrological signs and the various personal traits which accompany each. I'm also really into Hindi movies and Indian culture. I had invited a friend to go with me, whose mom is actually an Astrologer. I thought he would really appreciate it too, not only for the astrology, but because in the Indian culture most of the marriages are arranged, and his mom coincidentally chooses who he can and can't date (though she doesn't subscribe to Hindu philosophies in general). Anyway the plot of the movie was a Scorpio man's family giving him an ultimatum that he had to get married within a few weeks. After joining a dating service, and getting 167 interested women to respond to his ad, he decided to choose 12 to date, 1 from each sun sign.

While this movie portrayed a pretty darn accurate assessment of each of the sun signs and their respective traits, I was surprised that the Scorpio man ended up marrying the Aquarius woman in the end. Sorry to spoil the ending for those who have not seen it, but it was obvious the pair hit it off from the beginning. The Taurus was a total crackpot, he referred to her as "raving mad". I thought that was really funny because I recently dated a Taurus with an insane temper, similar perspective though the Taurus woman in the movie had more of a playful spirit, and she was indeed pretty crazy! Its funny to me because supposedly Taurus is the best match for Scorpio, intensity wise for sure, and in all other areas that really "count". The character did agree to marry her at one point however the uncle wouldn't allow it because he too agreed that she was crazy!

I would have also chosen for him the Cancer (whom he definitely took a liking to on a "deeper" level), and of course the Scorpio (ok so I'm a bit biased). The Scorpio reminded me of myself to a T! She was funny, fun, exciting, intense, energetic, hilarious, sexy, smart (rattled off facts as I often do), and beautiful in many ways. Her cousin(?) the main character's roommate, had described her as "a lot of woman", and that she was "too much" for most guys to handle. Thus she was still single despite the fact that her parents had been trying to marry her off and she instead had aspirations to become a fashion model. Her character initially came across as shy and reserved, someone very different than her true sun sign reflected, which is inherently part of the Scorpio mystique! I suppose with all Scorpios, you really need to get to know us, as we are certainly the most exotic and intense of the signs -but only those privileged enough to be let in to our inner circle will get to experience this amazing energy and wonderful benefits which accompany that!

In my study of Yoga over the last several years, I have acquired a fondness of Hindi movies during the same timeframe, likewise I have learned a lot about the Indian culture, rituals, and religion. In the Hindu religion there are many gods, versus the Judeo-Christian tradition (which I belong to) in which there is only one God. Perhaps my favorite is the Hindu Deity Ganesha, the elephant-headed prince. Ganesha is known as the "Remover of Obstacles", but also resides over the realms of wisdom, luck, doorways, the household and writing. He is normally depicted with four arms, each holding something symbolic. The modaka symbolizes the sweet rewards gained while on the spiritual path. The ankusha represents Ganesha’s role in prodding one out of inertia and back onto their spiritual path. The pasa symbolizes Ganesha’s powers at curbing the ego, restraining passion and conquering delusion. He has the power to remove any obstacle, whether it is physical or spiritual, from the path of his devotees. If one is not respectful or faithful to Ganesha, he is known to place obstacles in one’s path to render worship fruitless and cause one’s undertakings to fail.

So what's your raashee? We can seek balance and harmony in any relationship, but only if the obstacles are removed. Stubbornness, ego, delusion, or another person's unhealthy interference can all contribute, thus rendering the true seekers of peace and love helpless in their quest. Recognize the root of the issue and pull it out - pull HARD if you have to! Do whatever it takes, but don't let any obstacles spoil your party! Press on towards your goal, and be persistent as you stand your ground. As for arranged marriages (or marriages in general), this is a decision between 2 consenting adults, but should not be influenced or determined by the parents. I have seen one too many a parent interfere in his or her daughter or son's relationship, thereby causing unnecessary stress and undue torture even. If two people's signs are compatible, and they connect upon their first meeting, they will know and recognize if they have important desires and life goals in common. Parents nowadays certainly have a great responsibility to raise and protect their children, of course until they are grown and living on their own. Namaste.

and the winner is...

2009-06-19T18:11:00.003-07:00

Mahmoud Ahmedinejad, voted Iranian President for his second term. With a 85% record high turnout for the election, AJ received nearly 63% of the vote. He described the election as "free and healthy", claiming that "triumph represents a great achievement for the country." However, Friday night before the official results emerged, former Prime Minister Mir Hossein Mousavi appeared to be the winner. The public could hardly believe that the election results could have changed dramatically overnight, suggesting there were voting violations and fraudulent vote rigging during the election. Upon the announcement of AJ's victory, protests broke out in the streets of Iran, and have continued for the past week. Many of Mousavi's supporters are protesting AJ's victory, as they are resisting the continuation of a governance of lies and dictatorship. The protests have turned to riots, and the Iranian government has blocked most internet access and communication within and out of Iran in their attempt to "control" the Iranian population. Very limited media access remains, and pirated access to social networking sites include YouTube uploads and Twitter updates, with footage and reports of the outrage. I am fascinated by this coverage, as I have been blogging about AJ for years.

Ayatollah Ali Khomeni has instructed the Iranians to unite and support AJs victory, that it was a legitimate election. However, 70% of the population in Iran reportedly wants to be free of these radical religious "thugs". Thus the protests continue, echoing "where is my vote?" and questioning the accuracy of the election. The Ayatollah and Ahmedinejad want to instill Global Sharia Law, and they believe all nations should come under their regime. This religious scheme is certainly more realistic to them, but seems totally far fetched to most other countries. In general, the secular do not take the religious seriously, given their seemingly idealized versions of life. The secular-minded people are so estranged from religion that they don't realize religious aspects carry such heavy weight to many people who are religious. Many news sources and politicians believe that many of the things AJ says are just internal rhetoric - not as though he is serious or wants to die himself. But not only is he serious, he believes that he will hasten the return of the 12th Imam, or Madhi. He believes Israel should be destroyed, and that the Holocaust never really happened.

Shortly after his election victory, AJ gave a public address in which he stated, "who dares to threaten Iran in the world? God willing this year if I go to UN I will ask 'which one of you dares threaten Iran? Please raise your hand - and I will cut your hand off'." Ayatolla Khomeni supports the re-election of Mahmoud Ahmendinejad, as he addressed the Islamic Republic of Iran on the issue of his re-election to the masses just yesterday. His speech was televised throughout the world, and his faithful supporters present at his public address chanted "Death to Israel! Death to America! Death to the West!" Any reader of the Quran can tell you that their text clearly suggests anyone who does not follow Islam is considered an "infidel" and must be killed. Targeting of the West by Muslim Extremists is not a new phenomenon. Besides the Islamic attacks of 911 on America, numerous bombings in London, France, and India (among others) indicate that any nation who does not subscribe to the rhetoric and ideology of these religious zealots has a target on their heads. The Iranian-Israeli rivalry has been present for years, regardless of Iran's intention to produce nuclear weapons. Other countries in the Middle East (except for maybe Syria) and throughout the world would also be fearful or a nuclear Iran, as the effect of an attack on Israel would be resonate throughout the region.

Meanwhile on the topic of nuclear threats, a new threat arises from a rogue nation, North Korea, officially known as the Democratic Republic of Korea (DPRK). The Republic will push ahead with its nuclear weapons program although the UN Security Council has imposed wider sanctions on the DPRK. They absolutely won't abandon their weapons development, in fact counter-measures include weaponizing new plutonium and enriching uranium. Their uranium enrichment program was previously somewhat secret, but not only are they turning these elements into nuclear warheads, their ruler recently claimed "we will never give up nuclear ambitions". US Secretary of State Hillary Clinton has called Kim Jong-il's response "regrettable", and the UN will be imposing new sanctions on the DPRK. Despite the sanctions and condemnation by the international community, they continue to threaten anyone who attempts to interfere in their efforts. If anyone attempts to blockade their ships, they will attack the ships, as they did in dealing with hostile acts of the US military buildup at the border of North and South Korea. The DPRK blames South Korea for following US policy and cooperating with their US ally. The DPRK has threatened to fire a missile at Hawaii on July 4. As I plan to return to Hawaii soon, I will remember to not make my travel reservations for US Independence Day. But how long will we keep our independence? Depends how long we will stand around and do nothing when a New Hitler threatens to seek and destroy.

national solution

2009-05-21T16:32:00.004-07:00

in the United States, a bill was recently passed by Congress which now allows people to bring guns into National Parks. This bill was "hidden" as a piece of "pork" inside another, more relevant bill. However, anti-gun activists have been trying to suppress our 2nd Amendment rights for quite some time, some of them within our very own US Congress. Thus the passing of such a bill came as a surprise to many people. While I am not a gun owner myself, I had the opportunity to go to a shooting range in 2007 with a gun owner. The 2nd Amendment is an important part of many US Citizens' lives, but many careless people are also just as willing and able to carry guns - especially if the Government allows them to do so at will.

in Israel, anyone can walk the streets carrying a gun. This seemed strange to me when I visited the Jewish nation in 2006. I will never forget being in a cafe in Eilat (resort town on the Red Sea at the southern tip of Israel) and seeing a girl in her 20's carrying a semi-automatic weapon draped diagonally over her shoulder like one would carry a satchel or book bag. She was just a few people ahead of me in the line to order a coffee, and this was probably the closest I'd ever been to such a weapon. Cafes in Jerusalem seem to have tighter security, there are usually security guards upon entering just about any establishment. It would be less likely to see a gun inside a Jerusalem cafe. My suitcase has been disemboweled by airport security in Tel Aviv on more than one occasion, so I have definitely experienced their tight security policies first-hand. Israel is perhaps at the highest risk of threat by terrorists and unwarranted attacks than any other nation.

in Iran, the country's President Mahmoud Ahmedinejad threatens to destroy Israel on a daily basis. He has reiterated this in many public speeches, and in a recent address to the United Nations, he received applause at some of his opening statements referring to such an attack. Perhaps because many people do not understand Farsii, or his Islamic undertones in his "hastening the Mahdi" rhetoric, or because there are other people who think the Nation of Israel should be destroyed. Whether their reasons are political or religious, this anti-semetic spirit is alive and well throughout the world. Yesterday, Iran fired a "test" missile which could have reached as far as Europe. This unwarranted incident alerted many news media sources as well as governments around the world, especially in light of the recently proposed "two state solution" for Israel and the Palestinian Territories. Perhaps it is time to take Ahmedinejad's daily threats seriously, or are we ready for Armageddon?

in Cuba, terrorists from around the world are often detained in a place called the Guantanamo Bay Prison Camp. This facility has served as an excellent "home away from home" for dangerous terrorist offenders. Since many of their crimes are internationally-focused, housing them on an international base has proven to be both appropriate and effective. Their crimes are against humanity as a whole, not necessarily against a person or even a nation in most cases. When the Muslim-raised Barack Hussein Obama was elected as the US President last November, he promised to close Guantanamo within one year. It appears as though he intends to follow up on his campaign promise, as doing so may perhaps benefit the economy in some way. However US National Security may be sacrificed in this process, as the prisoners will likely be moved to US Prisons rather than released. Nobody knows for sure, but is closing Guantanamo really a viable national or international solution?

Little positive can be said for our Nation when people remain uneducated on National Security and even personal defense. I recently heard someone accuse me of carrying automatic weapons (as though I do this regularly). However what they actually observed was a picture on one of my personal websites from that day at the shooting range in 2007. Because I am a small person, I can only handle the smaller guns - again I am supervised by the guns' owner, an "expert" on guns. The funniest part of their false allegation is that the gun they referred to as an "automatic" weapon was a mere 22 caliber (one of the smallest guns on the market), inside a "rifle" case. Thus it appears to look like a larger gun, especially when held by a petite 95 pound woman, and perhaps even moreso to someone who knows absolutely nothing about guns. However in reality, neither a 22 or a rifle is ever considered to be an "automatic" weapon. I was then informed that this 200 pound individual was "afraid of me" after seeing the picture of me holding the 22, and sought to obtain a "restraining order" against me! As though I had left the shooting range with the gun that did not belong to me and had wandered into his backyard like a displaced refugee bandit. This man was also later reported to be frightened by a public press photo of Sarah Palin (lifetime NRA member) holding a gun, also posted on my personal MySpace site. I have no doubts that Palin is fully capable of operating such a weapon, though I do not know her personally. My friend the gun owner and I have laughed about this for quite some time. It never ceases to amaze me how ignorant people can be to the truth, but if they would just take the time to educate themselves (and even ask questions to people like us directly), they might become enlightened to reality. Most importantly, the issues that concern our security, and that not everyone possesses such terrorist motives as Mahmoud Ahmedinejad.

As for our National Security, allowing citizens to carry guns into an increased number of public places is not necessarily the solution. Transporting terrorists to our mainland from a soon-to-be closed international island prison (thereby allowing them easier access to our great nation) is not necessarily the solution either. And just sitting back while terrorists like Hamas, Hezbollah, and Iranian leaders continue to fire their missiles into other countries is not the most worthwhile solution either. Yesterday's Iranian missile hit the Indian Ocean, but what if it would have hit India itself? Would that have been "ok" in the eyes of the international community, since the target was actually Israel? Was this merely a "test", or perhaps just a "mistake" by Iran, since Ahmedinejad's self-proclaimed motives are supposedly "peaceful"? Take some time to educate yourselves on the facts surrounding these important issues. If you do not think they pertain to you directly, you may want to think again, especially if you live in one of the aforementioned countries or their neighboring nations.

beautiful places

2009-03-19T01:34:00.004-07:00

Of all the beautiful places in the world, I had never been to Hawaii until last week. I never really had a reason to go. But some friends of mine were getting married on the beach in Maui, which gave me an excuse to get out and explore. It had really been a while since I'd traveled anywhere, with New York and Canada being my prime trips last year. As many of you know, 2006 and 2007 were filled with international journeys, during which time an incredible life-changing experience occurred while living in the Holy Land of Israel.

When I up-and-moved to Israel, ready to start a new life and pursue a degree program, I had never done anything like that before. Having lived in only the US southwest for the majority of my life, any trip out of town was a big deal, though I have always traveled quite a bit during my lifetime. But a move to the other side of the world, though somewhat temporary, really got me out of my comfort zone. While traveling and living abroad, and without the distractions of "home" I was able to gain a clearer perspective overall.

Talking to a close friend on the phone just last night, I was reminded of reasons I left San Diego at least 4 times, the petty engagements and low-life mindset of many of the city's residents. In other words, the kinds of things that people uphold as priorities in their lives mean little to nothing to me, and I simply can't relate. Upon returning from Israel and then Greece, I found I could not easily connect with people here on the mainland anymore, at least not in quite the same way. Could this be some form of transcendence? Or just a realization of societal evolution to its now backwards state? There's something about travel that clears the mind, and connects all the senses. If yours are disconnected, I'd recommend a week-long trip away from your element.

Brazil and Greece are perhaps two of the most beautiful places I'd ever been in my lifetime, and I thought nowhere could surpass their landscapes to behold. I was proven wrong last week. When I arrived in Maui, my breath was immediately taken away, even on a misty evening like last Monday night. The sun was setting, and the air was humid and temperate. Rain loomed in the air, but it did not actually rain. I retrieved my luggage and headed to the rental car location, only to be awarded a car with a license plate bearing my initials. This was going to be my week indeed, my week in paradise. Although it was dark by the time I arrived to my hotel, I immediately went out to the beach and spent considerable time simply celebrating the fact that I was in one of the most beautiful places on earth. I was set on a course for adventure, a much needed time in paradise.

The first few days of the trip were all about unwinding, relaxing, and becoming familiar with my new surroundings. I met up with my friends for their wedding festivities beginning later the first night, and then at least one activity per day. By the second day I came to the realization that Hawaii was a lot like Brazil, only CLEAN. The Island of Maui possesses much of the same type of lush tropical landscape and beautiful tranquil beaches, but without the third-world feeling. In fact, I was in the lap of luxury, surrounded by resorts and upscale condos, with prices to match. But I didn't really mind that aspect, simply being there among all that beauty gave me a greater sense of peace then I have ever felt on the mainland. As close as I have felt to the wholeness I experienced while living in the Holy Land. I suppose if I can't be in a war-torn nation due to safety concerns, I should probably pick a beautiful place of tranquility to consider for my future home.

While in Maui, I participated in a few boating excursions, in addition to many hours spent on various beautiful beaches. On the second night, we embarked on a sunset dinner cruise which served as the rehearsal dinner for the wedding party, I being a guest of the Best Man. In the water we saw several whales, and stood in awe of the green mountainous and rocky coastline, bearing similarities to the coastlines of Greece. Any time I am on a boat NOT in the San Diego harbor, I am reminded of the cruise I went on throughout some of the Greek Isles, a journey I intend to embark upon for a longer timeframe later this year. The beautiful mountain observed during our dinner cruise was graced by a low-lying cloud, covering half the mountain. See my Hawaii galleries for the amazing image of the mountain and gorgeous coastlines.

Although I was in Hawaii for 5 days, this was not enough time, and I decided that I must return as soon as possible. I am now considering the idea of moving there, as I do all of my work online, it can be done from anywhere. My other option is to travel as much as possible this year, though I am due for a change of pace, a change of lifestyle after undergoing some very tumultuous times in recent months. While my primary residences of Phoenix and San Diego are amazing in their own way, there are many beautiful places in the world to travel to OR to live. I choose to surround myself with beauty - beautiful places are where I thrive, and connect with God within.

your bail-out

2009-02-21T00:11:00.003-07:00

During B. Hussien Obama's visit to Arizona this week, the crowd went wild upon hearing an earful of alleged promises to "fix" the nation's forclosure crisis. Obama outlined his "rescue plan" for the unfortunate people who had become overturned in their mortgages, due to economic hardship, job loss, inflated interest rates, etc. He noted that those who "had not been responsible" about their mortgages, or those who were in real estate "for profit" would not qualify for government bail out of their "mistakes." As his words echoed through the halls of Dobson High School and into my home via CSPAN, I thanked the Lord that I have not been a victim of this "housing crisis" but that God has always provided for me in my times of hardship.

What many people do not realize is that God is actually our provider, not the government, not the banks, not even our spouses, when it all comes down - for those who believe. However if we do not trust Him to provide in all aspects of our lives, we will end up hopeless and helpless - pleading with lenders, politicians, and anyone who will come to our rescue. Many people call on God in times of trouble, but do they really fully trust him, with their lives? Do they really believe God can "bail them out", or has the act of crying out to Him become a facade, more of a "woe is me" plea of desperation, "God please help me" and then go back to their self-absorbed lifestyles?

I had someone tell me the other day that I have a "distinct writing style". For as many authors and bloggers that are out there on the internet, I was pleased to hear that my unique abilities were identifiable, distinct enough to stand out from the masses. God created each one of us unique in our own special way, which is all part of his plan; if we have accepted His Word, we must share it, thus we are supposed to stand out. But if we continue to subscribe to the "herd" mentality, "keeping up with the joneses", or trying to be on the "cutting edge" of society, we cannot fully surrender our lives to God, or allow Him to truly rule over our lives. After all, who rules your home, "the Messiah" B. Hussein Obama, or God - your Creator? He alone is your Refuge, your "bail-out".

love one another

2008-12-04T01:21:00.005-07:00

A few weeks ago, my cousin asked me why I had not blogged since September, during the Presidential campaigns. I think he was curious to hear my thoughts on the election. Most people who talk to me regularly know where I stand, so I did not feel the need to blog about it. I actually became sickened by the media's coverage of not only the election but all of the pre-election "poll" results and blatant liberal opinions which were unavoidable and dominant to the point of influencing the indecisive masses. People were clinging to messages of "hope" seemingly out of desperation and grasping for anything that sounded like it would "save" them from their terrible lives. Messiah or talking head? In recent weeks I have actually decreased my media consumption overall - I think the election did me in! However with the inheritance of a digital television system (among other valuable resources) I have altered my focus slightly since I've been living in Phoenix. It's not that I wasn't already focused on the things of God, but recent overwhelming situations in my life have led me to my knees on a nightly basis. Listening to the 24-hour Christian music station as well as positive broadcasts and international programs have helped me rebuild and refocus. The people who know me the best know how drastically my life has changed, yet I am still the same person, with the same international experiences, and the same solid upbringing. Close friends and family have been my backbone, the Holy Spirit my comforter, and God has been my strength.

My father was perhaps the nicest man anyone could possibly meet. Sure I'm a little biased, but those who knew him could attest to this simple observation. Though a bit quirky and random at times, he could hardly complete a few sentences without mentioning God, some passage of scripture, or other uplifting, positive message. His love for me, his only daughter, was stronger than I even realized, or may ever realize. Most women do not have as great a relationship with their father as I did, I am truly blessed to have had that experience. No matter how many poor decisions I made in my life, especially in dating the wrong guys and getting involved with ungodly people, I could always go running back to Daddy, tell him what kind of mess I got into, and somehow just his being there for me would make it all better. His Godly counsel and wisdom helped me through so many challenging situations, that I don't know how I could have gone through life without him. His positive attitude and Christ-like mindset is something I always admired and was even baffled by at times. How could someone be so positive ALL THE TIME, even when faced with adversity?

One thing I've learned in my 35 short years on this earth is that relationships are so fragile, yet so important. Anytime I've had conflict with my neighbor (friends, coworkers, people on the street) I have always tried my best to resolve things with those people. I have actually known people who pick fights and stir up controversy just because they can, and they think they are being funny or "cool", but they are actually being destructive and disrespectful. However it is essential to keep in mind that God created human life, and he created us with a heart to love and a brain to know right from wrong. Although I had never experienced death (other than a cousin and grandpa who lived in another country), I have always been one of those optimistic "don't let the sun go down on your anger" or "you never know when the last time you will see that person is" kind-of-people. Practice the Golden Rule and all will be well with your karma. We all know that anyone can die at any time, I could walk across the street and get hit by a bus, and you would never see me again. This is why we need to "be excellent to each other" as my dad always said (quote from Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure)!

Jesus came to the earth to teach mankind some very valuable life lessons. He also came to pay a ransom for our sins, if we chose to accept it. God loves us so much that He sent His only Son as a blood sacrifice like a Lamb to the slaughter. Some people commit such terrible acts against other people that we think there is no hope for them. Other people fall so far into the downward spiral of negativity, debt, relationship pitfalls, or even crime, that they are seemingly beyond "hope" - and they can't go running back to Daddy. However God is our Father, and He sent Jesus to save us from all that. No politician can do this, regardless of how smooth their speeches are. Jesus is the Messiah, yes, even to the Jews. Jesus taught us to "love one another" as the first commandment with a promise (all will be well). Coincidentally this is a basic principle which we are usually taught as children and the Golden Rule, "do unto others as you would have them do to you!" In John 13:34-35, Jesus states "A new commandment I give unto you, that ye love one another, as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another." Seems pretty simple doesn't it?

As I am striving to continue my Father's legacy, I would likewise challenge you to align with your Heavenly Father's agenda - a life of love. Show kindness, lend a hand, or simply give a smile to someone who looks like they're having a bad day. Love can make a world of the difference in someone's life, after all, you never know what a person is going through, what they have been through, or how long they have left on this earth. From 1 Corinthians 13, "Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." So love one another, because not everyone is equipped with a political ticker, but everyone was created with a heart to LOVE.

come together

2008-09-24T21:17:00.002-07:00

Republican presidential nominee John McCain has temporarily suspended his campaign in order to assist in the recovery of America's economy and the Stock Market - a pressing issue which will essentially affect most of the world. McCain has urged his opponent Barack Obama to do the same, as his campaign's backstabbing tactics of McCain's group have not done much to aid his own progress towards the Oval Office. While the campaigning process has indeed been rigorous on many levels, the need for unity in America especially during these past few weeks of crisis (the hurricanes and now the economy) has superseded the division of race, culture, and religion - or has it? Have partisan tactics with the stirring of rumors and attacks upon the other brought our nation any closer to the unity we desire? With widespread dissatisfaction for the Bush Administration among many Americans, the need for change in the government has been an overarching theme in popular society. However, is the real change something that can be brought about by the government, or does it start with the people like you and I, our attitudes toward others, and our ability to coexist amidst the divisive agendas of those seeking our destruction?

The liberal media's portrayal of a model American family like Vice Presidential nominee Sarah Palin's has undoubtedly raised the awareness of basic morals and ethical values among many. A recent Saturday Night Live skit suggested that her husband Todd Palin had engaged in incest with one of their teenage daughters. This crude accusation, though framed in the context of a joke or comedy skit, reflects an obvious jab on the first family to the point of defamation of character. Many of the accusations made against Palin and her family are clearly hoisted out of evil intent and even jealousy against someone who is so successful and so upstanding. While no human is perfect, including Sarah Palin whose family is wrought with many of the same issues facing common American families today, her exemplification of upright ethical and moral standards should be heeded by all. Her love for God, her family, and her country have certainly contributed to her success even at a young age as compared to many other politicians. Though she is so similar to the average hockey mom, most people have never experienced anyone quite like her, with the tenacity of a barracuda and a backbone of steel - no attacks from the media or other politicians can keep her from being who she really is.

Sarah Palin's continued resilience to the numerous accusatory attacks show what a strong woman she is, but it is clear from her values and faith that God is the one who gives her strength. A familiar verse comes to mind Isaiah 54:17 "No weapon that is formed against you will prosper; and every tongue that accuses you in judgment will condemn." You see, when God is on your side He does not allow such attacks to destroy you, but instead He uses them to make you stronger, and even more resilient. Romans 8:31-33 says "If God is for us, who can be against us? Who will bring a charge against God's elect? God is the one who justifies." Political views indeed reflect a person's personal moral and ethical values, and transcend into various aspects of human existence. Another common attack against Palin is that if a woman is raped, Sarah believes that the woman should not have an abortion, and I would tend to agree with that policy. If abortion - the killing of another human being because they might cause an "inconvenience" to you - is legal, then would it be ok for me to kill someone who is harassing and threatening my family and I? As much as we are inconvenienced, the answer is NO... the bigger issue here is the motivation of the RAPIST. When is it OK for a man to disrespect a woman to the point of violating her body and not being sensitive to her feelings? That philosophy or mindset in and of itself is the inconvenience, NOT a CHILD, a living, breathing life created by 2 other humans.

Several months ago, I became involved with a man in San Diego. One night we hung out, I offered to give him a ride home as he was noticeably intoxicated, and upon arrival to his home he was a bit too forceful with me and attempted to rape me in my car. Fortunately I was not intoxicated myself and I was able to stop him, and suggested we go inside and go to sleep instead. He drew me a map to his house and assumed we would be together sometime when he was NOT drunk, however his substance abuse overshadowed our interactions. Despite this, I developed quite a friendship with this man as we spent more time together over the following months, but I refused to have sex with him as I shared with him that I was practicing abstinence. He then began to push me away but would never explain why, other than past relationship issues which unfortunately kept him from being true to himself and opening up to the potential of loving someone who really cared about him. Although it takes two to tango, I never did anything to hurt or harm him - quite the opposite. My apologies were misconstrued and misinterpreted, however my requests to make amends with him came from sincere concern for his spiritual and emotional well being. Several of his friends continued to harass and threaten me, both verbally and physically, spreading rumors and attempting to push my buttons, but I can only ignore them, rise above, and NOT let them destroy me. Most religions teach LOVE as their basic credo, and the Bible teaches us to pray for those who persecute us. The root of the issue is likely still unresolved, which is the reason for his disrespect of women. This has nothing to do with me, and I cannot take it personally.

Is it better to push people away, argue with them, attack or even kill them because they are "inconveniencing" you, or because they are of differing race, religious views, or political party? I attended a Barack Obama rally the other day, and was told there would likely be other McCain supporters there, along with a wide variety of food options which indeed enticed me. I jumped on the opportunity and was eager to mingle with other people who had politics on their minds - despite our differences. Many of the attendees were shocked and even appalled that a McCain supporter was in their midst, but after they got over it, rather than to ostracize me they welcomed me into their social sphere. I made some valuable connections that day, contrary to my expectations. I believe many of them developed a newfound respect for those who opposed their political ideologies, as we were able to relate on so many other more personal levels. Just as John McCain is urging our country to come together in a time of national crisis, we must come together as human beings, required to coexist regardless of our differing views. Is there anyone YOU have pushed away because they were different, or because you were hurt by someone like them? Consider making amends, and working together - your interaction with them could bring positive change into your life especially if you can let go of long-held grudges. Come together, you might even find LOVE.

blessed to be persecuted

2008-09-14T19:03:00.006-07:00

Being half Canadian, many of my family members live in Canada, so I visit as often as possible. Since last Christmas my mom and I have been planning a trip for her birthday, to include a train ride to Toronto to visit one of her sisters and a day's excursion to the wondrous Niagra Falls. On my dad's side I am one quarter German Jew, and having lived in Israel and traveled extensively to both Germany and Israel, I have really connected with my heritage over these past few years. While my early interests in travel were primarily cultural (I hold a bachelor's degree in art with a minor in music), the political and religious aspects have now become most prominent in my life, in light of my post-graduate studies.

Shortly before I visited Israel for the first time, my father and I took a trip to Minnesota to visit his brother and for my Cousin's wedding. He asked me "why are you going to Israel?" I informed him that since 911 I was interested in learning more about the Middle East, especially about the Muslims and their rationale for terrorist attacks on our great nation. He said "you know we're Jewish, right? The Birman family is Jewish." I told him I thought we were German, as our family originally immigrated from Germany. He informed me that because of the German persecution of the Jews, our family was forced to flee from the oppression so they came to America. The family name was altered slightly to Birman (it had previously been Bierman or something more German-sounding so as to not stand out as Jews) and we were from a Royal or Aristocratic line. My uncle had done some lineage research a while back, but only got as far as the records which came with his father by boat to America. Fortunately, he escaped from Hitler's Nazi persecution of Jews just a few years prior to the Holocaust, which began in the early 1940's. When I first visited Israel and eventually moved there, I finally began to understand what all of this meant.

If you are not familiar with this important time in world history, please take a few moments to read up on the Holocaust, in which German hatred of the Jews led to their persecution - controversial actions of harassment, physical torture, inhumane treatment, and for many, a slow, painful death. This anti-semetic spirit has been around since the Bible times, beginning with the split of brothers Isaac and Ishmael. Both were sons of Abraham but only ONE received his blessing, and that was Isaac. Of course Abraham loved Ishmael (though born to an Egyptian woman, not his wife), but the Bible clearly states that Isaac's lineage would be blessed as a great people, successful, ruling over many, and scattered among the nations. These people were the Jews, God's chosen race, and at that time Ishmael's lineage began the Arab race (Genesis 26-27). These people also numbered many scattered throughout the earth, and eventually the Muslim faith was born out of the Arab race around 600 AD. Fast forward to September 11 2001. You have probably heard the politically-charged statement "911 was an inside job", and this is certainly true in a more literal way than often liberally interpreted. The US and Canada had become so relaxed on their immigration policies that millions of Muslims from all around the world have moved to these Western nations, whether legally or illegally. The hijackers of 911 were trained in American flight schools, and many lived or had family in the US.

Upon arriving in Toronto, I noticed a large number of Muslims everywhere, even more than commonly observed in the US. This reminded me of when I had visited Europe, and Germany in particular. Last Friday while in the Toronto train station, I purchased a few items at a kiosk. My ears perked up when the cashier was speaking to someone on the phone in Hebrew, I listened to part of her conversation, and she said "Shabbat Shalom" just before hanging up. I greeted her with "Shabbat Shalom!" an expression which is used among Jews in wishing each other a happy weekend (Shabbat is sabbath, or Saturday, the Holy Day). The rest of our conversation continued in Hebrew while I paid for my items. I thanked her by saying "todah", and she replied "bevakasha". This interaction was indeed the highlight of my day! Later at the hotel, I discovered an Arabic TV station. Reading some of the captions and listening to some of the programming, mainly Islamic - I had the opportunity to practice my Arabic too! And I gave considerable thought to the purpose of that TV station in the Toronto area. I had not seen a station like this since I was in Germany, where some Arabs I knew had just about every Arabic and Muslim channel on Satellite. Its amazing how technology has increased global accessibility for information and communication.

Recently a Nazi German man has been harassing me online. Although he doesn't actually know me personally, I believe his hateful attitude and actions towards me stem from his Nazi German roots. HE may not even understand why his hatred for me has become so strong, just that he does in fact hate Jews, and I have become his target of attack - a single Jewish woman, educated and determined. In the process of becoming stronger against his attacks and continuing to stand up for what I believe in, the persecution increases, though now I am starting to fully understand why. He has been threatening, hateful, derogatory towards women, accusatory, and racially-charged. This Nazi spirit is the same anti-semetic force with which the Muslims have sought to destroy our country. To them, the West includes America, Canada, and most of Europe, and they know no political boundaries (Republican, Democrat, etc); their politically-glossed modus operandi makes them "acceptable" to many people, including some in the Western government.

As an American I enjoy freedoms that citizens of many countries do not have - I am truly blessed, even in my persecution. Enjoying an amazing week in Canada, visiting one of the 7 Wonders of the World, spending time with family, blessed with excellent health - the appearance of a 24 year old with the experience of a 34 year old! I am able to care for my older relatives whose health is deteriorating (a major priority for me right now), and to be there for them as other members of their families have not always been. Family is one of the most important gifts we are given, and human life is too precious to waste away by projecting hatred on other people. The Jews understand this, a clear reflection on their perseverance as a race and a possible explanation as to why their faith is always so strong. They have escaped persecution throughout the years and have learned to depend on God, drawing close to Him, many Jews returning to His Holy Land - not surprising it is the most controversial piece of land in the world.

Not only am I Jewish by heritage, one of God's chosen race, I am a Christian by faith, a Child of God through the option of new life in Christ Jesus His Son (He came as our sacrifice, so it is no longer necessary to slaughter animals as they did in the Old Testament). Because of this heritage AND my family lineage, I am Royalty, and no weapon formed against me CAN prosper - including persecution by Muslims, Nazis, or even fellow Americans. Stand up for your faith, protect your family, and cling to your values, morals and integrity. God will bless those who bless Him, and His wrath will come upon those who persecute His people. Allah Akhbar!

cultivate culture

2008-07-28T23:51:00.004-07:00

Last weekend in New York was an amazing cultural experience. America is known as a cultural melting pot, with all of our diversity and immigration, but New York is perhaps the most concentrated example of this. My first day in Manhattan ended with a delicious lamb schwarma gyro from a Moroccan meals-on-wheels "roach coach". I went over there to buy a water bottle, and the man working inside immediately noticed my Hamsa earrings and Allah necklace. He said "where did you get those? Did you go to Morocco?" I was pleasantly surprised by this eclectic conversation-starter after my long and crazy day! I proceeded to tell him of my travels in the Middle East and throughout the Holy Land (in Arabic of course), particularly the Old City of Jerusalem where the jewelry was purchased. I had not had truly authentic Arab food since that time and was completely satisfied with the experience.

During my second day in New York I decided to venture to Brooklyn, hoping to see some of my Jewish people (I am 1/4 German Jew, and of course, lived in Israel). Now I can fully identify with the Beastie Boys song "No Sleep til Brooklyn" and fortunately I had a map to the hostel where I'd hoped to stay, courtesy of the man at the Tibet house. Upon my arrival, I was greeted by a man listening to a French radio station. I asked him if he was from France. He said yes, but that he had just moved from San Diego, driving cross country in his Jeep Cherokee and spending $800 in gas! We reminisced about San Diego for a few moments, agreeing that it is important to LEAVE there every once in a while - too easy to get caught up in whatever presents itself. So other than the debt created by the gas prices, he was enjoying New York, and helped me feel welcome in my temporary new Brooklyn home.

After dropping my stuff off (finally after 2 days of hauling it around everywhere) I hopped back on the Subway in search of the Turntables on the Hudson event at Gowanus Park in Brooklyn. Unfortunately on the way to the show the subway was diverted and everyone had to get off and board a "detour bus" - somewhere in the middle of Brooklyn! I had no idea where I was or what was going on, but in keeping with my ZEN paradigm, I just sat in the bus and took it all in. I was thankful I was safely seated inside a bus because the neighborhood seemed somewhat questionable, cars with the windows shot out and bad graffiti on many of the buildings and cars. At one point we passed what I called the "black pool", a public pool completely FILLED with dark dark black people. Shortly thereafter the bus stopped, and everyone was instructed to get off. I had no idea where I was, or how far I was from my destination, which was previously mapped from the hostel via the L and G trains - a sound path if it had availed itself to my needs. I began walking the streets, asking if anyone knew how to get to my destination. When the bus drivers didn't even know, I began to be a bit concerned.

I continued walking in the general direction of the event and decided to stop in a corner market to get some water. The men working in the store were all speaking in Arabic - I couldn't believe my ears! I asked one of them in English "where are you from"? He replied "Palestine!" I was startled - I could not remember the last time I heard someone refer to the Holy Land as "Palestine" per se, even in the Palestinian Territories! I asked him "aren't there a lot of Jews here? How is that?" I didn't want to give myself away. He replied, "this is America, we are all here." He didn't seem to understand my politically-charged statement but I was happy to hear that he favored our country for what it was - a cultural melting pot. Walking further and encountering another Arab place where I asked for directions, and still not seeing any Jews - I concluded that Brooklyn was more Arab and African-American than Jewish despite what I had always heard. Realizing that there was no way I would make the Turntables on the Hudson event, I headed to my next destination, the Brooklyn Bandshell in Prospect Park.

Navigating via buses and subways which WERE actually running, I found the venue thanks to my friend Derek's excellent directions. This was a show I did NOT want to miss - Karsh Kale and the Midival Punditz from India re-scored all of the music to the Bruce Lee film "Enter the Dragon." Opening for the film/music extravaganza was an amazing Japanese drumming group, complete with costumes, choreography, and drama. I had never seen anything like this, and was immensely satisfied with my $3 admission into the park. The sound of live drumming is so meditative and healing, and these Japanese rhythms were new to me and quite intense. At the intermission the show's sponsor the internationally-renowned corporation Starbucks was giving away free packs of their Pike's Peak roast. When the movie started, I grabbed a seat near the front - it was perhaps more important for me to see Indian electronic fusion legends Karsh Kale and the Midival Punditz in action, up close and personal. Their musical contributions to the already overwhelming excitement of the Bruce Lee movie made for a combination of sights and sounds from out of this world. After the show I chatted with Karsh, who I had met a few years prior at an event in San Diego and happily he remembered me! I posed for a photo with him, his daughter, and his niece and nephew, beautiful Indian children.

I later went on to an afterparty called Carmina Soul, for the Turntables on the Hudson show (which I did not attend due to the earlier Subway incident). The event featured Latin fusion and world groove with live percussion, on a rooftop in Brooklyn. There I was happy to see my friend Nickodemus who was preparing for a trip to Spain in the upcoming week. It was getting quite late and he advised me to NOT take the subway back to the hostel, for safety reasons and because of the wacky subway detour issues, so he ordered me a "car service". I had never heard of a car service, but understood it to be something like a cab without the meter. When the driver arrived he had no idea where my hostel was, and I had no idea where it was either, however I enjoyed the ride with him and the adventure in finding it. He was from Ecuador, and his Spanish was much different than any of the accents or dialects I had heard before. Of course when he realized I knew Spanish, we spoke it throughout most of the rest of our late-night drive through Brooklyn. In the morning I awoke to 2 girls speaking German in the bunkbed next to me, bringing back memories of my travels through Germany, which I proceeded to divulge to them. Of course the conversation started off with "Ich sprecha kein Deutsch", I don't speak German - one of the only things I learned to say in German while I was visiting their land!

I finally made it to the Center For Jewish History Museum on the third day, and spent about 2 hours there reminiscing about the Holy Land and learning more about the history of Jews immigrating to America. I spent most of rest of the day walking lower Manhattan (with my bags), from 16th and 6th through Soho, down Broadway, through Little Italy and Chinatown to the area just south of there, above Wall Street/Financial District. The walk seemed like nothing after drinking a Rockstar energy drink - and I was not interested in going back underground to the dark hot sticky subways, many of which were being re-routed all weekend. The sights and sounds throughout the city were priceless, and rounded out my overall amazing experience in the Big Apple. With Chinatown as my ultimate destination, I was looking forward to embracing their culture as it is one of my favorites. I finally arrived to Little Italy and then Chinatown after my long pleasant walk, greeted by the friendly dragon sculpture above the Chinatown information kiosk. After a bit of shopping I asked one of the locals which restaurant had the best duck soup. I was directed to number 72 and was completely satisfied with not only the food but the ambiance. I was seated at a table next to 2 local Chinese men, who were also eating roast duck, with side orders of squid and fried lamb.

My day's end drew near with a bus ride to the Staten Island Ferry dock where I stood in awe of the giant American flag hanging in the building's lobby - so thankful to be a citizen of this fine cultural mecca. I then boarded a subway back uptown in search of a quiet place to work for a few hours before another all-nighter until my plane's departure. I finally reached a Starbucks which to my dismay was closing at 9:30, and it was already 9:15! I asked the people there, "isn't there a place around here open LATE?" They said "not around here" but directed me to the 24 hour Starbucks in Times Square. So I hopped back on the subway, and when I emerged at 42nd street, Times Square was certainly a sight to behold! After experiencing the intensity of the terrain, I planted myself in Starbucks to get some work done before departing for the JFK airport. The evening was not complete until a young man studying nearby observed my computer activity and asked "are you a Professor?" I noticed he was logged into Facebook and I gathered he was a student, he told me he attended Columbia University. We engaged in a great conversation, in which I found out he was Japanese-Brazilian, so we spoke in Portuguese and reminisced about Brazil. Though I've traveled around the world, America is definitely the best place to cultivate culture.

city dharma

2008-07-19T10:24:00.001-07:00

My recent trips to New York over the years have only been brief, whirlwind trips, but I had a plane ticket that I needed to use up and the time to do it. So I decided to hop on a red-eye from San Diego via Phoenix and actually spend some time in the city, check out a few DJ events, and try to track down an old friend. I thought that the hustle and bustle of the Big Apple would bring a much-needed change to my already crazy Southern California life. However I did not expect the city to have such a tranquilizing calming effect on me - quite the opposite of what many people typically experience here. Since I've been back in America (from living and traveling overseas where the pace of life is quite a bit different) I'm not used to sitting around and waiting, and I AM used to having everything I need or want at my request - on demand. When I need to go somewhere I hop in my car, and in Southern California people are always in such a hurry and maintain a particular way of doing things which they are comfortable with. Anytime I go out of town my frame of mind totally shifts, and because of this I typically recommend people go out of town more often.

A few years ago while in Canada, I bought a book called City Dharma, the main premise of which involves finding peace in your surroundings - regardless of the hustle and bustle of a big city, for example. I was reminded of the book as I began to experience a variety of interesting scenarios, leading to an gradual paradigm shift by the end of the day. A few years back I read a lot of Buddhist and Taoist literature, which at that time was really instrumental in working my way back to peace after some unfortunate life circumstances. Since that time I have gotten back into my study of the Bible, so this combination of religious and spiritual literature is an incredibly powerful recipe for enlightenment - as is immersion in an alternate culture or "world".

Just prior to boarding the plane to leave San Diego, I was "randomly selected" for the routine "strip search" at the security checkpoint. This is a nonsensical procedure in which you and all of your belongings are probed and rearranged by a complete stranger. Because I pack so meticulously - a place for everything and everything in its place, and because I was already incredibly late for my flight departing in 15 minutes, my patience was tested beyond imagination as I sat and watched this large butch woman wearing plastic gloves completely disembowel my luggage. At one point I told her I needed my phone, which she reluctantly gave me after confusing it with my old phone, only to discover that my Bluetooth headset (in a special small zipper pouch) was trying to communicate with it, thus I needed that out of my bottomless purse also. She appeared noticeably perturbed by me as well. I was certainly relieved when she told me my laptop was "clear" and I could put it back in its case, which was deeply embedded inside a special compartment of my smaller carry-on. I made it to the gate after I had been officially "removed" from the cleared standby list, and the plane was approximately two minutes from departure. However it was meant to be that I get on that plane.

I don't know if you have ever tried to sleep while seated in the center seat of a completely full flight. Sitting in between two teenage boys is not exactly the most comfortable scenario in general, and since all of the lights were turned off, reading John McCain's Biography was NOT an option. I sat with my laptop, resized my photos from Opening Day at the Del Mar Racetrack and organized some files, until I ultimately decided to get some sleep. I think I got about an hour total. The plane landed at 6am New York time, and contrary to my previous views of the city, I was greeted by incredibly nice people throughout the airport. I have been in JFK once before as a stopover on my way to Brazil in 2001, but did not recall the unique decor and cozy feel of the facility - though it actually reminded me of an airport in Europe. I took the AirTrain (which looked exactly like the one in Newark, the airport I usually fly into when going to New York) to the Subway. I was surprised the Subway ride took over an hour to reach Manhattan. I felt like I had been sitting forever, and I had not slept nearly enough. I was torn between sleeping and just going for the city full-steam ahead.

Once I arrived in Manhattan, nothing went according to plan. I could not get a hold of my friend who I'd hoped to stay with, and I could not find a hostel which met my standards (they are quite different overseas). I decided to head towards Central Park and possibly even sleep there for a bit, but could not find the right part of the park which was not all walking/running trails and fenced off areas, so I decided to ride the subway a bit more and get my bearings. Everything I "thought" I wanted to go and see I either couldn't find, it was closed, or it was different than what I thought it would be, for example a Jewish Historical Society which ended up being closed! I did manage to plant myself in a Starbucks, delirious and sleep-deprived, drank a Grande coffee, and was blessed with the gift of free internet access! Not only was I able to get some work done, I was able to check email to find out my friend had gone out of town for the weekend. So I researched a few other spots I wanted to check out, and proceeded to do just that. It was really fortunate during my unexpected series of events was that everyone was super nice to me, which helped take the edge off my challenged physical and mental condition.

I ended up at the Tibet House, after directions from a really nice apartment doorman and getting lost in an area called Chelsea where there was another less-than-satisfactory hostel. I did not know what to expect from the Tibet House, but upon entering and looking at the Tibetan art, I was immediately lost in their myriad of books. I spent about an hour and a half there, reading and talking to the guy who was working there. He actually recommended a hostel in Brooklyn, which I will stay at tonight as I will be attending an event in that part of town. During this time in the Tibet House, I was hit with the reality that I was undergoing an amazing transformation in my life, an out with the old and in with the new energy and revitalization beyond anything I had ever experienced. I was incredibly moved by this and the remaining events of the day that followed, as the Universe knew exactly what I needed, and God had been directing my path the entire time to get me to SLOW DOWN and JUST BE.

After the Tibet House, I took the 6 Subway to 83rd and 3rd, where a friend of mine was teaching a Yoga class. I SO needed Yoga after all of what I have been experiencing lately in my life, and after the unexpected series of events which had really been testing my patience. The class was absolutely amazing, and as it turns out, they had just "let me in" to a club with very exclusive membership which usually does not let non-members just walk in like I did! The guy teaching the yoga class also happens to be one of my favorite DJs, and he invited me to share a cab with him across town to his event that I had already planned to check out. I was also so grateful for this because Im sure it would have been challenging to find my way there on the subway at the rate I had been going! We had a great chat in the cab, and arrived at the venue, a pier/stage area on the Hudson River with an amazing view and awesome atmosphere. I felt so comfortable there, there was a cool breeze to counter the hot muggy weather of the day, and the music was phenomenal. I danced for about 4 hours to some of my favorite world groove, tribal house, and international sounds with DJs and live drumming- I can't remember the last time I had danced like that but was exactly the release I needed - so amazing!

After one long day in New York, I believe I have re-discovered my center, and I am definitely rejuvenated - ready to take on the world again! Is it time for YOU to take a trip out of town? Get outside of yourself to truly seek peace within.

a powerful force

2008-05-26T19:00:00.000-07:00

Throughout the past few weeks, I have been spending a lot of time at the beaches of Southern California. One day last week I had the rare opportunity to visit four different beaches in one day: Santa Monica, Long Beach, Ocean Beach, and Windansea La Jolla. On this beautiful American holiday Memorial Day, I spent time at one of my favorite beaches in the US, Mission Beach. After having lunch with a good friend on the boardwalk, I walked along the shore and jumped and swam in the waves to my heart's content. Today was one of the most clear and gorgeous days in a while, perfect for celebrating my personal freedom that many people in our country take for granted!

While I was in the water today I reflected on a thought that came to my mind last week, about what a powerful force the ocean is. I have written other blogs to this effect in the past, but every time I am in or on the ocean, I am reminded of its vastness in addition to its forceful yet tranquil energy. Covering 2/3 of the earth's surface with the ability to heal and/or kill, the ocean is not a force to be reckoned with or taken for granted. And where does this force obtain such jurisdiction? From none other than the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth, the God of Israel. He created the earth for our pleasure, but His hand on the tides and the weather, as well as the stars and the universe, lends to his universal authority over ALL creation.

As a Scorpio, I am water - perhaps this is why I connect with the ocean so much. The ebb and flow of the tides symbolizes my own personality, the strength and beauty to be appreciated rather than neglected, with a balance of force pulling in or crashing down on whoever or whatever I am faced with along the currents of life. As God is the giver and sustainer of all life, he is also the only real source of Truth and the perfect peace which passes all understanding (transcending what we can even fathom to be reality). Without Him in our lives, we will be tossed to and fro by the currents - just trying to hold on to anything that floats by, grasping for air, and possibly even crushed by the waves. In this world its sink or swim, but without the powerful force of God on our side, the forces of this world will suck you into the undertow.

gas station politics

2008-05-04T21:51:00.001-07:00

Today I filled my day and my spirit with good healthy energy at the Healing Arts Festival in Balboa Park. Listening to music from the B-Side Players to Pato Banton and the Mystic Roots, watching a capoeira performance and experiencing a variety of other inspiring cultural sights and sounds made my eclectic soul ecstatic. After the event I filled my gas tank, stomaching the effects on my wallet with the significantly noticeable price increase. As the pump was running, a video of Barack Obama giving a speech was being played on the small digital payment interface screen. I had no choice other than to listen to the scraping sound of his mindless banter while I cleaned the dirt off my back window with a squeegee.

Within the context of Obama's sweeping call for change, he insisted that we must not have "another four years of Bush policies" and claimed that we were fighting a "war that should have never been started". In addition to suggesting that both Bush and John McCain were not up to par in their military tactics and governmental strategies, he laid out his ignorant display as a thinly chopped spread of foot-in-mouth. My initial reaction was "who is he trying to show up" as his attempts to pull the wool over innocent people's eyes during his address to the unfortunately positioned captive audience at the already unfortunate gas station. After this surface-level assessment I applied his sponged-out theories to a higher overall understanding of international relations. I thought to myself, this is the same guy who thinks he can talk peace with Iran through diplomatic negotiations. After attending a Muslim School in Indonesia as a child, one would expect him to have attained a clearer realization of Shiite Islamic theology and the perils therein for our Western nation.

Because Obama has indeed traveled and lived outside of the United States, he should have gained a broader, more complete view of the world than he publicly disseminates to the general observer. Is it possible that there is more going on beneath the surface than he lets on? That his presidency (if elected) would bring about a more radical change than suggested in the likes of his rhetoric? Could the masking of his Muslim faith, swept under the rug for a more public "Christian" image (though recently denouncing beliefs and statements of Christian leaders) later give rise to cooperation with oppressive Islamic nations such as Iran? Such cooperation would clearly elicit a form of change greater than the Liberal Left can even fathom, perhaps lending to the beginning of the end of Western Society as we know it.

After living in the Middle East myself, I understand the enemies America is faced with, but I am confident that the naysayers and the majority of emerging political figureheads in our (currently) free country have only begun to understand the implications of such - merely on the gas station level. I'm afraid there is a little bit more going on behind the scenes with the "war that should have never been started" besides the gas prices, as the squeegee scrapes away at our national integrity.

junkyard dogs

2008-04-28T05:04:00.002-07:00

I don't think I've ever actually been to a junkyard, but yesterday I had the opportunity to go and look for an auto part for a friend. Since i haven't traveled anywhere recently, I often explore new places within my own city and always have exciting adventures when doing so! Before leaving for the junkyard I called to find out if they had the part I needed, and if not if they could direct me to a nearby junkyard that might have it. To my surprise, they did not even know what they had and indicated that I needed to look for it myself, but that they were the only junkyard open on a Sunday. I had my agenda and realized the best way to tackle it would be to just go down there and rummage around - how fun this would be!

Upon my arrival to the junkyard I was asked to pay a $2 entry fee and at that point I described specifically what I was looking for to the man at the entrance. He basically told me i was on my own, that they may or may not have the car/part I was looking for, and that they did not have any tools I could use. I remained optimistic, followed his directions to the Volkswagen section, and stood in awe of all the hundreds of gutted-out cars around the yard. As the hot sun beat down on my shoulders, I wandered up and down several aisles of cars, some stacked 3-4 cars high. The first correct model VW i found was missing the exact part i needed, so i kept looking. I immediately found another one, but this time the part was rusted into the frame, and the car was on a hill at such an angle that I was barely able to climb to the top to examine it. But I did not give up hope.

As I continued on my quest, I quickly found the perfect car with the necessary parts intact. Unfortunately I only had a phillips screwdriver with me, and the part was bolted in. Just then, a man appeared carrying a tool box, his wife with an umbrella to shade herself from the sun. They were customers just like me, but I did not hesitate to approach him in my need for assistance, and he gladly entertained my solicitation. I believe their appearance was not only divine timing but also divine providence. When I told him i needed a tool that unscrews bolts, to my surprise he opened his case and it was full of wrenches, in every imaginable size and configuration. It took him less than 1 minute to remove the part from the car, perfectly flawless. No sooner did I thank him with the utmost appreciation, did he and his wife disappear completely and I did not see them again!

I was utterly amazed at how easy it was to get in and out of the junkyard, and after chatting with the cashier about my findings, realized that I did not have lightbulbs to go along with the tail light fixture I had just excavated. She urged me to go back into the yard and find my lightbulbs, that she would not charge me extra for them. It was at this point that I delved into a more serious level of exploration. In returning to the car on which I had found the part i needed, I noticed that the trunk was filled with dirt. I began digging in the dirt to look for bulbs, but instead found only interesting pieces of debris and surprisingly an old punk rock CD which I listened to the whole way home! I went back to each of the model VWs that I had seen, but none of them had lightbulbs - so i began to browse through similar models and finally managed to salvage the appropriate bulbs. The entire process was so invigorating, I not only felt accomplished but also an overwhelming feeling of divine intervention and peace in my quest. As for the junkyard dogs I'd heard so much about, I didn't encounter any, only kindhearted helpful people - thus I knew this exciting endeavor was truly meant to be.

consequence or punishment?

2008-04-01T19:46:00.005-07:00

Today while in the gym, I caught a few minutes of Larry King Live, a program on CNN which I rarely watch. During a station break, tomorrow's show was previewed, which will feature Jenny McCarthy, former model, actress and MTV host. She will be interviewed on the program on World Autism Day, because her 4-year old son has Autism and she is currently trying to make her voice heard in a medical controversy over vaccinations for the disease. I am rarely compelled by "entertainment news" but this story caught my attention as relevant to an ongoing theme in my life surrounding "consequences" of a person's actions, otherwise known as Karma.

Fellow Scorpio Jenny McCarthy started her career as a runway model, but quickly became involved in the pornography industry, most famous for posing in Playboy Magazine. She continued to live a lifestyle of glamorous promiscuity as a host on MTV's Singled Out, a trendy "dating" show and in her heyday was the fantasy of nearly every man with a pulse on the planet. Such a beautiful woman with such amazing accomplishments, she could get any man she wanted - what a wonderful life - or was it? She did eventually get married and have a son, but he was born with Autism, and she recently got a divorce after 6 years, still struggling with this unfair punishment in her life - so devastating for such a wonderful woman. You've heard it said, "Why do bad things happen to good people?" Yes people are intrinsically good, but we were born with "free will" which allows us to choose our own adventures.

The other night at a dance club, I got into a conversation with a young woman in her 20's about the negativity she projects wherever she goes. The conversation started when she bluntly exclaimed "I hate people!" In my generally kind-hearted uninhibited optimism, I blurted, "Wait a minute, do you realize what you just said? You hate PEOPLE? Aren't YOU a PEOPLE? What about all your friends, and the people in this room?" She started rattling off the types of people in particular she "hated", and it boiled down to the people who did her wrong, or had wrong attitudes, perhaps projected even inadvertently. I said "so you hate the haters, people that hurt you, or people that spread lies about you?" The bartender chimed in "unless they're true" (which seemed to suggest a closed-minded attitude negating multiple perspectives, though possibly a Karma issue for HIM). I told her she should be cautious of making those kinds of statements because the negative energy you put out there will come back to you in SOME form, like affecting her health, or something happening to her car. She immediately retorted "my car got impounded, so I don't have to worry about that!" She explained that it got impounded due to a series of unpaid parking tickets! I could not believe what I was hearing, and I don't believe that she was hearing my point. She is lucky it was JUST her car, but what's next for her life? Negative breeds negative, and spreads like poison - what kind of lifestyle will you choose for yourself?

The Golden Rule in life is to "do unto others as you would have them do unto you". The laws of Karma basically echo the same, the attitudes, actions, and energy you put out there will "come back to you" in some form. I can also speak from personal experience as the consequences (or punishment) of my own actions. My car has been vandalized and broken into several times over the years, as well as other mechanical car failures, and I have been involved in accidents (both to my body and my car). I often affectionately call it "bad karma car", but the car is just an inanimate object indirectly taking the beating for my poor choices, negative attitude, and immoral behaviors, thus the need arises to repeatedly deal with it as my "punishment". Fortunately the car still runs and can be fixed every time, symbolizing to me that once we realize there are consequences for our actions, we can also "fix" our lives and adjust our perspectives AND our actions.

Like Jenny McCarthy, my sexual sins (however glamorous in my previous "Brazilian dancer" lifestyle) resulted in a form of physical punishment, to my own body rather than the bodies of my offspring (as I currently have none). Through a tumultuous process last summer which required serious prayer and meditation as well as taking a particular herb from the Amazon Rainforest, God ultimately healed my body of a pre-cancerous condition on my cervix, caused by an STD known as HPV. According to the doctors, my rapid healing was highly uncommon, as I had the disease for several years and had to have it treated in the past because of the way it spread. So a lot of people wonder why I go to church, and the simple reason is that I have God to thank - without Him I might have cancer, or be dead. His Grace is available to even those who have lived a life of promiscuity, He can reverse the curse you have brought upon yourself. Its totally up to you as an individual whether you accept this free gift, or if you want to keep living your life projecting negativity, acting immorally, or treating people with disrespect. Your "punishment" may be more or less extreme than mine, Jenny's, or the 20-something in the bar, but there WILL be consequences for your actions. If not in your life directly, the "sins of the fathers" will be carried onto their sons.

fishnets and fear

2008-03-27T02:11:00.004-07:00

I spent last year in Israel, and was in Jerusalem for Palm Sunday, Good Friday and Easter - the high holy days in the Holy Land. If you were reading my blog back then, you may recall what a truly amazing international experience I had, not only culturally but especially on the spiritual level. Although I am back in America this year, I continue to transcend the dramas of daily life in our society, and cling to what is Truth, Peace, and Love as my foundation.

This Easter Sunday my home church had a service at the San Diego Convention Center. I decided to park off-site by the Padres baseball stadium and walk rather than to pay the $8 parking fee. The area was sparsely populated on the beautiful Easter Sunday morning, though fun memories of attending fan-packed baseball games passed through my mind. Also on my mind was my physical image, believe it or not. As I've grown and changed over the years I seldom stop and think about how OTHER people perceive me, because I've become so confident in who I am as an individual. I walked along the trolley tracks in my fishnet tights, go-go boots, and leather skirt - my signature outfit, OK to wear to a classy church service on this high holy day. OK in MY mind because my personal style in part defines who I am, although others may have a different definition of style or perceive mine to be less acceptable than theirs for a particular occasion.

Am I afraid of what other people think of me? Absolutely not. In fact, when others draw conclusions or make judgments based solely on my appearance or random actions (especially when taken out of context), I realize that they are the ones who have to live with themselves. This phenomenon is common among Christians unfortunately, thus giving those who practice the faith the label of hypocrites, but it is also especially true among those who do not have God in their lives. However because I have become more and more firmly grounded in my own spirituality, I know that God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind, along with the courage to stand on that foundation in doing such things as inviting other people to church with me. I am not afraid of them rejecting my invitation but it does hurt when they show disrespect often out of their own fear or uncertainty.

It is easy to get caught up in our daily lives, details, dramas, and dilemmas. Feelings get hurt, and misperceptions abound when people fail to see the big picture of the world we live in, and deeper meanings of life. It is nice to know that there is someone who is always there for us no matter how many people disrespect you. On Easter Sunday, millions of people attended church to celebrate the Resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ, who died for the sins of mankind. He loved us so much that he did not want us to suffer through a life of drama, hurt and fear, so He sacrificed Himself to free us from that. His love is free and unconditional no matter how far we have strayed from Him and His laws. Life is too short to treat people with disrespect and not give credit to He who created us - thereby it is possible to love others with the same unconditional love He has for us.

My last blog was entitled "be true to yourself," and is very simple really. The first step is to be honest/real with yourself and everyone you interact with, and secondly treat other people how you would like to be treated. This is easier when you are not hiding anything because of what you think someone else would think (as if they would think any less of you, then they are not allowing themselves to recognize truth). Life is full of interesting encounters, learning experiences, and changes, and we live in a really big world. Only YOU can choose your own path, and live the life you think is best for you. When other people meet you with resistance you need to examine whether that resistance is inside of YOU or THEM. If its inside of YOU, you can deal with it accordingly, but if its inside of THEM, you can only show them your true self as an example of how to be true to oneself. I will wear my fishnets to church without fear of what other people will think - because I am being true to who God made me to be, beautiful in HIS image.

be true to yourself

2008-03-16T21:15:00.001-07:00

When you offer to help someone and be there for them on a daily basis, and they reject you, its not about whether or not you did the right thing - because you did. You can't change who you are for someone else, and if it is in your nature to be giving and loving, people will have to deal with that. If you go out of your way to show kindness and friendship to someone and they blatantly disregard your feelings, there is no harm in what you have done, they are the one who has to live with themselves. If you can be unconditional towards them and keep the love for them in your heart no matter what, you will become a stronger person because you're willing to do whatever it takes to manifest your true intentions.

You have to ask yourself, "am I being true to myself?" if the answer is YES, continue to be true and don't change who your are or sacrifice your desires or your character because of someone's raunchy mood. If the answer is NO, ask yourself why you would make sacrifices for someone else if they are not reciprocating your love, or their reaction only makes you feel worse. Could it be that they do not know the real you because they are not allowing themselves to?

If their blatant disregard for your feelings stems from them not opening up their heart to you in the first place, then you need to step back and give them some space. If they are being true to themselves they will come around eventually, and embrace the love you have for them, while appreciating all that you are. If they are not being true to themselves it will wear on their souls and start to show outwardly, and they will continue to wreak havoc upon their life in other ways. Unless of course they are being superficial, in which case they are not being true to themselves or to you.

When you are helping someone or opening yourself up to them because of the love in your heart that you wish to share, you ARE being true to yourself. When you have nothing but love for the person you are opening up to, you are also putting yourself in a vulnerable position as the other person may not be quite at your level spiritually or emotionally. The more you open up your heart, the more you risk the potential of getting hurt. Some people get hurt over and over again because they put themselves out there and are continually misunderstood.

I pray for the day when the love that I give is returned in the way that I deserve - I deserve only the BEST and highest level of respect. I am grateful for my friends and family whose love is unconditional as is God's love. I believe it is possible for two people to love each other in this manner but only after the barriers of past relationship hurt and uncertainty about the future are taken down - so all that remains is honesty, truth, and LOVE. Open up your heart to receive it, you deserve the best for your life, and to surround yourself with people who adore and appreciate you.

400 rupees

2008-02-17T21:05:00.003-07:00

I have never been to India, but have always been fond of their culture, food, music, movies, people and practices. One of my best friends is there right now, traveling and teaching English. I would love more than ever to join her there, but in the meantime I seem to be surrounded by the essence of India! The other day I ran into an old friend of Indian descent, who I'd met just before I left for Israel. Coincidentally he had been in Israel for work and was interested to exchange stories. Also a few days ago I was in the Hillcrest Trader Joe's, where they keep a collection of foreign currency under the glass at their check-out stands. I reached in between the glass and pulled out a bill - it was from India - their currency the Rupee. Another good friend of mine is a promoter for Hindi movies, and as I was walking along the boardwalk today I decided to give him a call. My phone was breaking up and all i heard was "400 Rupees", wondering what he was doing with Indian currency. What he actually said was he was in a room with "400 Indian people" and proceeded to tell me about his day at work.

After talking to him I continued walking down the boardwalk, lined with drunk people and tourists. A man approached me abruptly waving a thick book in my face. The book was called Bhagavad-Gita (meaning "Song of God"), and the man was an Indian Monk. He told me he was giving away copies of the book, to anyone who wanted to learn more about meditation. Being the open-minded spiritual person that I am, I had no other intended path then to stop and talk to him for a while. Our conversation was amazing, our connection transcended beyond the standard "boardwalk talk". As it turns out he was born Jewish, worked as a Physicist at UCSD in his early adulthood, then decided to become a Monk, which he has been for 30 years. During that time not only has he researched Indian spirituality and philosophy extensively, he has traveled around distributing books and meeting people who want to learn more. He offered give me the book for a donation of $15, only to cover their printing costs. I explained to him that I was in between jobs and in between homes, though I really wanted the book.

Our conversation evolved into discussion of the Divine as well as the metaphysical, and early interpretations of religion, such as the history and evolution of spiritual thought in the Middle East and Asia. He asked me if I was open to alternative thoughts about God besides the beliefs of Christianity, this before he actually knew I was a Christian. I told him that indeed I am more open minded than most of the Christian people I know so he didn't need to worry about that, and having lived among Jews and Muslims I already have a pretty broad understanding of the other viewpoints. Of course my own practices of Yoga and meditation tie into the peacefully-attainable levels of spiritual growth and highly evolved mindset that seems to be the underlying theme of the Bhagavad-Gita. It took little convincing on either side to realize we were conversing on the same level, and the monetary value of the book seemed to have disappeared in the chill twilight ocean air. Ultimately knowing that I was short on Rupees, not only did he decide to GIVE me the book - because it was understood that I would in fact read it - but invited me to an Indian-food dinner at the meditation center down the street. I declined the dinner invitation but may venture over there sometime in the future for a free meal or meditation. In the meantime I definitely have some new reading material... don't worry Im not converting to a new religion, only expanding my levels of consciousness!

love and rockets

2008-02-15T04:22:00.002-07:00

today in America, we celebrate the day of love, St. Valentine's Day. While love is at the top of my personal to-do list, the holiday has become one of the country's favorite over-commercialized shopping days of the year, geared towards consumers in love. A side effect of this frenzy is the impending doom that lurks among singles who have not yet found their true love. For years I was sucked into this spiral, having never been with anyone who has shown me a special amount of love on this celebrated day (other than my mother) but my fresh perspective can bring hope for change. Not change like that which is over-rhetoricized by left-wing politicians, but a change of heart, a release of the past to make room for the new, with the goal of invoking positive energy into my own life, a quest for a new love on the horizon - accepting only the best because we deserve this for ourselves.

When I think of what love really is, not this hyped-up consumer type of love or the love that the world gives - real love starts with love for our Creator. The words of 1 Corinthians 13:4-5 say it best: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. LOVE NEVER FAILS! May we all remember the true meaning of love this Valentine's Day!

Meanwhile over in the rockets red glare of a country (God's own Holy Land Israel), high securty alert levels have been enforced at the borders, with the murder of one of Hezbollah's top leaders. Now that I am not living there anymore, I follow the headlines religiously - as though a part of me still longs for this existence. When you read about the bombs and qassams (rockets) they are generally detonated in remote or isolated areas, but you would not deduce that from the reports. However the activity which has taken place among terrorist groups and their leaders is greater in scope than the everyday terrorism against Israel. Hezbollah threatened "open war" against Israel as one of its leaders Imad Mughniyeh was killed. Sheikh Hassan Nasrallah accused Israel of being responsible for the blast in Damascus, Syria, killing militant commander Imad Mughniyeh on Wednesday. Nasrallah stated, "With this murder, its timing, location and method - Zionists, if you want this kind of open war, let the whole world listen: Let this war be open." With the whole world watching, only those who have the love for Israel care and are moved by this unfortunate blame-game. The Bible commands us to love one another, and to love your neighbor as yourself. That's all we can do, here in America as we celebrate the Day of Love.

hillary care

2008-02-01T15:29:00.000-07:00

Today at Cox Arena at SDSU (my home away from home) Senator Hillary Clinton was scheduled to speak at the Town Hall lecture at 1:30. I had to come to campus anyway, so I thought what the heck, I'll check it out. I parked for free in one of the student parking structures, and when i walked across campus 2 1/2 hours before the event there was a ginormous line wrapped around the entire walkway paralleling the Love Library. I decided not to wait in it but rather get my business taken care of and then go to Starbucks to check my email. As I walked across campus to the event I was nearly trampled by a parade of Barack Obama supporters, carrying banners and chanting something about change. In between their banter, I yelled "John McCain" in their general direction. One of them laughed at me, another said "I hope you need to get an abortion someday!" What a bizarre thing to say - I yelled back "I'm not planning on killing anyone!" Last I heard John McCain was somewhat Liberal when it comes to abortion, but I guess the person didn't know that, assuming he was as Conservative as can be.

When I did arrive to the Cox Arena I had to walk around the entire building where I was met with signs stating "heightened security, bags will be searched". I thought to myself, if I were a terrorist, I would definitely try to bring a backpack into the Town Hall meeting. I think I must have been oozing "Conservative" from all pores of my body because I was met with so much resistance getting into the venue. First they made everyone fill out a half-sheet with name, address and email - required before being able to ENTER - probably so they can spam me with their Liberal rhetoric. Then I approached the bag check and to my dismay they told me I could not even bring my bag in (despite the signs saying bags would be searched). I told them I was a Professor here, showed them my Faculty ID card, and waited to talk to a supervisor. I told them it was necessary so I could take notes, etc. They still made me check my bag but I was able to bring in my laptop and camera. I'll try to snap a photo before I leave.

I am still sitting here an hour after the event was supposed to "start", two hours after the doors opened (good thing I didn't wait in that line), and NO HILLARY. I have endured listening to several Liberal introductory speakers, fortunately without getting sick. They keep saying "Hillary is coming, she is on her way". Probably had to get her makeup done or something. The sign language translator looks like Mitt Romney from here. A bunch of people keep getting up to buy nachos. Now they are flying paper airplanes around inside Cox arena. Reminds me of the PSFA Graduation Ceremony, which was also in this venue. I am having more fun watching people wait as I know the speech itself is not going to change my life or any of my viewpoints. Wow, this paper airplane flying extravaganza is generating more applause and excitement than the candidate herself. I wonder if she will ever get here. Now the State Speaker Fabian Nunez is speaking onstage to talk about voting and introduce ANOTHER speaker, John Chung, who introduced the Mayor of Los Angeles, who introduced another senator. I guess that's my cue to leave - I already voted by mail for McCain!

immigration nation

2008-01-23T16:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, my friend Irene and I drove to Los Angeles in order that she might buy supplies for a Samba costume she is making for the Brazilian Carnival. The store was in an area called the Garment District, which reminded me of commerce on the streets of Mexico or the markets in the Middle East - complete with international citizens! As illegal immigration is a hot topic in the mainstream political rhetoric, I am curious if many of the US Presidential candidates have actually interacted with many of these illegal workers, or truly understand to what extent they rely on the plummeting US economy for their livelihoods.

We walked along the streets lined with vendors speaking many different languages - mainly Spanish but a variety of others - while entertained by this, our goal was to find the supplies that Irene needed. A shiny silver applique of a Hamsa (popular Israeli/Jewish symbol as protector for doorways) on a black t-shirt - beckoned us into one of the shops. I had just given Irene a keychain of the same symbol a few days before as a present, with an all-seeing eye in the center. After we got inside the shop I looked for the Hamsa symbols, and was greeted by one of the employees who exclaimed "its a Jewish symbol!" I told him I knew what it was because i lived in Israel, and I then noticed he was wearing a yamika, traditional Jewish prayer cap.

While Irene was looking around the store, I went over to the front counter, where there was a menu of a nearby restaurant. It appeared to be in Arabic, so I started reading it in Arabic, without looking at the English translations. I was frustrated because I could not understand all of the words, and got a little down on myself since I stopped studying Arabic so vehemently about a month ago and thought I was getting rusty. I began to read aloud to the man with the yamika. He asked me if I studied the languages while in Israel and if I knew Arabic. I said "yes but Im having a hard time with this menu". He admitted to me that the menu was actually in Farsii, the Iranian language though very similar to Arabic - then I realized why I was experiencing so much difficulty! While most of the letters are pronounced the same, the language is different (something like the difference between English and Spanish), and Farsii has 2 more letters than the Arabic alphabet, which he pointed out to me on the menu. It all made sense - the menu was for a Persian restaurant around the corner.

I asked the man where he was from, and he told me he was from Iran. I asked in surprise "so you are an Iranian Jew?" He said YES, with a rather serious insider look on his face. I was overwhelmed with respect and said with equal seriousness, "its a good thing you got out of there!" to which he agreed intensely. I told him that the US Government is hiring people who can speak Farsii and Arabic to aid in their missions overseas, and asked him if he was a US citizen in case he was interested. He told me he was not yet a legal citizen, and I asked how long it took to become a citizen - to which he replied "6 years!" The Garment District seems like a safe place for immigrants on the path to citizenship to work in the meantime - a truly international haven.

Later that night when we returned from LA, Irene received a call on her cell phone, from a Brazilian friend's phone but it was not him calling - an unknown Mexican man had stolen his phone while he was in Mexico. We encountered the friend later, only to discover that on his way back from the border after he lost his phone, he had been robbed of everything else, including his Green Card which he needed in order to live and work legally in the United States. We are unsure at this point if he will get deported back to Brazil since he now has no legal identification, as his path to citizenship has been foiled by yet another person attempting to assimilate into this the immigrant nation.

political assassins II

2008-01-09T11:40:00.000-07:00

Today, many of the streets of Jerusalem are blocked off due to security measures being taken during President Bush's visit to the Holy Land. American flags line the streets of the capital city of Israel, our closest ally in the Middle East, in honor of the first US President to visit the Jewish State in 9 years. With the recent assassination of Benazir Bhutto in Pakistan, security measures are increased and the world is on full alert - at least among those who value the ongoing Middle East peace negotiations. A few days before Bush embarked on his journey, an American member of Al-Qaeda named Adam Gadahn released a public message on the heels of Osama Bin Laden's last videotape (which warned Muslims against supporting Iraq's US-backed government and promises of the "liberation of Palestine"). Gadahn has called on Muslim fighters (mujahidin) in Palestine and the Arabian Peninsula to welcome George Bush "not with flowers and applause but with bombs and traps" during his visit to the Middle East.

Meanwhile in New Hampshire, a victory for Arizona Senator John McCain means a steadfastness of the US presence in the Middle East and throughout the world if he can ride this winning streak into election as the next US President. In contrast, Democratic rival Hillary Clinton is seen crying on tape, at a public address to potential US voters, apparently upset about the current state of affairs America is in under the Bush Administration. I'm not sure that the condition her husband left the country in before Bush took over was necessarily rid of all problems and controversy with his own style of governance. But try not to imagine the US in an even worse scenario as a self-professing Christian nation: Clinton's main opponent, Barack Hussein Obama was raised for many of his pre-teen years as a Muslim in Indonesia. This might indeed create cooperation in the establishment of a one-world government and religion, at least as far as the terrorist states are concerned.

While speculation swarms around Bush's meetings with top officials this week, he stands firm on his position against radical Islamic terror. This is clearly stated by his repeated stance on the dangers of Iran's nuclear program, as evidenced in his plans to steer clear of the top terrorist territories on this trip - Gaza and Axis-of-Evil leader Iran. A photo of one Gazan protester's poster featured George Bush in a kaffiya, as a new leader of "Hamastine" if talks of a Palestinian state were to actually materialize. Often overlooked by the media, critics, and even some intelligence reports, George Bush understands our enemies well, and sees them as a clear threat to Western freedoms. Anyone who does not realize that may want to take a trip of the same itinerary and wager if they might successfully avoid assassination. Ok, I admit I am a bit jealous he gets to go to so many wonderful destinations during the next few days - an amazing opportunity!

Coincidentally, on the eve of Bush's visit to the region, Iranian Revolutionary Guard boats harassed US Navy warships in a hostile attempt to make them leave the waters of the Persian Gulf. Not surprising, Iranian media and officials are denying the event, claiming the US video of the episode to be "fabricated". If anyone would have been harmed (as threats of war continue) would that have made its way to the media in an equally fabricated manner, or denied completely? How do we know what is actually taking place other than brief mainstream media reports overshadowed by reports of drug abuse throughout our prized entertainment industry? While much of America continues to pay little attention to international occurrences such as these, Britain, France and other major world powers have indeed stood behind Bush's push against the Axis-of Evil. I am fearing America's assassination, perhaps not by Iran or radical Islamic freedom fighters, but by the ignorance that is bred by Liberalism in an attempt to Liberate the Land of the ALREADY Free.

political assassins

2007-12-27T14:59:00.000-07:00

the political arena impacts our daily lives to such a great extent, although ironically politics is one of those "taboo" topics in the social sphere. I always hear people say "never talk about politics or religion" especially when drinking! I generally do just the opposite, because these topics are of the utmost importance to our existence. At our family Christmas dinner (an alcohol-free event) the topic of politics did indeed come up. When it did, i vocalized my thoughts on some of the US Presidential candidates, as I often do, promoting in particular a few of the Republican front-runners. Someone had mentioned about doing their taxes or what they would do with the extra money when they get their tax returns, which got me started on Mike Huckabee and his plans to abolish the IRS. There are always a few in the bunch who do not keep up with the issues, so I proceeded to explain Huckabee's plans to phase out the federal income tax on wages and replace it with the fair tax on consumer purchases. I explained in common-sense terms how this would allow for the illegal workers and people getting paid under-the-table such as drug dealers, who would normally not pay taxes on their income to be taxed the same as everyone else. My mom interjected, "that sounds great but that would never happen. He would get assassinated first." I thought, what a horrible thing to say! I was appalled, but it definitely got me thinking about all the various scenarios for replacement government. Somehow the Democrats need to be in office in order for the North American Union (or as I call it, Camerico) to be implemented as an important facet of the one-world government.

Just last night, an actual presidential assassination did occur, at an election rally in Pakistan. Former Prime Minister Benazir Bhutto was shot at by a suicide bomber, who then blew himself up killing about 20 other people nearby as well. There had been an earlier unsuccessful attempt at assassinating Bhutto a few months ago, when she was traveling with her convoy in returning to Pakistan after being in exile. Bhutto is well-loved by many of the Pakistani people, yet the idea of a woman in power completely defies the guidelines of Islamic law. Thus the large Muslim population in Pakistan definitely has some bearing on the opposing - and in this case extremist - uprising against her. President Pervez Musharraf held an emergency meeting in the hours after her death, and said he believed the killers were "the same extremists that Pakistan is fighting a war against." Coincidentally, Bhutto is Musharraf's major political opponent in the next election though the two seem to both be together in fighting extremism.

While revolutionary political leaders continue to make their mark on history, there are always those revolting radicals who do not want to see positive political change. One could theorize that in the same way Mike Huckabee poses a threat to the commonplace with his idealistic utopian expectations for our country, revolutionary ideologies such as those of Ron Paul or Barack Obama would also provide a political target for extremists if either were to be elected. Thinking back to the assassination of Abraham Lincoln (a thought inspired by my recent viewing of the film National Treasure), examples of people displeased by remarkable leaders can be found throughout history. It seems like any leader or ideology that threatens freedom - anything contrary to life as we/they know it, or exposes greed or corruption - is a target for those who embrace hatred and destruction. If one person's voice can make a difference in the world as we have seen throughout history, then one person's gunshot, suicide blast, or threats of national destruction can also have the same type of effect though horrific in nature. Bhutto's death should be seen as a wake-up call to the Middle East, but for world politics in general - are we headed to a global uprising leading to a necessary embrace of one-world government? Peace in the Middle East is definitely on the back-burner as the flames rise in controversy.

men who matter

2007-12-19T23:16:00.000-07:00

when I heard that Al Gore had won the Nobel Peace Prize, I was appalled. His scientifically-disproven Global Warming Theory has done nothing but create a sense of fear and condemnation among citizens of the world - hardly a peaceful affair. Of course humans are irresponsible and have contributed to the destruction of the world, both in their actions towards the earth as well as their actions towards each other. But when does leftist political rhetoric justify peace? Only when we tolerate all offbeat human tendencies, from sexual preference to religion (including the religions that aim for our destruction)?

While Al and friends continue to spread their hoax-as-mantra and dominate the political biosphere (remind me not to suck in too much of their private jet fuel in my daily breathing of toxic carcinogens), another man-on-the-move has received equally notable global praise as TIME Magazine's Person of the Year. No, not General Petraeus or even the beloved Al Gore for that matter, but in fact the powerful Communist Dictator Vladimir Putin. As the President of Russia, he has embraced the Axis of Evil, appointing himself as the primary supporter of the Terrorist Nations - both in weapons as well as his own personal support. TIME's Person of the Year is not and never has been an honor or endorsement per se, nor is it a popularity contest. TIME claims that "he has performed an extraordinary feat of leadership in imposing stability on a nation that has rarely known it and brought Russia back to the table of world power." And this, my friends, indeed warrants an award of sorts. A rising Russian Czar, steadily seeking to expand his power, territory and global influence - look out world!

While we are on the topic of Men Who Matter (and the Axis of Evil, and religions we should tolerate although they want us dead) this week marks the beginning of the annual Hajj, or Islamic pilgrimage to Mecca. Mahmoud Ahmedinijad, another Powerful President, is in attendance for his first time at this highly-revered event in Saudi Arabia. As he stopped on Mount Arafat to pray, do you think he was praying for his greatest desire to manifest - the destruction of Israel? Not too long ago, he met with Putin regarding their shared political agendas and necessary weaponry for facilitation of such. Shortly thereafter, a US intelligence report revealed that Iran was not actually manufacturing these weapons. Many questioned President Bush's OWN intelligence, though he himself continues to identify Iran as a threat contrary to the (left-influenced?) reports. As a Man Who Matters, President Bush continues to lead America AGAINST the Axis of Evil and its Evil Kremlin, and is often criticized for his own keen global agenda. Who IS the most powerful man in the world, in this struggle for world power?

One final man comes to mind in the global power struggle, though he is hardly struggling over in his corner of the world. French President Nicolas Sarkozy has recently been seen in public with a famous model, just weeks after his divorce from former wife Cecilia. While he was not up for TIME's Person of the Year (surprising? yes), he is gaining more and more power worldwide. The Bible indicates that the AntiChrist will rise from the European nations, perhaps as the leader of the EU, of Jewish descent, and that he will not be married. Whether or not my personal speculation will manifest as per the End Times Prophecies, I enjoy watching Sarkozy become more and more popular and powerful with each passing day. Regardless, no one can argue that each of these Men Who Matter play a vital role in Global Domination, and perhaps in the destruction of the warming, deteriorating planet.

one nation

2007-12-02T22:26:00.000-07:00

after traveling to Europe and the Middle East and comparing the other countries to my own, I realized that we have it pretty good here in the United States. Our progressive democratic society is quite unique with its own inherent forms of diversity, yet a very new country relative to the rest of the world. However, the challenge for many global thinkers in the US lies within the very nationalism on which we pride ourselves. When asked where I was from by other people I encountered throughout the world, many were pleasantly surprised that I was from America. I thought, upon leaving this country that the negativity which abounds within would be shared upon the world stage - but this isn't always the case. I'd either get those people who thought America was the best country in the world (and they wanted to go there but could not get a visa), or the rare few who would bash Bush thus bashing the nation's government. I would usually tell them I liked Bush, and the conversation would often stop there. But worldwide, the popular view seemed to be that America IS the promised land - the land of the free and the home of the brave.

so what happened - and do these outsiders even realize what we have become inside our borders? We were founded as "One Nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all" - does this ring a bell? It reminds me of my elementary school days, the first seeds of patriotism planted at a very young age, and shared by many Americans who grew up in my era or earlier. Yet since this time, our nation has undergone many significant changes, for better or for worse. I do not believe that the same Pledge of Allegiance is chanted as in my day - the nation no longer under God - as the school bell proceeds to ring to the tune of political correctness, and our borders open to cultural diversity and tolerance... of that which our Founding Fathers would have never dreamed. Justice for all indeed, liberties abounding as to not racially discriminate or alienate the aliens - in the form of illegal immigrants (who wouldn't WANT to come here after all?) as well as those practicing Biblically-forbidden relations in order to capitalize on the privileges induced by our rewards-driven society.

This past week two very important political events happened in America: the Middle East Summit meeting held to discuss the Israeli-Palestinian Peace Process, and the Republican Presidential debate held to familiarize the voting public with the candidates. Ironically, the Peace meeting was merely a diplomatic formality as a legitimate Palestinian state is not realistic in the wake of the current PA government and territories, and the Debate was somewhat of a staged "show" intended to stir up ill feelings amongst the candidates. Many people suspected that the opposing Democratic party had "planted" questions to make the Republicans look foolish, or to cause overall difficulty for the participants. Fortunately the majority of the candidates stood their ground, and provided solid responses regardless of how foolish the questions were, proving their dedication and patriotism appropriate for the candidacy. Naturally, much political rhetoric has emerged from both of these events, from the media and other politicians, as to continue the ongoing debate amongst our One Nation, Indivisible. One member of the opposing party even concocted a staged hostage situation a few days later, in order to propel herself further into the public eye, thereby diverting media coverage from the Republican candidates. Although we are One Nation, living together within our borders, our diversity may soon become our demise.

indian holiday

2007-11-24T18:10:00.000-07:00

Now that I am back in America, I am back to celebrating the holidays in familiar territory, land of the Indians (or as some people consider "Native Americans"). When I was in Israel last year, not many people knew what Thanksgiving was, let alone celebrated it. Fortunately I knew a few other Americans, one of whom invited me to a monthly potluck, which happened to fall on Thanksgiving thus designating it as a celebration of the holiday. At the shared communal meal, the Americans did their best to explain to the other guests what Thanksgiving was all about, and how the tradition for the sharing of a big meal started with the British pilgrims befriending the Indians. They taught them how to grow corn, hunt, and live off the land - the land they knew as home.

On my way to my hometown in Arizona to celebrate Thanksgiving with family, I was driving through an Indian reservation, and suddenly got the urge to see an Indian movie - from India. A good friend of mine works as a promoter for Hindi films, and usually lets me in for free. I was interested in seeing him and of course to satisfy my urge for all things Indian. I had also been listening to Anoushka Shankar and Karsh Kale's amazing new album for the past several weeks straight and this reflected my readiness to embrace the culture. Upon arriving into Phoenix, I emailed an Indian friend of mine, a former co-worker who has been living in the Phoenix area, to see if he wanted to join me for the Hindi movie. I had just heard that Bangladesh got hit by a devastating cyclone. To my surprise my friend was actually in his hometown of Calcutta India for a visit, and he sent an email the next morning notifying everyone that he was indeed safe despite his proximity to Bangladesh.

While the cyclone threatened the easternmost part of India's coast, 3 terror attacks threatened India's north just yesterday. A series of explosions blasted through courthouses in heavily populated cities of Uttar Pradesh. The area is a popular Hindu pilgrimage center, certainly a target for Islamist terrorists (as are any non-Islamic civilizations). As long as our world's cultures remain in conflict, they are also linked more than we may realize. The other day, my dad called for service on one of his electronic devices, only to find that the help desk calls were handled by a call center in India. The woman on the phone told him she knew it was Thanksgiving, and asked him to explain the holiday to her. He told her about the pilgrims sharing a meal with the indians, and now our families get together for a special time and to share a traditional meal. She thought this sounded like the standard family meals shared by Indian people on a regular basis, and wondered why we only did it once a year, but praised us for celebrating our freedoms. From Maricopa to Masala, themes of Indian culture filled my Thanksgiving holiday.

freelance monotheism

2007-11-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

The other day a friend of mine told me he had just recently read a few books by Karen Armstrong, and asked me if I had heard of her. I had not, so I looked her up online. While I'd love to check out some of her actual writings, I learned a bit about her background and ideologies. She is a fellow Scorpio (as is my favorite author Edward Said), has a degree in literature, was a former Nun, then turned Atheist as a result of bad experiences with the convent lifestyle and expectations - then changed some of her views after visiting Jerusalem. She has written about Judaism, Christianity, Islam and Buddhism, and now calls herself a "freelance monotheist." She purports the theory that fundamentalist religion is a response to and product of modern culture. I would say that the "structure" aspect of organized religions certainly contributes to their disenchantment, but the notion of "freelance" would suggest the inability or decision to not commit to any of the above due to personal fears, or otherwise internal spiritual limitations.

Upon visiting Jerusalem, a person could not argue against the existence of God, and His presence in some form becomes absolutely apparent to anyone with a pulse. Atheism is not even an option once exposed to this region of the world (perhaps arguably conceivable by those separated by distance with no means to travel and no access to history books), as the history of humankind is traced back to Israel and Mesopotamia/Babylon, present-day Iraq. The notion of "freelance monotheism" is engaging in and of itself, yet offers merely a quaint literary perspective void of tactile interaction. Has she spent the night in a Bedouin village as I have, and coexisted among the hijab-sporting virgins eager to spread what they believe to be the only true way, the way of the sword?

I once thought Islam provided a legitimate religious lifestyle/belief system (seemed peaceful enough) until I witnessed first-hand the oppression of its adherents, both in societal restriction and political elitism. Islam was created out of reaction to Christianity and Judaism, because they did not approve of the way their followers behaved - and sought to create a new religion in which they could do better than these hypocrites. Yet the quest for best has forced them into a narrow mindset embracing the notion of religion, but discarding the intended focus (a personal relationship with God), resulting a socio-political battle and cultural upheaval, even against other Muslims.

If we as humans possess free will (which indeed we are born with), to freely choose Islam is to subscribe to a twisted ideology in which all other religions (Christianity, Judaism, Hinduism, Buddhism, Atheism, etc) are inferior, deemed in the Quran as "infidels", who must be destroyed. Their doctrine contradicts itself as it also labels Christians and Jews as respectable, "dhimmis" or "people of the Book", yet does not discriminate among the various categories of infidels (if you are not a Muslim, you must be killed). A religion which contradicts itself could not possibly prove valid, or even loving/accepting of others. Thus a mere literary assessment can not provide a first-hand interaction with the people, who often mask their true intentions (in deceit and blatant insincerity) in projecting a "false" sense of peace or holiness. "Death to America, Death to Israel, Death to the West" is their mantra - can you subscribe to this while concurrently validating the Western religions? How then would it be possible to simultaneously embrace the three monotheistic religions as a type of new-age religious tolerance, as though hatred/killing in the name of God could also be legitimized?

To excavate some level of wisdom from the Quran is merely a recognition of that which was borrowed from the Bible and Torah. This in fact is the reason the monotheistic religions are so similar and could lend to any number of comparative studies - obviously the Torah is the Old Testament, half the Bible, and the Quran is an excessively edited version of these. Far Eastern religions appear the least controversial in comparison, as they do not attempt to negate HISTORY (which cannot be changed by any person or religious institution despite societal or political upheaval) and thus can provide an outlet for humans merely seeking inner peace and tranquility... the true "essence" of religion or spirituality.

If we can embrace the value in each religion and adopt it as our own (in terms of "freelance monotheism"), we can begin to live our lives the way in which God intended of us. The peace of Buddhism, the compassion and grace of Jesus, the modesty of the Muslims, the devotion of the Jews, and the resistance to ego, desire, and suffering in the quest for selflessness and transcendence - we may attain a greater understanding of God as Omnipotent Creator of the Universe, complete with its inherently diverse levels of human consciousness and realization of the Divine. God is peace, not war, and created us to have a relationship with Him, in order that we may transcend this earthly paradigm wrought with dissension and suffering - and to experience Him fully.

middle east peace

2007-11-10T17:51:00.001-07:00

aah diplomacy... is it wishful thinking to politically purport "peace in the Middle East"? Is the "peace process" a means to an end, or a necessary step towards a complete global democracy? Can land be given away to an angry race to aid in peaceful coexistence in a particular region? Can borders be expanded to further a pseudo-humanitarian cause, reveling in poverty but rooted in heresy? Are wars waged on the basis of religious beliefs or fueled by societies with the lack thereof? I must be either a pessimist or an absolutist, as what I'm about to say may not register on your God-o-meter if you are an unbeliever in the Ultimate Truth.

The United States, originally founded as a God-fearing nation, has become a nation of humanists, promoting democracy, diplomacy, and faith in oneself rather than a faith in the Divine. Yet We the People are Western allies with our founding British brothers, and our Biblically-based Holy enterprise, the State of Israel. Although we still have a handful of Christians and Jews in the US, many Biblical truths have long since been forgotten as our societies have evolved beyond the need for God in our daily lives. However, the Bible was written for today just as much as for the Jews of 3,000 years ago, it is the Word of Life for all the ages. One important characteristic of the Bible is its focus on Israel, not on America or Australia or even the whole of Africa. Most people in the world have been exposed to the Bible to some degree, yet many choose to ignore it or refute its claims, as though it does not apply to them directly.

Growing up a Christian, I'll admit the Bible is a bit difficult to read and digest in parts. Much of the language and terminology used is outdated or seemingly irrelevant, and parts of the book are even cryptic. You have to WANT to understand it, and even then you may become lost unless someone explains it to you. Furthermore, the Bible has been tossed aside as a mere historical literary work, unless you are some sort of religious zealot or theology expert. Hence the need arises for spurious scholars and attentive historians to excavate the hidden truths for today - especially as related to the modern global political arena. If you have not heard of him, I would like to recommend New York Times Best-Selling Author Joel C. Rosenberg, and his book entitled "Epicenter: Why the Current Rumblings in the Middle East Will Change Your Future". While many of his other books are written as fiction (based on Biblical prophecies), Joel's claims in Epicenter are based on world history, current politics, and the Old Testament prophecies of Ezekiel 36-39. Here you will see the role of Russia and Iran revealed in their quest for global domination and intended destruction of Israel, exactly how it will unfold, and why.

I can't imagine my life without God, especially after visiting the Middle East and Israel, where religion and differing beliefs in monotheism is the core of their civilization. Nothing grieves me more than after having come back to America, seeing the ways in which our more "modern" society has progressed to a point of negating and even completely erasing God from the pages of time. Western society has evolved with so many outlets for success, prosperity, freedom of lifestyle and choice, none of which have anything to do with the God of Israel, He who created all species including we humans, and the very world we live in. Thus God's Holy Land of Israel, deemed as the official and timeless home for the Jewish people, God's chosen race, is continually being sliced and diced into a region which some believe to be politically sound.

I used to think the West Bank and Gaza "division of land" to form a Palestinian "state" was a legitimate solution to the Israeli-Palestinian conflict - before I understood fully what the conflict was. I studied the region, its history, politics, language and culture full-time for one year. Even then, its just a bunch of facts without considering the religious foundations and cultural diversity of the indigenous people. According to the Bible, the lands of Judea and Samaria (presently called the West Bank) ultimately belong to the Jews, and must return to FULL JEWISH control before the War of Gog and Magog (see Ezekiel and above reference to Rosenberg's book Epicenter). As I am not currently an international policymaker (and most likely you are not either), we can only watch and see what the present-day politicians do to allow or disallow this division of land for "peace" in the Middle East.

pure diversion

2007-11-05T02:12:00.000-07:00

This weekend I spent time with family and friends in Arizona, many of whom have small children. Generally, a trip out of town provides a suitable outlet for escape, or diversion from one's own life. When children are involved, I am quickly reminded about the beauty of development, stages of life, and purity of heart. In addition, the choices a person makes will determine their particular life situation, such as the decision to have children, a house with mortgage and maintenance, fixed or variable interest rates, and a small tragedy when the hot water heater goes out or someone throws a toy at someone else.

While every lifestyle has its own responsibilities and parameters, it is important not to lose sight of what is going on in the rest of the world. After dinner with a few life-long friends whom I hadn't seen in a while, we somehow got into a discussion on morality, religion, and political affairs. For me, these are standard topics of relevance, regardless of company. For a few of the others present, it was a bit unfamiliar and somewhat uncomfortable. Our discussion revealed the stark realization that we did not all meet eye-to-eye politically, but furthermore that a few of the people present simply DID NOT CARE about what was going on with some of these issues - because they DID NOT KNOW anything about it. I mentioned something about Putin, and one of my friends turned to another one and asked "do you even care what she is talking about?" she replied "no". Its not easy for some of my people when I express my views against gay marriage (and biologically why that lifestyle is not even logical), but when I say anything about a unified currency or one-world religion, people usually react like I am speaking complete nonsense. I mention Camerico (inevitable merger between Canada, America and Mexico) or the Amero (continental currency which will be in place within the next year) and I am stared down like I have 2 heads.

Our world is not far from the prophecies of Ezekiel and Revelation coming to fruition. In the end times, there will be 10 nations total, a one-world government and religion (surprise: it will be Islam)! Russia's prominence on the Global stage as international arms distributor, now in close alliance with Iran, will soon bring about significant change for life as we know it. War with Iran is inevitable for the US, and no amount of immersing oneself in children's soccer games, trips to the mall, and debt consolidation will change that. Whether your diversion is your home improvement projects, hollywood entertainment, or the bar/club scene, anything that keeps you from awareness of the big picture or imminent global paradigm is a pure form of disengagement. Pakistan in a state of emergency, whose government is near to being overthrown by terrorist groups like Al-Qaeda, Turkey involved in border clashes with its own internal terrorist regime the PKK, and Israel being repeatedly threatened by several radical Islamist factions... all the while America sleeps. Today's headline: "Colts dominate the Patriots" - tomorrow's headline: "Kremlin dominates the Arab World".

atheists and communists

2007-10-29T00:38:00.000-07:00

welcome to the Second Cold War, in which Russia teams up with Iran to take on the West. My prediction for the resulting Third World War: the US hits Iran because of their failure to comply with international sanctions and unending threats to destroy United Stages ally Israel, then Iranian ally Russia hits the US. I mentioned this to an Atheist last night, and he seemed doubtful, as though such a theory were not plausible. Is it only I who sees the correlation between the spirit of Communism as the same Anti-Christ spirit shared by radical Islamic Fascists and Atheists? I am often met with similar resistance when speaking to liberal pro-Hillary Clinton leftists, as she embodies the spirit of Communism in her own thwarted ideologies and proposed Democratic regime. You're probably wondering what I'm doing running around talking to Atheists, as I am often noticeably disturbed by the massive avalanche of anti-God rhetoric and misperception bombarding my bubble on a daily basis.

Earlier this week I met this Atheist man, a doctor who had traveled to San Diego from Perth Australia, for a medical conference and to visit family who was affected by the local wildfires. Because I am such an approachable and diverse individual, we instantly connected and began to engage in interesting global and cultural topics. I have to admit, I had heard of Perth, but had no idea where it was in Australia - turns out to be on the West Coast, similar to San Diego. After all, when do you ever hear about Australia in the international news - could they be Al-Qaeda's next Western target? Kangaroos, Koalas, Eucalyptus, and the Didgeridoo were the only Australia I knew. When I looked at the map, I noticed the lonely British-colonized island surrounded by water, seemingly separated from the rest of the world. A few other neighboring island civilizations such as New Zealand and Indonesia provide somewhat of a buffer from the Communist countries like China and North Korea (who may also aim at the US). Among our initial topics that night on the dance floor were Capoeira and our mixed nationalities. My quarter-Jewish heritage usually gets the Israel vs Middle East topic started, but his race sparked my political interest even more than captivation by his intriguing physical charm and dance moves. I've always been a sucker for international men, one sentence and I'm hooked.

He tried to make me guess his ethnicity, and when I couldn't quite pinpoint it, he told me he was half-Persian - Persia is the Biblical name for present day IRAN - as most of the Arab race does not prefer to identify with the Iranian regime and its petty and cruel dictator Ahmedinijad. While fascinated by the fact that I am studying Arabic, he claimed to not know any Farsii as he never really knew his Iranian father. His mother is Lithuanian I believe, and he and his twin brother were raised by her and his step-dad. When I examined the world map again, I found Lithuania to be located on the fringe of Communist Russia. I did remember this location as once I was attempting to buy a Global phone, and they wanted to give me an Estonian number which of course prompted me to find out more about that region. Upon further research I discovered that Lithuania was in fact a Communist country up until 1990 when it gained independence. It was the first Soviet republic to break away from the Communist regime, though Soviet forces unsuccessfully tried to suppress their secession. Lithuania did not join the European Union until 2004. Anyway this man grew up in Britain for the most part, his parents went to Italy, and he moved to Australia to start a family and a career, where he became an Atheist.

I could not dismiss what I had learned about his heritage during our intense interaction (which lasted throughout this past week), as he always referred to himself as Australian, having lived there 12 years. I have lived in San Diego 13 years, but I am of mixed European descent and Jewish heritage on my dad's side, and having lived in Israel this past year I have come to understand the importance of this... where you lay your head may not be your HOME. The most interesting part for me, being a Christian by faith, was interacting with a self-professing Atheist in addition to the ethnic dilemma of our underlying Jew vs Arab roots. The second day I knew him we connected on so many levels, intellectual, cultural, physical (we trained Capoeira together and discussed fitness), historical, and spiritual. An immeasurably intense conversation regarding Creation vs evolution with his Atheist scientist mind and biology PhD up against me, a Christian-schooled American Communication scholar with first-hand Middle East cultural experience, heavy on the political-cultural analysis. I had never experienced another person quite on this level, and the more time we spent together the intensity grew - to the point of becoming heavier on me as the week progressed.

Ultimately our engagement was diverted by outside influences and geographic factors, but I have proceeded to assess this relationship for what it really was - not the mere physical attraction that drew us together initially. It all comes back to core beliefs and your own DNA, the undeniable life blood inside every human being created by none other than the Lord God Almighty. Coded into our divinely-constructed biological beings is the Free Will to make decisions for our own lives, whom we choose to spend time with and what path we will chose, whether marriage, children, career, etc. I believe God allowed me to go through this scenario (all facets of it) taking place while OUR little world (San Diego) was on fire - to bring me back to the reality of the inherent evil forces present throughout the world we live in. Atheists and Communists, Muslims and Liberals, all resisting the One True God, with the same HEAVY Anti-Christ spirit. Intense energy and supernatural fire was ablaze in the air this week affecting many people's lives, with the intense Scorpio full moon in the sky to set the Cold War mood.

world on fire II

2007-10-26T23:24:00.000-07:00

In a previous blog entry entitled world on fire, I discussed the fires which ravaged through southern Greece just after I had visited the country. Upon my arrival into the US I returned to San Diego, only to witness a similar national disaster here in America's Finest City - devastation on the level of Hurricane Katrina. For about the past 5 days, San Diego County has been ablaze, with more than 8 different fires burning in the region, destroying a number of homes and acres of property. I was supposed to be in New York last weekend and early this week, but a few friends talked me out of going... had I gone, I may have missed out on some of the action here! As I am just staying in San Diego temporarily, while I finished my research and to catch up with friends here, I'm glad I was here to witness this historic event.

During the San Diego Wildfires of 2003, approximately 50,000 people were evacuated, but this time the fires ravaged more of the county and more than 500,000 people were evacuated. In a previous blog entry entitled the left coast, I mentioned some of the inherent perils for a Godless society like what I've been subjected to here in San Diego. While I indeed have compassion for my friends (whatever lifestyle they choose) and even those people who I don't know personally that have lost their homes, I see an undeniable parallel between a society filled with sin and debauchery and the resulting wrath of God. My friend Lyle posted a blog likening this catastrophic event to an Old Testament style wake-up call. I forwarded his post and took all kinds of crap from people who I thought were my friends. However the inherent pitfalls of a liberal society lend to a masking of morality to the point which when mentioned drive people to criticism of sound judgement and Godly values.

A few weeks ago, San Diego's Republican Mayor Jerry Sanders reversed the laws against homosexuality and gay marriage, because he found out his daughter was a lesbian. About a week later, California's Republican Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger passed a ruling to take the words Mom and Dad out of school curriculums in order to be more compassionate towards gay couples raising children. A local Christian University which I formerly taught at also practices acts of acceptance of gay "Christians" into their university, though the Bible strictly warns against it (yes I no longer work there due to conflicting realities). I am curious at what point such right-wingers have become so liberal, it seems to be a result of our ever-evolving societal self-destruction. So with my own conservative Christian ideology I vocalized the premise that the San Diego Wildfires (and in other parts of Southern California) erupting just a few days after Governor Schwartzenegger's ruling were a direct result of the region's embrace of homosexuality as the norm. In times of tragedy, people cry out to God - "where is God in all of this?" or "why would God allow such a disaster to occur?" If your city is burning down, you have to look at the big picture, just as in Greece. Blame it on the Santa Ana winds, God is an awesome God, and he wants the people's hearts to turn back to Him, Creator of the Universe.

love and war

2007-10-19T14:07:00.001-07:00

There are a lot of people in the world who would LIKE to be married, like myself for example. However when you have a full-time job this status can be challenging, especially when your job is to run a country. Just announced yesterday in the media, French President Nicolas Sarkozy is divorcing his wife Cecilia, a mutual split undoubtedly due to his changing persona. A few months before the French elections, I told my mom I believed Sarkozy would become the Anti-Christ, due in part to his political fervor, rapid rise to power, and Jewish roots. She informed me that based on her study of end-times Biblical prophecy, that the Anti-Christ is not married, so that would rule out my theory completely. Yet about 9 months later the script has flipped, and the international scene is unfolding to reveal the major players in the Global Game of Love and War. Nic's rise to power has not ceased, and he continues to purge forward to lead the EU and soon possibly the world, as countries and regions merge closer to a one-world government.

Also up to bat this week (not related to the Diamondbacks being swept out of the MLB playoffs) was a timely visit to Tehran by another hidden player, Vladimir Putin, President (soon to be Prime Minister) of Russia. In order to quell the threats of his assassination, Putin put in his request for Russia to remain a superpower of Cold War proportions, at any cost. Since Russia is the primary supplier of nuclear technology and weapons to the Islamic Republic of Iran, their alliance has never really been a secret but is now much more clearly pronounced. The Persian Prince, sweet-talking Ahmedinijad now has Putin programmed to spout out the same nonsensical yet threatening anti-western rhetoric that he himself has endlessly employed throughout his quest for global jihad. Let us analyze their objective - the US must pull out of Iraq soon, so that Iran can take it over and create an extension of their own Shiite Islamic regime, more savage than the present state of the Babylonian capital. Who will rise to power in this region and rule this ravaged landscape - and will the new alliance's nuclear arsenal contribute to the carnage, or bring peace to the world?

Ultimately, we must examine some of the accepted political practices of the West in order to understand why the Anti-Islamic regimes are so opposed to our Democratic paradigm. Regardless of race or religion, everybody loves women... but not women in POWER. Nancy Pelosi's new war in Turkey and Northern Iraq is just one example of a compassionate hand in the honey pot, or too many cooks in the kitchen. Not that Grandmother Nancy can't cook, quite the contrary I'm sure, she would do better if she stayed in her own kitchen, literally in her house and stayed out of the public, let alone in politics (topic for a future blog). Islam's opposition to women in power (or women in public) is best evidenced this week by Al-Qaeda's attack in Pakistan in their attempt to assassinate ex-Prime Minister Benazir Bhutto. She was returning to her home in Pakistan but her convoy was attacked reportedly because of her support for the US War on Terror. Hundreds of people were killed, in the radical Islamic "conspiracy against democracy", condemned by President Pervez Musharraf as well as the White House. The US has it coming next, especially if Hillary continues her pursuit of the Presidency, she is already a target. Remember the saying, "all's fair in love and war."

al-Quds day

2007-10-12T12:50:00.001-07:00

the other night at a group sushi dinner outing, I met a couple of interesting people. One guy was a Muslim named Jesus, half Lebanese half Mexican. His friend was Jewish, half Syrian, but both were mainly American. The Jewish one understood my Hebrew, and the Muslim Jesus liked my necklace - a cross and a charm bearing the name of God in Arabic, Allah wa Ibn Allah (God and His Son) which I wear as a display of my own faith but also with the hopes of engaging in discussions of religion and Middle East politics. Of course we proceeded to do just that, but as usual, it was a game of "stump the Arabs". I asked Jesus, "so are you celebrating Ramadan?" He gave some lame excuse about his health as to why he couldn't fast, as I thought to myself "what a devout Muslim". I proceeded to inquire into his practices. "You know about al-Quds day on Friday, right?" He was stumped, so I informed him that it was a seemingly more Shiite celebration of the hopeful victory of the Muslims over Jerusalem, al-Quds being the Arab name for the Holy City. He claimed to be a Sunni Muslim and in general did not pay attention to the radicalization of the Islamic faith, the impression I got.

Every year on the last Friday of Ramadan (that's today) al-Quds day is celebrated not as a religious holiday in Islam but a political event, in which Anti-Zionist demonstrations are held, and thus observance is not obligatory in the Muslim faith. However, Muslims believe that Jerusalem belongs to them and not to the Jews, and al-Quds day is celebrated by Muslims not just in Palestine but throughout the world. The parade for liberation of Jerusalem and Palestine originated in Iran after the Iranian Revolution and celebrations erupt in each year in light of the Palestinian struggle. The observance was suggested by Ayatollah Khomeini, then Supreme Leader of Iran, in August of 1979, saying, "I invite Muslims all over the globe to consecrate the last Friday of the holy month of Ramadan as Jerusalem Day and to proclaim the international solidarity of Muslims in support of the legitimate rights of the Muslim people of Palestine."

If you are not Muslim, you probably think this blog entry does not relate to you, but let's look a little more closely to reaveal the apparent reality of the Islamofacist threat towards the West. "Death to Israel, Death to Britain, Death to America," are chants heard by the protesters, some of them wearing the black-and-white keffiyeh chequered headscarf of the Palestinians. A common mantra of the Imam is "If each Muslim were to pour out just one bucket of water, there would be a flood to wash away Zionism." This al-Quds day, radical Islamists have threatened to attack Israel and its allies (that would include the US). At a protest in London, Muslims marched through the streets demanding Israel's destruction.

According to an Israel National News report on 30 September, Iran has promised a devastating "final response" to supporters of the Jewish State on October 12, the Islamic Republic's Quds Day. "Supporters of the Zionist regime will receive their response during the world Quds Day's rallies" as suggested by Iranian government spokesman Gholam-Hossein Elham at a weekly press conference. "The US loses all opportunities to cooperate with regional and other world states by trying to support a regime (the Zionist regime) which is now at its weakest political and social position," Elham said. "Supporters of the Zionist regime will definitely receive the final response for their support on Quds day." This final Friday of the Holy month of Ramadan will serve as a determining time for the Palestinian people - will we witness victory of the Muslims over the infidels in some fashion? Even if they don't cut off the Western supply of oil right away, the solidarity of Muslims world-wide displayed by their anti-Zionist fanfare may lead to devastation in our society. I hope that doesnt mean no more sushi nights with the Arabs.

the left coast

2007-10-08T15:09:00.000-07:00

ahh... the unavoidable question: "where are you from?" I'm at the point where I don't know what to say anymore. My natural reaction over this past year has been "America", as most folks I encountered overseas didn't necessarily know where San Diego was. Sometimes I would add "Southern California" but that generally led to some confusion with Hollywood or Disneyland - right climate, wrong vibe - try Mexico border area. Since I've been back in America, its been so good to be back in my home country that I had not thought about this to the degree which would separate myself from fellow Americans. Until the past few weeks... as I've been considering moving back to the East Coast of the US. Truth be told, I was born in New Jersey, moved to Arizona when I was 4, grew up in Tempe, moved to San Diego for college when I was 17, and lived there for 11 years straight. Since then I lived in Phoenix for 2 years, back to San Diego for 2 more years, and to Israel and traveling for about the last year. So it was natural for me to gravitate back to San Diego - one would think.

When you live somewhere for 13 years, it is not your hometown, and you are there without any of your family, you may experience a values shift at some point. I can certainly call San Diego home - I know the city better than any other, have met hundreds of people over the years, and have acclimated to the weather more easily than anywhere else on the planet. I have had decent jobs on-and-off while I've been here, and an amazing cultural experience with all the various social groups and events I've been involved with, as San Diego is a very diverse American city. Yet after traveling around the world I realize that this wonderful place is just a little speck on the planet, the existence of which most of the rest of the world is not necessarily aware of. In addition, the Left Coast mentality does not match my own moral, ethical, and political preferences - and that's where reality sets in.

When you observe or attempt to engage in conversation with citizens of the Left Coast, you may perhaps identify a serious concern which likely emanates from the Hollywood sphere - wrought with Leftists, uneducated yet beautiful - thus such beauty can be deceptive to the glamour-driven society who idolizes them. This phenomenon is one of ignorance, in which their media-induced liberalism has taken over to the point of masking reality or anything which stems from the realm of fact. I hate to say that I cannot even relate to many of my friends anymore, and have been faced with the challenge of trying to find my REAL friends in this mass of perfect bodies. I hang out in the library, beloved corporate Starbucks, the gym, or at the beach and harbor to attempt to transcend this facet of tarnished American society, but maybe I just need another change of scenery as I did with my residence abroad. I've felt a draw to move back to the East Coast for the last several years, ever since visiting New York and New Jersey with my Dad in 2002. While I did not get accepted into my PhD program of choice in that region for this Fall, the Earth's gravitational force is indeed pulling me Eastward. At the very least, I will be visiting New York next weekend with my best friend.

As I move forward, the time has come to leave the Westward (backward) HOs to bask in the year-round sunshine (pro-choice STD fest) with their closed-minded liberal ignorance and party-harder-than your neighbor attitude. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE San Diego, and America's Finest City will always feel like home to me. After all, I "grew up" here, but sadly to say I've outgrown it. Thus as a token of my compassionate nature, I may leave behind for my dear friends a map of the world to include the aforementioned speck-of-the-planet marked with an X, and highlighted area of undeniable geo-seismic activity along none-other-than their beloved Left Coast.

hasten the madhi

2007-10-02T01:03:00.000-07:00

Since he took office as Iran’s President in 2005, Mahmoud Ahmedinejad has used his political status as a religious platform for radical Shiite Islam, and a means to express his extremist views. At that time, he predicted the end of the world would happen within 3 years, a phenomenon commonly speculated by Western religions as Armageddon. Interwoven into his anti-Western political rhetoric is extremist Islamic rhetoric regarding the coming of the Madhi, or Messiah, believed by radical Islam to be a sound Muslim ruler who will offer peace to the region. Ahmedinejad believes that he himself has been appointed by Allah to hasten the Madhi’s coming, and that during last year’s UN council meeting he even had a glowing aura about him, which caused the audience to hang on his every word and not even blink for about 20 minutes. He used to end his public speeches with rhetoric promoting Islamic extremism and hastening of the Madhi, but is now beginning his speeches with this banter, as evidenced in his address at Columbia University last week.

Ahmedinejad is known to be controversial even within his own country, and to the average listener, many of his claims do not seem to coincide with reality. Why would a world leader be lying about uranium enrichment and building a nuclear weapon for PEACEFUL purposes? The technology has emerged and is being distributed to the people who can make it happen, within this destructive alliance of Iran and Russia. Iran, a state sponsor of terrorism has been getting numerous weapons from Russia, and even giving them to its neighbor Syria, who passes them along to Hezbollah, one of the most radical Islamic terrorist groups insistent on destroying Israel. There are now so many Russian Jews in Israel, particularly in the Negev, adjacent to the Islamist Enclave of Gaza. It is no coincidence that the Islamic terrorist group Hamas also has plans to destroy Israel. And Al-Qaeda, the very group which declared Islamic Jihad on the US in 2001, has just declared the same upon Pakistan, destroying statues of their god Buddha, a religious philosophy which conflicts with Islam.

Shortly after his visit to the US, Ahmedinejad and the Iranian parliament declared the US Army and the CIA to be terrorist organizations. According to IRAN’s state-run news agency, the Iranian parliament has reported them to have “trained terrorists and supported terrorism, and they themselves are terrorists.” They mention US involvement in Iraq and Afghanistan, as well as attacks by the US on other countries which took place during WWII, and the US support of Israel. These Iranian claims would allude to a basic knowledge of world history, which Ahmedinejad himself lacks, as he denies that one of the most devastating events in history even took place - the Holocaust. His tendency to mask the truth combined with his frequent denial of such significant historical events yields a growing concern regarding his capabilities in leadership of a country. Hasten the Madhi, the end is near.

sources: cnn, aljazeera, joel rosenberg

dumb and dumber

2007-09-24T23:52:00.000-07:00

When I heard Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmedinejad would be visiting New York for the UN General Assembly meeting and wanted to cruise around the city to check out Ground Zero, I was appalled, as were most Americans. To my surprise, even the liberals were with me on this one, including Hillary Clinton and other Democratic officials. When it was announced last week that he would NOT be permitted to visit Ground Zero I was relieved, as it would not make sense for the leader of a terrorist-supporting nation to visit a site devastated by the very terrorism he promotes. Faith in my country restored as WE the Nation stand up to the radical Islamic Facists from the notorious Axis of Evil.

Being immersed in academe for the past several years, I am fully aware of the liberalist environment that it is. Thus after being banned from Ground Zero, Ahmedinejad cooed his way into Columbia University, but with open arms - a shock to many. What have these liberal institutions come to accept as the norm for politically educating one's student body, in the definition of academic freedom? To my surprise, Columbia University's President Lee Bollinger invited AJ to the forum - not to speak, but to be spoken TO, rather bastardized in a public meeting, during which he was their helpless, hopeless, prisoner. What I would have given to be in attendance at that meeting - a paramount event within my discipline - even as a fly on the wall.

Bollinger began the introduction of AJ as a blatant slam to his work as a World Leader (a petty and cruel dictator) and the Islamic Republic of Iran as the most backwards nation (producing uranium for peaceful purposes). Furthermore those present at the forum were reassured that AJ does in fact repeatedly deny the occurrence of historical events such as the Holocaust, or their validity in the academic and political sphere (with no justification or backing of his claims). As if anyone needed to do further research on perhaps the most devastating event in history or justify the already-been-voted-on (see UN vote of 1947) right to exist for the Jewish nation. Just when We the People of the universally deranged mentality thought it could not get any worse, this episode of Dumb and Dumber was injected with a dose of "freedom of speech". One liberal student asked about his support or opposition to homosexuality, in terms of national persecution. AJ responded "We don't have homosexuals" in Iran. "I don't know who told you we had it."

The best part of this Showcase Showdown was that AJ was positioned against a black backdrop - PhotoShop users let us now praise the Magic Wand tool - time for the photoOpp at Ground Zero, or where ever I may decide you belong, you ridiculous fool. Monkeys who keep their head inside their a** and cannot even READ a history book belong in the ZOO, not ruling a COUNTRY. May Peace prevail in the Cold War II, as the US will soon strike a pathetic country whose own leader lives inside a chemically-altered bubble, or a series of lies, a life philosophy common among the entire Arab race.

global unification

2007-09-14T17:44:00.000-07:00

Up until a few years ago, I had only traveled throughout America, Canada, and Mexico, though extensively (as well as a month Brazil in 2002). We will henceforth refer to the three aforementioned countries as Camerico = Canada + America + Mexico, as they are soon to merge into one unified country. If you were not aware of this upcoming international governmental decision, it should make sense now why the US has not cracked down on its illegal immigration. The number of Mexicans sneaking across the border to obtain US jobs is growing on a daily basis, thus creating an interesting socio-economic situation in the region. Likewise, American students sneak across the border to bypass the legal drinking age (its 21 in the US but only 19 in Canada, and 18 in MX). Border checkpoints appear to have enforced stricter crossing allowances, requiring a passport in most cases now instead of a simple ID or birth certificate. Canadians frequently deny any association with America, and any propositions regarding this upcoming 3-country merger, although if it weren't for America, they would not be similar in so many ways. Overall it seems that illegal immigration is at an all-time high, and many people wonder why the US Government is not doing anything about it. Some of these people (as if they can somehow influence US policymakers) believe the US border war is more important than the War in Iraq, likely because they are looking through a narrow lens, too miniscule to focus.

Beginning in 2005, I started traveling more away from the continent, to parts of the Caribbean, Europe, and the Middle East. The first time I left I nearly hated America, and tried to leave as much of my American identity behind as to not be roaming around freely with a big target on my back. I thought everyone hated America, so I tried to open myself to this mentality, but I found it to not necessarily be true in all cases. What I discovered is that most people are striving for a common understanding, and it all boils down to cultural perception. Education and morality contribute to these created paradigms, as do religion, mainstream media coverage and basic people smarts. For example, the people who do not understand the War in Iraq (or America's presence there) are likely the same people who do not fully understand Islam and the Arab culture, having not experienced it first-hand. It is also possible that they are unaware of the troops from many other countries besides the US who are also there participating in this war - but they only hear what they want to hear, and as a result George Bush becomes the global punching bag.

Not long ago, the EU (unification of several adjacent countries, like Camerico) adopted one unified currency as their standard with the Euro, rather than different currencies for each France, Germany, and so forth. Can you imagine one currency for the entire world? What about one religion, such as Islam? This is not far off. French President Nicolas Sarkozy has proposed a unification of Mediterranean countries which would undoubtedly be next to adopt the Euro. They would also adopt the EU's foreign policy best practices, and this would give a sense of unification in the region without allowing Turkey to join the EU. So, in general, it really doesn't matter what opinions we as citizens of the world have towards the other countries in the world, because the future is inevitable. We will soon become 10 unified nations, and must love (or destroy?) our neighbors. One thing is for certain, having an open mind and clear understanding about countries other than our own (and including our own), and accepting the fact that we cannot change our governments (or those of other countries) is the first step to a sound perception of global unification.

remember 911

2007-09-11T13:07:00.000-07:00

do you remember where you were and what you were doing on Sept 11, 2001? I remember. I was living in a studio in Banker's Hill at the time, and my mom called me at like 7am to tell me this crazy news. She said someone had hijacked 2 airplanes and flown them into the world trade center twin towers, killing hundreds of people. I had never been to New York (I went the following year), so I had no idea where that was, but it sounded pretty crazy. I did not understand WHO would do such a thing, nor could I conceive of such a horrible form of murder (abortion is bad enough). How could anyone HATE AMERICA, what did WE ever do? I had no knowledge of Islam or where these people got off committing such a crime against humanity.

I also had NO knowledge of world affairs at that point in my life - I didn't even watch the LOCAL news for that matter. However, I was really into World Music and Capoeira, preparing for a trip to Brazil a few months later. I was teaching computer classes at the local community college, riding my bike everywhere because I had recently sold my Infiniti QX4 to get out of debt, and that was my life at the time. I remember walking over to Union Bank on 4th and Laurel to watch their TVs so I could see a visual of the catastrophe. Upon seeing this, I attempted to fiddle with my TV which barely worked, just so I could follow the story, and the circumstances surrounding it to which I was oblivious.

somehow my mom convinced me to start going back to church... she said this radical event of 911 marked that the end times are coming, and I should prepare my heart before God. I kind of thought she was preaching, but a friend from Capoeira actually invited me to church around that same time. After all I was raised in the church, and had become complacent about my own beliefs and careless about my lifestyle. Also within that next year my mom convinced me to move back to Phoenix so i would not be in San Diego all alone without any family.

I have come a long way since Sept 11, 2001, and 6 years later now I fully understand what happened and why. the sad part is that most Americans still DO NOT, and buy into all sorts of anti-Government conspiracy theories which are simply not true (thus dividing our country even more in its ethics and values). It took me going over to the Middle East, learning their culture and language, and encountering these people first-hand to gain a clearer understanding of the reality we are faced with. They are not becoming any less of a threat, in fact, their brilliance combined with our ignorance is a hazard to humanity.

feel free to post your thoughts on the comments if you agree, or just take some time today to reflect on your life, and where you were on 911. We have a lot to be thankful for, and its easy to take our freedoms for granted.

islamist enclave

2007-09-03T13:17:00.000-07:00

most of the Americans I've encountered within the last few months have little to no idea where Gaza is, or who Hamas is for that matter. I try to explain where I was living in Israel for 9 months, in the Negev Desert about 6 miles from Palestinian territory, the West Bank on one side and the Gaza strip on the other. This begin to register when one looks at a map of the region, but without understanding the history, politics and religion in the area, its still foggier than a San Francisco morning. This is one reason I chose to pursue an MA in Middle East Studies, based on the ignorance of the majority of Americans and in satisfying my own curiosity. Not only is the pursuit of this knowledge culturally awakening, this is the most important region of the world today.

In June 2007 (a few weeks before I left Israel), the Islamist terrorist group HAMAS took over the Gaza Strip by militant force. This is a group which to the public has positioned themselves as an asset to Palestinian society, building schools, community programs, and winning a spot in the Palestinian Government with the election of Ismail Haniya as Palestinian Prime Minister in 2006. His involvement in the higher ranks of the PA official government was short-lived however, as his terrorist ways were displayed even while he was in office. He was arrested and jailed several times for his involvement in radical islamist movements, and was even banned from Palestinian territory - Israeli officials would not let him pass through the Rafah border crossing last year, so he was stuck in Egypt for a while.

Thus it should come as no surprise that Haniya and his masked men were able to pull off the takeover of Gaza, ousting the Fatah (the more contemporary political faction of the PA government) from the territory and banishing them to the West Bank. There Palestinian President Mahmoud Abbas was forced to create an emergency cabinet to replace Hamas members such as Haniya, thereby denying the terrorist group any future involvement with the Palestinian Authority Government. Suddenly, the international community has come to the aid of the PA, since their renouncement of the terrorist group from their government. They claim that they will now recognize Israel as a State (which it coincidentally has been since 1948) and strive to work alongside her to create a peaceful and harmonious territorial division. Wait a minute, wasn't the land of Israel established as a national home FOR THE JEWS??? Who are these (masked and unmasked) Arab men, and where do they get off playing "this land is your land, this land is my land?"

Even if you've never heard of the terrorist group Hamas and their agenda to destroy Israel, perhaps a few other household names will ring a bell: Al-Qaeda and Osama Bin Laden, Hassan Nasrallah of Hezbollah, Mahmoud Ahmedinijad of Iran? It should come as no surprise that these Islamic terrorist groups are all working in conjunction with each other in their anti-Western campaigns and ultimate quest to destroy Israel. Each with a hand in the honey pot, precious water-front property of the Islamist Enclave of Gaza - technically a territory of none other than ISRAEL, the JEWISH state. While America is on the opposite side of the world and seemingly not phased by any of this (too many parties going on, which take priority over understanding such affairs of global magnitude), it may take another 911-type of catastrophe to rock our desensitized world.

world on fire

2007-08-26T13:42:00.000-07:00

On my way back to the US last month, I spent 6 days in the southern part of Greece. The country had been experiencing higher-than-average temperatures for several weeks prior to our arrival. A few weeks after returning to the US, the news reported stories of wildfires and accompanying record-setting heat waves. Now, fires are burning out of control throughout the country and historic sites are being threatened by the flames. Greece is in a state of emergency and the country is on fire. Greece is perhaps most known for its significance in ancient times - a place filled with legends and legacy - a plethora of Gods and Goddesses who each ruled their own respective facets of life on the earth, in the sea, and in the underworld. Yet the Bible teaches there is only ONE God, He who created the heavens and the earth: "ye shall have no other gods before me". Could it be that God is showing his wrath upon Greece, punishment for its years of tradition, mythology, and idolatry, with its preservation of historical sites designed to continually "honor" these gods of ancient times?

This weekend, I spent a few days in Las Vegas (aka "Sin City") with a few good friends. The purpose of the trip was to watch one of our favorite bands 311 play a live concert at the Palms. However any trip to Vegas is not complete without experiencing (or at least observing) the modern-day Sodom and Gomorrah lifestyle of pleasure and debauchery. America in and of itself has become a country that has turned its back on God, originally founded as "one nation under God, indivisible". We have our unlimited credit cards, endless forms of entertainment and pleasure, and powerful corporations who rule the country, thus there is no real need for GOD. We can do it ourselves, we are educated, successful, and confident, and most importantly we accept everyone despite their cultural differences or their distorted religious doctrines.

Vegas is perhaps the most extreme example of the American lifestyle of pleasure and entertainment - "gratifying the desires of the sinful nature" as per Biblical terminology. Unfortunately, this intense environment creates a worthwhile escape from many people's normal lives, providing the ability to "indulge" the senses in the carnal pleasures of the earthly realm. I have always equated Las Vegas to a debaucherous place and generally try to stay away as per my own ethical standards and religious beliefs, but a sore reminder serves a soul good - an example of how NOT to live your life.

After the wrath of God came upon the earth in the Old Testament in the form of a flood (see Noah's Ark story), He said he would never again destroy the earth by a flood. Yet the earth has experienced extreme weather conditions all over the world in the last several years, possibly as a warning or reminder that God is omnipresent and knows what the people are doing. God is behind the powerful forces of nature - they are NOT just random ecological phenomena resulting from global warming. Will he destroy the earth by FIRE, as punishment for our sinful lifestyles, void of God? Or will the radical Islamists pursue their quest for a one-world religion, which defies the teachings of the Bible and denies Jesus Christ as Savior and forgiver of our earthly sins? If entire countries are being punished for their sins, shouldn't we recognize the trend and get responsible for our OWN lifestyles? After all, nobody REALLY wants to see the world go up in flames.

food and freedom

2007-08-12T17:17:00.001-07:00

"Hey Nic, want to come over for lunch and a ride in my boat?" asked his friend George. "You bet, we should definitely catch up and talk about our amazing jobs, and what's been going on in the Middle East," replied Nic, who jumped on his private jet and flew to the Land of the Free. I'm always so excited when my favorite politicians make the headlines, and yesterday was no exception when Nicolas Sarkozy and George Bush had lunch together at his estate in Maine. Though halfway across the world from each other, the US and Europe share the blessings of freedom and all good things Western.

While the US and France have not always had the strongest of ties, last May's election of Conservative Nicolas Sarkozy was monumental in putting France back on the map as an active player in international politics. With an active political history and an aggressive forward agenda, Nic has been on pace to take over the world, with the help of the other Western powers. "France is friends with democracies, not with dictatorships," Sarkozy exclaimed to the media. As George and Nic engaged in their lunchtime talks, they realized they had lots in common where it really counts. "The good thing about President Sarkozy is you know where he stands. He can tell you exactly what he thinks. I hope he'd say the same thing about me," said George. Both men possess the confidence and positive outlook necessary to keep things rolling, and to stop the forces of evil from prevailing. On the table was prevention of Iran's pursuit of a nuclear (or as George says "nucular") weapon.

On a beautiful day for a boat ride, Nic and George took advantage of their freedom and spent quality time bonding. Talking politics can sometimes get a little unsettling, even when a good homecooked meal is involved. Nic admitted that even though they share a similar political stance on most issues, that "even in family, there are disagreements. But we are still the same family." Nic's pro-American and pro-Israel stance undoubtedly drives his eagerness to bond with George, his Western brother. This year marks the beginning of a "new era of relations with the French", according to White House spokesman Tony Snow. Let the good times roll, and enjoy our Western freedoms... indivisible, with liberty and justice for all!

fear of the other

2007-08-05T16:14:00.000-07:00

within the discipline of Middle East Studies, a phenomenon (or sub-discipline) known as Orientalism emerged in the late 70's. A Palestinian scholar by the name of Edward Said made great contributions to the discipline, to the point of questioning the legitimacy of the West's stark perpetual claims about the East. Thus many critics and scholars have debated his views expressed through his writings, though his position was indeed one of validity. Said is an example of a Palestinian Arab who CHOSE to leave the East and make a life for himself in the West. What he did from that point forward not only showed what kind of motivated educated person he was, but inspired others to explore his teachings and unconventional perspectives, the world of the other.

Shortly before I left for Israel, my friend Gage told me about a class he had taken in this discipline, and recommended I read Edward Said's popular book entitled "Orientalism". I skimmed a copy, which at the time overwhelmed me, but upon my arrival in Israel I enrolled in a course entitled "Orientalism and the Bible Lands: From Napoleon to Hollywood". I am now finishing my research for that course, which has really made me think about many global cultural issues in a different light than I may have otherwise. Consider what you know about the Middle East, and how much of it is based solely on what you've learned from the media, particularly Hollywood's over-romanticization of the East and the stereotypes it has created.

Throughout the school year, we read numerous excerpts from popular works of literature, travel writings by people who had visited the Middle East, and watched film clips from movies which typified (or stereotyped) the Orient. In addition, the course focused on the portrayal of "the Bible Lands" with a strong emphasis on Christianity, being the primary religion of the British "occupiers" or "owners" of the land. This in and of itself brought up interesting debates among students who were religious (or not so religious) Jews, myself being the token Christian in the group, and a handful of more secular students studying the Middle East or literature in general. I remember getting into an "argument" with a "Jewish" woman (claiming her Jewish roots though quite secular) about the legitimacy of Edward Said's writings. This discussion erupted after our reading of "Zionism from the Standpoint of its Victims" from Said's famous work "The Question of Palestine". Though I myself am very Pro-Israel, I raised the issue (as per Said's claims) of Zionism as terrorism (such as Menachem Begen episode, etc). The woman was appalled by my statements, and began yelling during our round-table discussion, going off about Edward Said having the gall to make such claims. I later noted that Said's legitimacy should not be questioned, though often candid and abrasive in his stance against Zionism, he had every right to publish such works, himself being more educated than anyone sitting in our classroom.

While I do not subscribe to all of Said's claims (and I was not necessarily arguing in favor of his stance), his writings are so heavily debated that they really make people think. I believe that so many people are so absorbed in their own viewpoints that they do not take the time to even listen to someone else's opinion. Granted there are a lot of distorted opinions out there, but a legitimate PhD scholar / professor / author / expert in his discipline such as Palestinian-born pro-Palestinian scholar Edward Said should be accepted as such, if not respected for his contribution to the discipline of Middle East Studies. I also think that people's fear of the other, and lack of knowledge about cultures other than their own, contribute a great deal to their perception of the world. Truthfully, I really admire Said for getting out of Palestine and traveling the world, exploring all it had to offer, and making a life for himself - ultimately settling in the West. We have the best opportunities for education and LIFE, better than (I hate to say it) parts of the East. What are you afraid of? Explore the world, academically or through other forms of cultural immersion, to gain a broader understanding of our diverse world.

the art of relationship

2007-07-31T14:34:00.000-07:00

its not uncommon for us as humans to assess what works and what doesn't work in a relationship, especially when the relationship is not our own. With friends and family as a steady influence in our lives, they can show us our true selves though often candidly, and are quick to point out our mistakes. While I have not been IN a "relationship" myself for a great many years, I have spent time not only observing others in their happiness (or unhappiness) but building my own database of conventional wisdom with unconventional style. What I've picked up on the most is that the suffering endured in many relationships is not actually caused by the relationship itself, but rather the attitudes, insecurity, and expectations of the people involved. Just the other day someone told me he didn't want to get into a relationship because he wanted to spend some time enjoying the things he likes to do, and being with friends and family. While overlooking the La Jolla coast at sunset with the sun beautifully reflecting on the water, I reflected on the nuances of his statement. This perspective is absolutely ridiculous, because you should be able to FULLY enjoy your life and being with your friends and family REGARDLESS of whether you are in a relationship. If you can't, your relationship is NOT HEALTHY. Nobody has the right to keep you from the people or things you enjoy - your friends don't do this, they respect you for who you are.

As a free-spirited Scorpio, independent, creative, spiritual, yet passionate, dedicated and understanding, I have the capacity to appreciate the beauty in each relationship I encounter. While many of these traits are innate, each person must also do their part to connect with their strengths and weaknesses, in order to find balance in all aspects of life. The downfall of being a strong Scorpio is that I crave perfection which can lead to disappointment (if expectations are present), and have likewise been accused of "thinking I know everything" - whether because of my intense personality or my two Master's Degrees. This is something God has been working with me on over the years, and I am so thankful that He has continued to humble me more and more each day, until I reach the place the place He wants me to be - His perfection, his perfect peace. I can go as far as saying that He literally took me out of my comfort zone (life as I knew it) and physically put me on the other side of the world in order that I might learn some valuable lessons about life.

while i was in Greece, I took some leisure time to read "The Mastery of Love" by Don Miguel Ruiz. It might sound cheesy, but pick up a copy and you'll see that what I'm talking about here is almost a no-brainer. I had read this book before, maybe 5 or 6 years ago thinking it would help me get over all the failed relationship attempts. After that time however I kept falling into the same patterns, like the same old crap only with different guys. About 2 years ago I decided to start practicing absinence, in correlation with my renewed faith and dedication to God, and of course in response to repeatedly failed relationship attempts. Since this time I have been able to focus on myself as an individual, reflecting on many areas of my life and how to improve them through a renewed thankful and positive attitude towards nearly everyone I encountered.

Regardless of whether you are in a relationship, you must never lose sight of yourself as an individual or stop doing the things you enjoy, that make you who you are. Likewise you must respect your partner (the same goes for friends and family) to allow them to continue to be themselves without constricting their lifestyles. Except of course if they are involved in anything illegal or leading to acts of infidelity, but this may also be a reflection of their dissatisfaction with your expectations. To try and change or control another person or project past relationship hurts onto them does not work, it only leads to more hurt. This is the key to mastering the art of relationship, and maintaining a healthy balanced life. Enter each new relationship with a positive attitude of appreciation and keep your communication open and honest, so as to not be haunted by past ghosts - that probably don't have anything to do with the new person anyway! We can only learn and become stronger from our past mistakes, and move forward in perfect peace towards a positive future. After all, you deserve the BEST, forget about the rest.

count down babylon

2007-07-25T13:32:00.000-07:00

what would you do if you found out that you only had 1 month left to live? After spending time with a friend who recently had someone close to him pass away, I have been absorbed in the simple task of embracing every minute of my own life. Does anyone know how long he or she has left on the earth? Granted, the cycle of life warrants that each day babies are born and each day people die, or are killed, in the natural processes thereof. The question remains whether or not we want to focus is on the past (which we cant change or dwell in), the needless cares of the material world (like buying cars, fashion, and real estate), situations that are out of our hands (like the distorted political views of Democrats), or to EMBRACE EVERY MINUTE OF THE PRESENT, with all of its amazing opportunities and beautiful experiences to be had?

Here in San Diego, I have been spending a lot of time in a small beach town called Ocean Beach and hanging out on its rocky cliffs. It is so much more chill and low-key than the larger more trendy tourist beaches of this beautiful region, and has such a small-town feel. I have also been listening to a lot of Reggae music and going to Reggae events (and dancing in general) with my good friend Irene, herself immersed in natural healing and cultural appreciation. Not only do nature and music give you amazing energy, the ability to center yourself and re-focus your life attention are unavoidable bi-products of such environments. In addition, time spent with friends as well as in centering fitness activities (where it is just you and the resistance of your body) such as yoga, capoeira, running, and swimming are amazing source of self-sustaining energy.

Besides its positive and ultimately calming vibrations, most Reggae music contains some pretty powerful lyrics which I dont think a lot of people REALLY think about. Many of the songs are about Jah (Rastafarian name for God), One Love, Peace and Positivity, Creation, and BABYLON. Granted many of these Rastafarians choose to focus on the prominent use of marijuana often associated with this genre of music (I myself do not use drugs though I definitely understand their culture), but by skipping the plant and boiling it down to the ROOTS you will see the inherent message behind the music. Babylon is in Mesopotamia, present day IRAQ. While I have never been to Iraq, I was in Jordan recently, Iraq's Hashemite neighbor. Not only did I study the Middle East (IN the Middle East), my Christian background gives me a more complete understanding of the significance of Babylon, which continues to be the center of the world.

In fact, everything else that is going on in the world (such as entertainment stars in rehab and interpersonal dramas among the citizens of America) is not nearly as important as these days in Iraq, and its strategical location in the End Times Prophecies. Throughout the Old Testament (or Torah for my Jewish friends) especially in the books of Ezekiel and Daniel, you will see Babylon mentioned several times. Most people do not understand what the War in Iraq is all about, but I will give you a hint that it has something to do with Biblical Prophecy (its a religious war, no?) and thus our days are numbered here on the earth. When the US troops pull out (ode to the Democrats), Prince Hassan Bin Talal of Jordan (Iraq's Hashemite neighbor) will rise up and rule the region. Count down Babylon, the end is near... ARE YOU ENJOYING EVERY MINUTE OF YOUR LIFE, living in the NOW, embracing each new day with positivity, and spreading light and love to those around you?

uninhibited

2007-07-21T19:11:00.000-07:00

Earlier this week I spent 48 hours straight at the beach with my best friend and her three children, ages 8 months, 5 and 8 years. Despite their frequent tantrums and outbursts into tears for no significant reason, their youthful vigor and purity created a pretty refreshing influence. Because children have not yet been tainted by the ills of society, their outlook on life is carefree and uninhibited. As we become older, our behaviors and attitudes are influenced by our surroundings, namely our classmates, friends, coworkers, and overall societal paradigm. In American culture, there are so many distractions and unhealthy influences which can easily inject corruption into the minds of youths during their ascent to adulthood.

While the baby was still grasping for his mother and filled with wide-eyed wonder every time I came near, and the oldest daughter was pretty confident in her own right, the middle daughter was the one who provided me with the most sincere fascination. During our daily walks along the boardwalk from the hotel to the beach, or the hotel to various shops and restaurants, this beautiful child made a habit of stopping every 10-20 yards along the way to investigate something. Although this delayed our arrival or added to the already reasonable trek distance, her enthusiasm for discovery became less of a nuisance and more joyful with its increased frequency. She would stop to look at plants, analyze people, or touch something unknown.

I began to join her on her quest for uninhibited adventure. One of her favorite people was a young man on a trick bike, doing spins and balance poses at the end of a cul-de-sac. We stood in amazement as we watched him "perform" for us for several minutes. She also took kindly to the bums with guitars, and each time she saw someone with a trick bike or a guitar she assumed they were the same as the previous person who had been doing the same, the day before or in a different spot. The most fun was when I decided to go into the ocean with the girls, after they were covered in sand from building various tunnels and castles. Pacific Beach seems to have the most seaweed of any beach I've visited in the world, so I decided to exhibit creativity in our adventure. After entering the salty sea, I found some seaweed which looked like a fashion belt. I wrapped it around my waistline several times, with an accent piece around my neck and ran around telling everyone on the beach that I was a mermaid. After I noticeably frightened some onlookers, I concluded that I was actually a monster rather than a mermaid! Titles aside, my uninhibited enjoyment of nature led to spontaneous costume-making and an exciting time with children and good pure fun. Since that day, I have incorporated some level of this inhibition into my regular interactions with friends and strangers alike, and has made for a pretty enjoyable outlook on life.

international players

2007-07-16T16:17:00.001-07:00

over the past week in San Diego, I've gone out dancing at a few Brazilian clubs with friends, like I used to many years ago. While I love the music and the culture overall, I was quickly reminded about why I stopped going out to clubs. The guys are SO forward and are only after one thing, which I am not at liberty to give, nor do I desire to operate this way. The word we use for such men who try to get busy with various women is a "player" regardless of country of origin. Even though these clubs are in San Diego, the international flavor displayed creates a feeling of being in the various countries, a generally favorable vibe.

While I don't prefer the player scene, my interest in International Players on the political scale is a bit more dominant. Are we witnessing the second Cold War, leading to World War 3? Where did sleeping dog Russia come from all of the sudden, in recent weeks? Withdrawing from EU arms treaties, defying the American presence in nuclear defense in the region, and Putin puttin up a big stink, like the big dogs do. North Korea shutting down their nuclear reactor, only in response to the possibility of the US lifting sanctions against the supposed terrorist sponsoring state? Japan's devastating quake disabling their nuclear plant, sitting upon 4 tectonic plates - will their neighbors come to their aid? Has the US pissed off China with its new Democratic attitude, Nancy Pelosi failing to renew our international trade agreement at the end of last month. This will hurt the US more than it will help our internal economy, as the International Players are playing for power in the world.

Will the countries that sponsor terrorism reach amicable agreements with the US and EU, or will Tony and George continue to fight for the freedoms we in the west deserve? Will the recognition of a Palestinian state and the release of prisoners - criminals - out on the loose bring a solid and lasting peace that the region has always hoped for? Will the defiance of Hamas against the West and its joining forces with Al-Qaeda make for a smoother segue to Camp David II? Is Osama Bin Laden REALLY hiding along the Afghanistan/Pakistan border as the media suspects, because if he was wouldn't that make his capture eminent? Will the upcoming war involve nuclear strategies by the International Players, or Arab mind games and technological warfare upon the security of the West? Where will you stand when the International Players bring destruction upon our world?

oceana pacifica

2007-07-12T16:26:00.000-07:00

in a recent blog, I mentioned 4 different seas i had visited within a one-week period. Let's add number 5, my very own Pacific Ocean. From a very young age, I visited the Pacific Ocean every year on vacations to San Diego with my family. When I became an adult (ok, age 17) I moved to San Diego because of my strong connection to the sea, and lived there for 13 years total. While there are so many beautiful bodies of water around the world, the Pacific Ocean has always been such an important powerful force in my life. Its magical magnetic energy brings healing, a special source of nature from God, His power transcending beyond our daily concerns and past hurts. The Pacific Ocean and the city of San Diego (known as America's Finest City) also provide for me a sense of peace, stability, and years of wonderful memories.

Since I've been back in San Diego for the past few days, I've realized in so many ways that there's no place like home. I thank God for bringing me back here safely, away from the Arab terror so rampant throughout Israel. I had the opportunity of a lifetime, I embraced it, I put my life on the line, and the very God of Israel who loved me so much to bring me to his Holy Land carried me home on his wings of safety. Being home and spending time with the people who have been with me over my lifetime has become the best part of my journey. Last night my friend Mark suggested I write a book about all my travels, and all the wonderful places and scenarios I have experienced. He felt that not only do I have the credentials to do so, that so many people who cannot travel internationally themselves would love to read about such exciting stories. My encouraging friends are such a blessing to me, and are a constant reflection of my own integrity, love, beauty, and worldly success.

This morning I swam in the Pacific Ocean, full of seaweed (so annoying but don't complain, that could be someone's meal), right off the Sunset Cliffs, so beautiful and amazing. The water was cold... though warm for San Diego, freezing compared to the Aegean and Mediterranean Seas! I was instantly reminded of the unique experience felt only in the Pacific, as much as I've enjoyed swimming in the beautiful seas of the world, especially partial to the Red Sea (as per previous blogs). Why would you stay in one part of the world your whole life if you could travel around the world and swim in its seas? Sometimes I feel sorry for those people in Israel who think that is the only country (er, its not even really a "country" per se) and they never leave because of some inherent cultural dramas. We live in a beautiful world and we need to embrace it as such, in its entirety. Skip the crime, skip the terror, skip the political debates, skip the conflicts, and skip a stone on the sea. Live your life and LOVE your life, and the important people who are special to you!

the russian pool

2007-07-08T21:40:00.000-07:00

at my gym in Israel, there are 2 pools, an indoor pool and an outdoor pool. The outdoor pool is a "see and be seen" pool, weather permitting. The water is full of sunscreen, Israeli college students in bikinis, children, and thus most likely urine. I liked that pool when they first opened it at the start of summer, but the aforementioned factors got to be a little much. The other pool is a year-round indoor heated pool, jam-packed with Russians. A term from freshman Economics comes to mind, "trade-offs". Despite my general tendencies for the outdoors, the indoor pool was often a more viable option. But therein lied the inherent issue of Dirty Old Russian Men with weight problems and staring problems. Though I tried to dress as conservatively as possible when entering the Russian Pool, the fascination with my ass knows no international boundaries. What other business would a Russian have with an American? I had to just concentrate on my swimming while looking straight ahead, feeling the many pairs of eyes upon me, with their wandering imaginations. Not the most comforting feeling, but temporary, and good discipline in building my mind over matter, grin and bear it.

Now imagine now a brand-new, beautiful, clean, series of pools, complete with jacuzzi and diving boards, a deluxe Aquaplex. Imagine further that this heavenly paradise exists in an exclusive membership-only environment, in an ideal outdoor setting with the most beautiful weather on the planet year-round. If this seems too good to be true, let your imagination wander even further, to a place where English is the only accepted language of fluency, and everyone in the vicinity has beautiful, perfect bodies. This is a real place, the SDSU Aquaplex in Sunny San Diego, an earthly reward for my having endured the Russian Pool from hell during the last 8 months.

As for Russia's relationship to the West, the contrast between communism and freedom has proven beastly over the years. The Beast from the East, threshing and threatening; the Best from the West, progressive and proud. Recent dilemmas regarding missile placement along the Russian borders has caused speculation about Russian involvement in World War III, and their loyalty to the Quartet. I often wonder about the thousands of Russian immigrant citizens in Israel, whether they will be part of the solution or the problem. The interrelated scenarios between Russian women and Bedouin men in the town of Beer Sheva are common and known. So there we have the Russian-Arab love affair which we may project onto the global political sphere. I hope the illustrations in this blog entry have provided you with an outlet for your cultural imagination, and you may consider these thoughts as relevant in the future.

greek speak

2007-07-06T05:12:00.000-07:00

have you heard the phrase "it's greek to me"? after spending 6 days in Greece, I was actually starting to get used to the language. I managed to learn a few words like "paragalo" (please) "efkarishto" (thank you), and "poligalo" (good). I even learned how to say "dhen ksero ellinika" (I dont speak Greek), so I could respond to people who came up to me speaking in Greek, like I did when I was in Germany (ich sprecha kein deutsch)! Fortunately, we stayed in many tourist areas during high travel season, so we were able to speak our native tongue with the locals. In this popular European vacation destination, English was the second language.

For me, one of the most interesting things about traveling (whether domestically or internationally) is observing the variance in languages or dialects. I had become so used to hearing Hebrew and Arabic everywhere I went, and even being able to understand most of what was being said after 8 months of living in Israel. Russian was also quite common in Beer Sheva where i studied as there were many Russian immigrants there. I found Greek to be most similar to Russian, in both its characterset and spoken sounds. While I felt the trip to Greece interrupted my Hebrew and Arabic flow, a few days in Europe always helps me clear my head and allows for a smoother transition to the impact of entering a completely different part of the world.

On the plane from Athens to Philadelphia (I got on after the third day of standby), the American flag logo of US Airways greeted me everywhere I looked, on the napkins, the screen in front of me, and on the soap dispensers in the onboard restrooms. After 5 months abroad I was finally going home, and this emblem of freedom and familiarity comforted me to the point of bringing tears to my eyes. The last time I returned home from abroad (after only 3 1/2 months) I felt a special connection to my land, I feeling I had never felt before, and I have carried it with me to this day. This time upon arriving in the US I did not feel the same riveting force of nostalgia, but was overwhelmed with the sense of familiarity which America brought to my immediate observation. The first thing I noticed - and soaked in completely - was being able to listen to people speaking fluent English. Granted many of the people around the world speak SOME brand of English (generally jacked-up), but this was MY English, AMERICAN English, the same dialects, nuances, and culturally-embedded phraseology. I embraced these moments in the Philadelphia airport of merely sitting and listening to people speak - in English, American English. I also reactivated my American cell phone and called as many people as I could get a hold of. This was the most amazing part of returning home, to the most wonderful country in the world, the United States of America.

Since I left the US last October, a life-changing series of events have occurred to create in me not only a sense of patriotism, but a sense of urgency to understand the truths about global affairs. I will admit that I really didn't know anything about the Middle East (besides the music) and I thought that since it didnt affect me DIRECTLY that I should not care. I sought to discover what was really going on, and how the US IS IN FACT AFFECTED more than we realize. Last night a friend wanted to hear my story about the terrorists that I met (and was terrorized by) while in Israel. Before I could even begin my story, she started rambling about the US troops in Iraq, and how the US were occupiers, murdering civilians, etc. I could not believe my ears and immediately began defending the US strategical position and that they weren't even the only troops over there, but that those were the lies she was being fed through the American society. I also told her that I would not continue to have such a conversation with her until she went to the Middle East, found out the truth for herself, and then came back and I would talk to her. She didn't seem to get it. It was as if I was speaking Greek to her. I wasn't even able to tell my terrorist story without an element of tension because I had been sidetracked by this frustration. While I'm happily around native American English speakers again, I need to be a little more selective about with whom I have conversations. Otherwise I will need to excuse myself and say "slikha, ani lo medaberit anglit" (Hebrew for "sorry, I don't speak English"). Learn the facts, or everything will sound like Greek Speak.

world hold on

2007-07-01T23:41:00.000-07:00

flying standby internationally and being bumped off 2 flights can be fun - especially when you're stuck in Greece! I had the option to fly to any other EU destination for 200 euro and try my luck getting back to the US from there, but why would anyone do that if they could relax on the beautiful beaches of the Aegean Sea for an extra day? I decided to return to the quaint yet modern inn hotel my mother and I stayed in the night before, in the Greek coastal city of Artemis. In Greece for 5 days with no phone and limited internet, its been amazingly relaxing - I could get used to this! The best part besides being coastal is that I'm in Europe, it feels so good to be back here and using Euros again, and surprisingly seems very European minus the non-western character set, and despite the pockets of unique local culture. World Hold On - I'm on my way!

Yesterday my mom and I rode the bus down to the shore, and spent time on a small beach, reminiscent of the local beaches throughout Brazil. We ate Greek salads and fresh fish with oil and lemon as we watched the sunset and basked in the breeze along the beautiful coast. Today I returned to the sea, but rode a bus through the town and to a different beach, much larger and much more populated. Nearly every sandy stretch was lined with palapa-style umbrellas, each area a private bar or restaurant. As I walked towards the end of the crowded strand deciding which one to plant myself at, I heard one of my favorite songs, World Hold On by Bob Sinclair. They were playing house music, and the people there had a good vibe, many around my age (late 20's early 30's, although I'm horrible at telling people's ages). I spent a few hours there, enjoying the Aegean Sea and its environment, swimming, sunning, reading, talking to a few people, and listening to European house music, which I absolutely love!

Even though I have been traveling with my mom for about the last 10 days and playing tourist, art historian, and Biblical scholar, I have spent a lot of personal time reading and reflecting. From the lyrics of the song World Hold On, "Open up your heart, what do you feel? Look inside you'll find a deeper love, the kind that only comes from high above. If you ever meet your inner child don't cry, tell them everything is gonna be alright. World hold on, instead of messing with the future, open up inside. Everybody in the world, love, peace for everyone" This song is about soul-searching, and being grounded in yourself, in your own personal truth - to the extent that the ridiculousness of this world should hold less weight than the deeper love which can be found within yourself and from God. This theme is echoed in the New Testament, as well as in a book I am reading right now called "The Mastery of Love: A Practical Guide to the Art of Relationship" by Don Miguel Ruiz. I've read it before, but its truths merit repetition, so essential for any person regardless of their relationship status. It's about loving yourself and finding peace within, regardless of how people treat you, abuse you, project their problems onto you, and generate negativity around you.

In addition to my own personal inner quest, I have tried to check the international news online every chance I have had while traveling. World Hold On, things are changing FAST in the global sphere and we have even more excitement on the horizon. Keep your eye on international trade, especially the USA's relationship with China. And don't be surprised if China cuts the US off soon because of its inconsistent political stance on global affairs - as per Nancy Pelosi who thinks she runs the country. She refused to sign an agreement which expired last night (June 30 2007) that would allow the US to continue its international trade and commerce with other countries. She thought that by not signing/renewing the agreement, people in America would somehow have better lives. Whether you are in America, Greece, or China, YOUR world and your life will be what you make it. Be aware of the world around you and the ignorant people's influence, but take care of yourself and your inner child no matter what.

get sea serious

2007-06-28T11:36:00.001-07:00

I am water - the ebb and flow of a Scorpio - shifting, changing roaring yet calm, tranquil and serene. Over the last 3 days, I have been to 4 different seas - that's serious! The warm and salty Dead Sea, the lowest point on Earth, between the Negev and Jordan. The majestic Sea of Galilee in the Northern Tiberias/Golan Heights region of Israel, views from the Mount of Beatitudes. The Mediterranean sea, amazing views from the rocky cliffs of Haifa, swimming in the sea at sunset off the shore of Tel Aviv. Now in Greece, the Aegean Sea's coastal beauty and small Brazil-like beaches. Yesterday we drove along the coastal road beyond the outskirts of Athens, past the wonderful beaches and on to Cape Sounion. There we visited the ruins of the Ancient Temple of Poseidon, with a breathtaking view of the Aegean Sea.

Today a full-day water tour of the Aegean Islands, aboard a small cruise ship. I have not been on a cruise in 2 years, although I often enjoy going out to sea with friends on a regular basis. This one-day tour with its three excursions was reminiscent of the Caribbean cruise. Our first stop was Poros, we were there for enough time to do a bit of shopping, climb to the top of the clock tower and see the beautiful view and foliage similar to Southern California or Mexico. The next stop was Hydra, a quaint shopping area with donkeys to ride, the island has no vehicles, only marble-carved cobblestone walkways. Yet the beauty of the clear blue-green sea and rocky shoreline made for a wonderful afternoon of sun and swimming. The last stop was Aegina, where we took a tour of the entire island via bus. The pistachio farms and Greek Orthodox churches, as well as the scrumptious seafood and local Greek wares made Aegina an enjoyable island stop.

When you put yourself in the middle of the sea, you experience a feeling of tranquility so vast that you become engulfed by the biggest force in all of nature -water- in any Ocean. Every time I am in the sea, I feel a calm yet commanding clarity creating confidence within my being. Its a reminder that its time to get serious, about my life and about the world as a whole. I cant keep feeling sorry for those who choose to live in a little bubble, try to rescue them or even change them. The opportunity is mine to embrace, and I've been inspired by nature's vast wonders and the fire within. Yesterday Tony Blair was named Middle East Envoy - a new role created per the needs of the World. I saw the same fire within him that I've seen in Nicolas Sarkozy, and I want to be a part of it. Its time to get sea serious, my inspiration, the world. I'm ready to join my boys, Tony and Nic, as we drive with vigor against the terror that envelops the Middle East.

driving in israel

2007-06-23T02:43:00.000-07:00

for the past 8 months that I've been living in Israel, I have relied on public transportation. Yesterday however, I acquired a rental car in anticipation of my mom's arrival to Israel for her visit. Early this morning I drove to the airport on my own private highway in the fog, blaring Nelly Furtado on the CD player, it was dark and it was Shabbat. This scenario was somewhat reminiscent of driving in the fog in San Diego, as the weather in Tel Aviv can be likened to that of America's Finest City. The last time I had driven at all was back in early February in my super rental SUV in San Diego. Driving always provides me with the necessary personal time to think, reflect and project - on my life and the various nuances thereof.

As much as I love driving, riding trains and busses in Israel has really given me a different perspective of the country than if I had relied on people with cars or had my own vehicle. Early in the school year I had made friends with an Arab man with a car for the convenience factor, only to find that he had a different agenda in his relationship with me. Fortunately I've had a few other friends with cars who have given me rides as needed, but my bus pass has been just as important as my student ID as a resident of Beer Sheva.

One thing that makes the public transportation experience so unique is the presence of the Israeli Defense Force - your ride is not complete without members of the IDF. Often times when boarding a train or Egged bus (between cities) at least half the train will be filled with IDF soldiers! This used to really bother me, and sometimes freak me out as they walk around with their guns like it is nothing. First of all, service in the IDF is required for all Israeli citizens, male or female, directly after high school for about three years. So they are all really young, the age range which I consider to be impressionable yet naive - at least I was ;) I am accustomed to people of this age to be university students, so its strange for me that all the undergrad university students are actually somewhere in the neighborhood of 24-28 after their service, rather than 18-21 like in the US.

Secondly, the presence of the IDF on the trains means the absence of Arabs. Until the other day, I never made the connection as to why I would hardly ever see any Arabs on the bus. It used to make me mad, as I have generally been fond of Arabs - I study them and their culture with my MA in Middle East Studies, and their coexistence among Jews here in Israel has always interested me. However now that I know how shady Arabs can be, and that they all seem to know each other and cover for each other, it makes perfect sense. It's like a light bulb went on and it took me a whole 8 months of living here and riding around on busses and trains to figure it out. The nice thing about being Pro-Israel is that I am now very Pro-IDF. After all, these young ones are not only the future of Israel, they Protect and Serve with vigilance and dominance to make any Arab heed to their presence. I feel safe here, and its been handy to even have a few friends in the IDF.

tony and nic

2007-06-19T16:35:00.000-07:00

if you've been following my blog over the last several months, you know how i feel about Nicolas Sarkozy. For quite some time before he was elected to the French Presidency, I became familiar with his profile, and watched eagerly as the events unfolded to put him where he is today. In other words, I knew who he was, and I knew he would take the cake. You could call me a fan - yes - aggressive is good. I am proud to say I was one of the first 30 friends in his official MySpace, which now has over 4000 friends (of course he is in my top 24, with the UN). I share his vision for a unified Europe and Mediterranean, and Global economic solidarity backed by the strength of the Euro. I also share his support for Tony Blair, if not for the leader of the World Bank, then for the President of the EU as they forge ahead together.

Tony will end his term as the UK's Prime Minister on 27 June. This week's meeting of the EU leaders should determine the next big move for the big T. I'm so deeply engrossed in all of the extreme political changes that are taking place in the world right now. Forget about Barack and Hillary, they still have another year. We are living in the here and now, the exciting month of June 2007, which has clearly been a pivotal time hinged upon the last several months of foreplay. International aid to the Palestinian Government - who'd have thought? Hamas revealing themselves for the EVIL DEMONS that they are, taking over an entire region (beach front property for the green and black). Lebanon might as well be declared a terrorist state if not a state of emergency. Russia on the move, North Korea testing missiles, and AJ the monkey conspiring crazier than ever before, to which supporting terrorist group should he give his uranium jewels?

All of this moving and shaking had better wake the general public up out of their tiny little bubbles. I have not yet seen it, not even around here. Gaza is just a few miles away, firing qassams into the Negev and it doesn't even phase anyone. Terrorist Muslims (who hide behind their religion) are even roaming around my university with Israeli IDs. People chime, "stuff like that goes on all the time". Yeah you know, masked terrorists take over entire regions and the International community gives aid to Palestinians, the usual. Aggressive European politicians forge ahead in an attempt to increase strength among an already solid union, and how. Keeping up with the boys, Tony and Nic... George and Condi keeping it real... everybody who's anybody knows its all about the New World Order, and Israel is the Center of the World. Let's get aggressive, EU style, and show these terrorists how the West is One.

haniya week

2007-06-16T11:30:00.000-07:00

everybody's heard of Ismail Haniya, leader of Hamas, especially with the ongoing clashes between Hamas and Fatah all this week in our lovely nearby Gaza neighborhood. What anyone would give to meet the families of these famous terrorists, to find out what they are really like. I had just this sort of opportunity this past week as I am studying Islam and Middle East politics, here in the Holy Land. Coincidentally the Man of My Dreams has the same last name as the popular terrorist, Haniya. My initial concern was that they may be related, but i immediately dismissed it because of my deep longing for him, thinking it was probably a common Arab name. But it turns out his father is a famous Muslim Sheikh, Sheikh Kamal Haniya, whose brother is married to Ismail Haniya's sister. I found this out only through a wild series of exhilarating events which basically equated to jumping into a frying pan.

With my nose for research, and my passion for gorgeous 23-year-old Arab men, my dad instructed me "go and meet his family, and talk to his father" as the only legitimate way to know if I really wanted to marry this guy. I did a search last Sunday 10 June, and found this article on Kamal Haniya, Sheikh and natural healer, who is also known as a mediator or counselor, and his work with casting out Demons. Coincidentally, the article was written by someone with the last name Berman (my last name is Birman). I knew it was a sign from God and I started fasting, drinking water only for this entire week. I was dumbfounded by the article, thought him to be an amazing man, and set out to meet him at once. The next day I asked my professor if he knew him - he didn't but he connected me with someone who knew his oldest son. He set up an appointment for me to meet with his father the following evening, but told me I needed to bring a translator with me. A few minutes later one of my Arab friends appeared and volunteered to be the translator. It was on. I spent the following day in prayer and meditation as I continued my fast in anticipation of the meeting.

My translator and I rode in a taxi to the Bedouin village of Tel Sheva, where Sheikh Haniya and his family of 15 children live. I was prepared to tell my elaborate story of how I believed a certain evil Bedouin with a police record was possessed by demons and projecting them onto his son causing him to hate me for no reason (we hadn't really been talking for a few months because of this evil man's influence in his life). I had been devastated by this situation and could not figure out why the Man of My Dreams would stop talking to me, as I am quite a remarkable woman. Instead the meeting was more of Sheikh Haniya imparting his great wisdom (which was actually really great) and when I started to tell him the story he immediately recognized that the Bedouin guy was just a liar, and had lied to his son causing him to think falsely of me. I informed him at that time however that I wanted to marry his son and he began asking me all these personal questions, which I entertained. After the meeting my translator and I told his brother (who gave us a ride home) about the story and he offered to talk to him. The following day there was a lecture by his father in Arabic at the University, and I met a nice Bedouin girl who invited me to her village of Tel Sheva a few days later to translate the lecture (not knowing of me or my involvement with the Sheikh's son). The oldest son talked to his brother who told him to tell me that he was getting engaged to some random girl he met at a party so he didn't want to talk to me. I didn't believe this story as such acts are not standard within the Muslim community, and all of his friends had told me otherwise, so I continued on my course for adventure.

The following day I created a list of "life questions" I wanted to ask the Man of My Dreams before we were to get married, I would ask the same of any man. His friend was supposed to pick it up and deliver it to him but he did not, so I took advantage of my opportunity to go to the Bedouin girl's home coincidentally located in the same village of Tel Sheva. It was on the 6th day of my fasting that I entered their home and shared a meal with them to break my fast. During this meal I had a conversation with her sister, who was a good friend of Sheikh Haniya and his wife Nama. I instantly connected with her, and shared my story with her. She offered to help me as we believed God brought us together through all of these wonderful coincidences, and the ways in which my week of fasting led me to her. She convinced me to spend the night with them and we could go to the Haniyas home the next day. I was not prepared to spend the night but sleeping in my contact lenses was well worth it. She wrote a letter for me in Arabic to deliver to the Man of My Dreams' parents, explaining everything, which accompanied my list of questions for him. The letter told who I really was (not who the evil Bedouin had said I was) and basically that I was asking permission to marry their son.

Upon delivering the letter to their house I was met with some resistance by the mother. All the children gathered around me mesmerized. One of them snatched the letter and began reading it. I insisted (in my janky Arabic) that she read the letter, it was for HER. The kids seemed to understand what I was requesting and were eager to help. She refused to read it and was yelling at me in Arabic, something about hating Americans, which is when I instantly made the connection to the terrorist Haniya (who also hates Americans), and found out later in the day that they were directly related! Just then the Man of My Dreams appeared and intercepted the letters. He seemed irate so I asked him to read everything and then talk to me. He called me about 10 minutes later and said he would talk to me in a few hours. I think we had a total of 4 conversations today (in his fluent English with cracked-out accent), which is all I really wanted to do for the past 2 months. I reaffirmed my interest in marrying him over the SMS and that he should really think about his life and consider coming to America with me because of the opportunity and because there would be a war here soon. He told me I was crazy, that there would not be a war, and that he had a girlfriend (a Bedouin girl from the north, coincidentally the same village the aforementioned Evil Bedouin is from, who he met around the same time he stopped talking to me!). Sometimes it takes scenarios like these to remind me that most people get so locked up in their own little bubble and the influence of other people that they can no longer look at the world with an open mind, or the bigger picture of what life is really all about. (A) who in their right mind would NOT marry me (hello?), and (B) THERE IS GOING TO BE A WAR HERE SOON. Son of a Sheikh, you had your chance to get out of here, but the Haniya Way breeds TERROR which leads to DEATH.

wilderness experience

2007-06-11T00:32:00.000-07:00

since I've been in Israel, not only have I grown closer to God, I have experienced more than ever before a deep connection with nature. I have written numerous blogs about my experiences in nature (Golan Heights, Sde Boker, the beach in Ashqelon and Tel Aviv, and here in the Negev), and how they have moved me spiritually. and there is something magical about living in the desert. Some people will tell you the desert is a place where you go to face your fears, and an opportunity to truly encounter your inner self. I thought it would simply be a familiar climate as I grew up in the desert of Arizona, and am familiar with the Sonoran desert region of Mexico. But you may have also heard of the desert as being a "wilderness experience" such as that in the Bible where people had to wander around here for 40 days so God could speak to them.

About 2 months ago, I really wanted to get out of this place. I had had enough of whatever it was that I was struggling with, and was ready to get back to the familiar zone, my home country of America. To run away from the problem without letting God solve it first, or waiting on Him to do so. I thought that just leaving here and returning there back to the country with all of its own inherent perils, that everything would be ok. When I LEFT America 7 months ago, I NEEDED to get out of there, I couldn't stomach the lifestyle there any more and KNEW there were more important things (of Global significance) going on in this part of the world. I set a course to study the Arab-Israeli conflict, learn Arabic and about Islam. I was in for more of a learning experience than I could have ever imagined. And I left America with all its comforts behind in order to do so. Now I know that I can return there any time, that it will still be there with all its perils, and with a Starbucks on every corner - oh how I long for it.

As my program is nearing its completion, I have lately found myself in a state of transcendence, partially in conjunction with this satisfaction. I have been doing a lot of yoga, capoeira, meditating, praying, and taking long walks in the Negev Desert of Beer Sheva in drawing closer to God. In a culture like America's, there are so many distractions to keep you from truly hearing His voice. In order to hear it you have to somehow transcend to be closer to Him (like by going on a vacation or retreat) or its easy for it to get mixed in (or neglected completely) with the daily clamor and tight schedules. This is the one thing I am grateful for here in Israel, the fact that I do not have all of those distractions - its just me and God. And he's brought me here to face my fears, transcend beyond my previous fast-paced lifestyle with all of its distractions (including my CAR and most of my "stuff") and truly press in to Him. Now I talk to God every day, and hear his voice so clearly that I feel such a spiritual awareness all around me, even in the eyes of cats. I can confidently say that this is the first time in my life that I have felt such a way, and believe that God is using this timeframe (without a job, without my car, without my good friends back home, without distractions) to teach me what is really important. I will hold fast to this and embrace trust God in faith, as I complete my degree and continue my spiritual journey here in the wilderness.

memories of brazil

2007-06-04T03:14:00.000-07:00

for the past few days, I have been waking up feeling like I am in Brazil. This may be due in part to my involvement in Capoeira and recent numerous reflections on years past, or as per my current surroundings in this foreign land of the Middle East. One of my first impressions of Israel last summer was in its similarities to Mexico and Brazil. My first stop was the beach in Tel Aviv, with its boardwalk stone design almost exactly the same as that in Copacabana, Rio De Janeiro! In addition, the weather was quite similar to that of central coastal Brazil, and the small economy-sized cars here prove to be more like those in Latin America than in the United States. As I've had the opportunity to travel throughout Israel and Jordan, I have many times been reminded of Brazil and Mexico, as there are endless similarities in landscape and lifestyle. I can include the desert plants and untidy streets of the Negev as a parallel to the deserts of Mexico, coincidentally parallel on the Equator.

When I wake up, i hear birds chirping and people speaking in foreign languages in the distance, of which I can only understand a few words. This gives me a nostalgia of mornings waking up in the condo that my friends and I stayed in in Ubatuba, Sao Paulo in 2002. The wind rustles through the trees that surround my building, as I invoke the familiar spirit of Brazil. In addition, my first sight when waking up is my Brazilian flag sarong pinned to my wall, above my yoga mat and pilates balance ball. Always associated with my fitness, dance and musical interests, there are so many other aspects of Brazilian culture which I have carried with me for years. I don't know if or when I will return to Brazil, but the memories will last forever.

The other day, a friend asked me if my last boyfriend (2 years ago) was American, in our conversation about current dating potentials. I said, "no he was Mexican... or Brazilian". I couldn't remember who was my last specifically but most of the guys I've dated have been one or the other. This morning I remembered my FIRST Brazilian boyfriend in 2000, who got deported after 3 months of our dating, because like most Brazilians he was living in America illegally. He was one of my favorite boyfriends, and what made our relationship so unique was that at the time I didn't know much Portuguese (now I do after 7 years of studying the culture), and he didn't know ANY English. However it was an absolutely amazing relationship because of this rare type of connection. My cousin did a similar thing when he married a woman from Cuba, who didnt know any English and he didn't know much Spanish at the time, now they have been happily married for 2 1/2 years! I think I would fare well if I married into an Arab family. After all, I've got a knack for culture, a MA in Communication, and now a MA in Middle East Studies, studying Arabic, learning in Hebrew-speaking Israel. Who needs English? Viva Brazil!

the salad bar

2007-05-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

Today after acing my Arabic Final Exam, I decided to reward myself with a big salad at my favorite salad bar here on campus. As I sit here looking out the big windows out onto the grassy courtyard filled with students returning this week from their strike, I'm reflecting on the joys of life, and the many lessons learned while studying here in Israel. Before my exam I called my dad because I had just received a letter from him dated 27 February, with words of encouragement. "Please take care over there! We all love you and want you safely home. My prayers and God's Angels are with you." He then assured me that I would do well on my test because "I have the mind of Christ". I took his words with me in to my exam, and have carried them with me throughout my day.

Over the past few days, I have been running into people who have been positive energy in my life over the past 6 months. Sharing a few minutes with each of these people has strengthened me, and helped me to feel re-energized and excited not only about being here, but reminding me that I need to embrace each of my remaining minutes in Israel. 2 classes down, 3 to go, and a wonderful country to continue to explore, despite all of its inherent conflicts.

While the world may be coming to an end soon and war is eminent, the best thing we can do for ourselves is to love ourselves and others, nourish our bodies, minds and spirits in the best way we know how. For some a belief and trust in the all-powerful and ever-present Allah, God of the Universe, for others a belief in traditions or history, cultivates our awareness and openness to the world around us. Stand strong, be healthy, and embrace life, because we don't know how long we have left.

sex and culture

2007-05-26T01:37:00.000-07:00

I have been studying different world cultures since about 1998 with my involvement as a DJ on a World Music radio station. Shortly thereafter I began dancing Brazilian Samba, and in 2000 I began training the Afro-Brazilian martial art/dance called Capoeira. Such activities have allowed me to embrace the culture, and to become familiar with many facets of the lifestyle such as language, music, and social traditions. Because the primary emphasis in both Samba and Capoeira is on the body, its easy to overlook other cultural norms that come along with this. Due to sexual pressures and interpersonal dillemas resulting from such, I cut off my ties to various groups I had been involved with over the years. I decided to continue my practice of these Brazilian arts, but on my own for fitness, without a particular group identification.

When I moved to Israel, I began training Capoeira with Cordao De Ouro (my original group from 2000 to 2002) which gave me a familiar outlet in this strange country. The class was taught as a university recreation class, more of what I had been sticking to in recent years (like at SDSU) rather than a formal group with many events. Because of the university strike we stopped meeting on campus, and our training was more integrated with the high school level and younger kids' class. The kids are really good Capoeiristas and a lot of fun to be around, good energy. They have brought me joy, laughter, and a new element to my training = purity. This week we had our batizado/troca de cordoes, a semi-formal event where everyone advances to the next cord level, and spends the entire week together. I commented to some of the other university-level students that it was really different training with kids, because we are accountable to engage in different types of conversations and behaviors than if we were around all adults.

The other night we had a barbecue at the home of 3 of the kids (brothers and sister who all train with the group). We ate niknikiot - HOT DOGS inside of pitas, with the standard hummus and vegetables (Israeli-American crossover meal). Dror put on a CD of Forro music - a Brazilian country-style music with close, sexy "couples" dance - which no capoeira party is complete without. I had been longing for Forro, as some of my main friends in San Diego are in a Forro band which performs regularly at local Brazilian parties. I became disturbed when no one was dancing, and discovered that not only did no one know HOW to dance Forro, no one was even familiar with this music, other than that it was Brazilian, and kind of hokey. My first thought was: how can these people call themselves Capoeiristas without a first-hand understanding of other facets of Brazilian culture? The day before I discovered that the girls didn't even know the difference between Axe Bahia-style Samba and Rio-style Samba. I told Dror everyone needed to start dancing, because they were just sitting around. He said, "maybe later, we just ate". It took me a few days to understand what he meant.

Throughout the week I was baffled at how different this Batizado week was than those I had experienced in America and Brazil. While we had many workshops and group activities, the parties lacked the "Brazilian" flavor. I believed this was due to being in Israel, and I DID embrace the Israeli culture more than ever with this group (good for my Hebrew). I have grown to feel so comfortable with them, as this is the first group in 4 years that I have actually been able to identify myself as an official PART of. I even bought a pair of pants with the group name (a big step for me), and earned my next level cord with them - my first cord since 5 years, and my 3rd cord in my total 7 years of training. This Batizado week helped me recognize not only the familiar territory of group comraderie, training, and changing of the cords, but the cultural dimensions that come with the territory. Because of the special environment with the kids, and being in Israel rather than America or Brazil, there were no "other" pressures that I associate with the Capoeira culture. No close-dancing freaky Forro, no scantily-clad Samba gyrations, no Brazilian men all up on my business, no major focus on the human body, just a wholesome, pure, new childlike perspective on the arts and culture of Capoeira that I have loved for so many years. This has been a truly amazing and unique cultural learning experience, that I will take with me much more than my yellow-level cord.

Israeli strikes

2007-05-23T03:54:00.001-07:00

for the past month, there has been a University student strike throughout Israel due to their dissatisfaction with tuition rates. They have held numerous protests statewide, created disturbances on campus, and "blocked" the entrances to campus, forcing me to climb the fence to get in. As an international student, my program of study has not been affected (other than these outrageous displays), as we are visiting scholars technically not a part of the overall Israeli education system. Coincidentally I personally pay more for tuition than possibly an other student currently enrolled at the University, so I don't understand what their problem is. Nevertheless I have observed the extreme behaviors of Israeli students during the strike process, as just an example of the overall Israeli extremism which is an integral part of their existence here.

In addition to the student strike, there have been numerous train strikes - at least one per week, labor strikes, and even bread and egg strikes. I kid you not, for an entire week it was illegal to buy bread and it was pulled from the store shelves (except in Arab areas). If that weren't enough, every weekend (called Shabbat) and every holiday (there are at least one per week besides Shabbat) ALL of the stores are closed (except in Arab areas). This is just a part of the overall Israeli culture, so foreign to a foreigner like myself. For the past two weeks there have been rumors of the student strike ending, in order to avoid canceling their entire semester. Fortunately MY semester ends in a few weeks, as I will be completing my second MA.

Now Israel has a greater kind of strike to deal with, brought on by the presence of qassams being fired into in the Negev. For the past few weeks, extreme factional violence has been occurring in Gaza and into Israeli territory, leading to retaliatory strikes by the IDF, into Gaza and on various Palestinian factions and their leaders. Israel's militant response to Palestinian extremism has created a feeling of deja vu, likened to last year's resistance to Hizbollah's strikes in the north. This country is in disarray, from its factional violence, criminals roaming the streets, to its government and education system and unethical decision-making therein. Sending out an SOS to the world - God please help us, here in your Promised Land.

new world order II

2007-05-21T05:42:00.000-07:00

As suggested in my last blog entry, Nicolas Sarkozy is a major political player to be taken seriously in the changing global arena > aka New World Order. While foreign policy was not one of the most pressing issues during the French Presidential campaign (other than that Segolene Royal was completely clueless on this topic), it is NOW. Go Nic go! Recent media coverage including this article highlights Sarkozy's aggressive foreign relations strategy with the Middle East region. Plans are being discussed for the 16 countries surrounding the Mediterranean Sea to form a union, with cooperation regarding economics, trade and security, and may unify a diverse area comprised of many cultures and religions. This is undoubtedly an extreme political move, but those who are familiar with Sarkozy's aggressive political behaviors should not be surprised by his startling emergence from the ghettos of immigrant France.

Meanwhile, about 10 miles from my house, factional fighting continues between Hamas, Fatah, and the Israeli Defense Force. One news source reported such chaos as "lawlessness" descending upon the Gaza Strip. Targeted killings have transcended Gaza's borders to nearby Israeli towns which have been partially evacuated (many refugees have been moved to the nearby city of Beer Sheva, where I currently reside). Likewise Israel has targeted various terrorist leaders of Hamas and Islamic Jihad both in Gaza and the West Bank, and the IDF will continue its escalated military action in response to constant rocket attacks from Gaza. Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Olmert met with King Abdullah II of Jordan this week to discuss solutions. Let us speculate Jordan's role, strategically sandwich-packed between Israel and Iraq.

In the beginning of the civil war of 1947-48, there were similar attacks and regional battles. Nobody realized at that time that a war was starting. While I wasn't around then, I have been educated about the history through some of my classes (currently working on a MA in Middle East Studies, in Israel). Factional fighting does not really phase anyone here in Israel, because people are used to such things occurring on a regular basis and have seemingly become desensitized. However, this is the start of something really significant - World War III? Both Biblical and Quranic prophecies indicate that the End Times are upon us. So live each day as if it is your last, and may you be enlightened to the reality of the new global paradigm.

new world order

2007-05-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

last night during dinner with a few friends, we discussed the topic of newly emerging leadership in the EU. I have been following this topic closely, with my interest in Nicolas Sarkozy and of course the End Times prophecies. My friend actually brought up Sarkozy being Jewish, and I chimed in that I thought he was going to make aliyah because of his heritage, but would actually be for more of a political move. During the election the focus was not on him being Jewish at all, but rather the son of 2 immigrant parents, though he is rather tough on immigration in his policies. Our conversation focused on the new leadership being more conservative, a refreshing change for the loose liberalism that Europe has traditionally been known for.

As Tony Blair steps down on June 27 (coincidentally the same day I leave Israel), Gordon Brown will take over his post as Prime Minister of Britain. Brown has served as the Chancellor of the Exchequer (HM Treasury) since 1997; the Treasury is responsible for formulating and implementing the UK Government's financial and economic policy. Coincidentally, Nicolas Sarkozy served as the Finance Minister of France before giving up his post to run for President. With these two new, powerful, money-minded men now at the helm of the EU, the world will no doubt witness Europe's influence in the commercial sphere.

Another important changing-of-the-guard is taking place at the World Bank, as Paul Wolfowitz steps down, also at the end of June. While speculation indicates that the vacant post should be filled by an American, a few European candidates enter the mix, including none other than Tony Blair. Not only would this be a smooth transition from his current post, but would complete the EU's control of the New World Order. How would such European dominance affect the rest of the world you ask? From a one-world bank to a one-world currency, the Euro has unified not only the European countries in recent years, but will soon unite the entire global community.

stupid human tricks

2007-05-15T12:56:00.000-07:00

If you've ever been to Israel, you know that the place is plagued with cats. That's right, the world's favorite housepet, millions of them, roaming the streets among the Bedouins of Beer Sheva. Lately I have been inspired by some of the cats, as they slink down the alleys with grace and agility, waiting quietly before pouncing into a new situation. I have also seen a great number of baby kittens, which are so precious, cute, small, furry, and fragile. Every time I see a baby kitten I am filled with exceeding levels of exuberant joy. I often stop to pet them, and sometimes pick them up and let them sit in the palm of my hand. The other day my friend Sean and I found 4 baby kittens in a hole outside of his dorm building. The mamma cat came over and made these outlandish noises towards Sean, as he was holding the babies in his pockets, and they attached themselves to his shirt with their tiny claws. Who will protect the precious babies without their mother, from other cats and scary humans?

Alone in Israel, I am like a small baby kitten surrounded by strange cats. Too young to speak the language of the other cats, and unprotected from the perils of the neighborhood, I rely on basic instincts and innate defenses. My little claws grasping for whatever they can hold on to. My little cry, barely heard over the societal norms which I am not prepared to face in this unknown territory. Who will help the baby kittens? So precious and fragile, so special to their families, but so alone and defenceless.

Housepets are often known for performing tricks, or expected to conform to the standard "sit", "stay", and "lie down". Sometimes I feel like Im expected to fit into this mold of unrealistic submission. I must slink down the alley stealthily as they perform their stupid human tricks. Since I'm not one for tricks, I pause to lick my wounds before retreating to the shade for my afternoon catnap. The other cats see me lying there and try to pounce on me, but just as they descend into my personal space, I stretch out my paw and greet them with my tiny little claw. Don't step on the kittens. They are precious... little perhaps, but mighty.

grounded in golan

2007-05-06T13:19:00.000-07:00

this past weekend I traveled to the Golan Heights in northern Israel, with a group of American students. The weekend was filled with outdoor activities, two 10-mile hikes in the wilderness, bathing in natural waterfalls, white-water rafting in the Jordan river, and swimming in the Sea of Galilee. It was through these activities that I connected with nature, causing me to become even more grounded than I have been feeling in recent weeks. I am so grateful for this opportunity to live, study, and travel in Israel.

While the Golan Heights is an area often known as the grounds for war and continually disputed territory, it is also a place of peace and natural beauty. The higher elevation made for a different purity of air which accompanied a feeling of spiritual purity. i was among a group of Jews and we stayed in a Jewish neighborhood, heightening the Shabbat experience overall. While I do not understand all of their traditions, I was able to observe, learn, embrace, and even share some of my own beliefs. This religious aspect added to the spiritual atmosphere of the higher grounds in Golan. In addition we visited a local winery, keeping spirits high and feeling nature within all of our senses.

one word that rang true for me throughout the weekend (besides peace) was "transcendence". Feeling ever grounded, as I hiked through the wilderness of nature's temporal sphere, I experienced the sensation one often attains through meditation and yoga - transcending one's own reality to the level of spiritual/physical bliss and unearthly euphoria. I have felt this before in meditation, but I was experiencing it here as I trudged through the brambles on the mountainside and skipped stones on the creek. The best way to describe it would be as Neo approached his interactions within "the Matrix" - a constructed reality in which nothing is fully what it appears, and what is real is questioned by the alternate paradigm of the Matrix. The same invincibility and ability to face challenges (like the opponents' bullets) and tackle them by a simple swing of the arm, a slight ducking to one side, or gracefully escaping into a backbend, became my strategy. Being grounded requires much more than a solid foundation, it requires strength, agility, tenacity, connection with one's surroundings, and the ability to transcend with wisdom and discernment.

life's a beach

2007-05-01T12:45:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the beach in Tel Aviv, my first time to visit the beach since my trip to San Diego 3 months ago! It cost 46 shekels (about 12 bucks) to take the train round trip from Beer Sheva, and was quite an exciting adventure. The weather has been so beautiful here, Tel Aviv feeling much like San Diego, and the Negev Desert feeling much like Arizona or Mexico. I have really been longing for the beach lately, and I felt it calling me today.

Throughout my lifetime, the ocean has always provided a place of tranquility and peacefulness for me. Listening to the waves crashing on the shore, watching the tides roll along, and smelling the fresh sea air are all enjoyable aspects of the beautiful beaches of the world. As a large percentage of the earth's surface is water, the sea is not only a vital area for travel and commerce but also an incredible balancing force on our planet. It's no wonder that the most popular vacation destinations are coastal or islands, and people often go on cruises to find themselves out in the middle of the vast ocean - an incredible feeling of harmony with nature.

After the tranquility of the sea, the most important thing to observe while at the beach is the happiness and peace of the people there. It is a place where you rarely see anyone angry or spreading hatred or violence. You see people running and playing games, children building sand castles, and surfers finding balance. You see teens embracing their social milieu together in laughter and comraderie. You see young adults partaking in libations and releasing their inhibitions. You see families enjoying their time together and frolicking in the water. You see singles and older folks relaxing, sunbathing, reading, listening to music, exercising, or people-watching. You see people sharing or collecting items they enjoy, whether for a hobby, personal pleasure, or even financial gain. All of these people share a feeling of positivity, relaxation, or recreation which I believe can only be attributed to the sea's majestic power. And behind the majesty of the sea is it's Creator, giver and sustainer of all life. Thinking of the popular t-shirt slogan "life's a beach", wouldn't it be nice to superimpose this magical environment onto all of life's scenarios? Remember that you have the power to create your own environment, so why not let your personal energy embody the tranquility of the sea?

independence

2007-04-24T04:26:00.000-07:00

Today is Israel's Independence Day, with celebrations nationwide to commemorate the establishment of the State of Israel in 1948. Last night in Beer Sheva was a sight to behold - a ginormous street party with fireworks, live music, dancers and performers, numerous food stands, and a carnival-like atmosphere. Since I've lived here I have not imagined such an event could take place in our seedy little armpit of the Negev Desert. Yet anything is possible in the name of independence, and any place can become beautiful with the right perspective. What a wonderful time of celebration, seeing so many people gathering together in a positive family atmosphere.

Independence is an amazing phenomenon which is not fully experienced by everyone in the world, and unfortunately may never be. In addition to self-government and self-rule as often associated with independence of a country, independence can also be defined as "self-determination, sovereignty, autonomy, freedom, liberty, self-sufficiency, self-reliance, financial independence, comfort, and ease." As a single American woman who owns two businesses, one of my greatest strengths is my independence. Many people base their lives on some form of dependence, on another person, an employment system, an organization or affiliation, a home or vehicle, etc. However in order to achieve the amazing freedoms of life, it is not required that a person live in a free country such as America, or have a lot of "friends", a spouse, or even a good job. Freedom is a state of mind, and your life decisions are your own. Nobody can make you become something which you don't let them.

I was thinking about going to the beach in Tel Aviv today, to celebrate Israel's Independence Day. But I realized that I can go any another time when there are less crowds, because the beach will still be there, and I have the freedom in my life to do so. Having the day off from university is a wonderful opportunity to celebrate my own personal independence. I have so much to be thankful for as an American, and the amazing opportunity to travel freely and study abroad. In addition to celebrating my own independence and that of the nation of Israel, I am looking forward to returning to my home country in 2 months, just in time for OUR Independence Day, July 4.

the race

2007-04-20T12:45:00.001-07:00

The French Presidential race is reaching its climax, with the first round of elections just two days away. Conservative Nicolas Sarkozy has been the frontrunner ever since he entered the race, with socialist Segolene Royal moving in at a close second. Other candidates in the running include center-right hopeful Francois Bayrou and far-right nationalist Jean-Marie Le Pen. Although Sarkozy has what it takes to win the race, many are skeptical that the results will be closer than polls project. The French use a two-round election system, with the first round on April 22, and the second round on May 6, only necessary if someone does not win the majority vote in the first round. The first-round campaigning has ended, giving the public an extra day to clear their heads (without listening to additional propaganda) before the actual voting takes place.

When running an important race like a marathon, most runners train extensively prior to the big event. For many of them, its not about winning or losing, but rather being properly conditioned to finish in a decent position. They train every day, stretching, running and working out, eating well and maintaining an overall healthy lifestyle. In a presidential race, there can only be one winner. Each of the candidates prepares themselves for such a race in order to outrun the others by winning the most public support. In this kind of race, you are dependent upon other people to determine the outcome.

In the race of life, trying to outrun someone can wear you out if you're not properly conditioned. Think about your own strengths and weaknesses as well as those of your competition. Do you have the stamina, the health and vigor required to endure in the final stretch? Will you settle for second place, or perhaps even a very sweet tie? Life is full of competitions, but the way you chose to train and your overall outlook towards the finish line will help propel you in the right direction. Strengthen your mind, body, and spirit every day, because you never know when you will be required to compete in a very important race.

remember the holocaust

2007-04-16T11:59:00.000-07:00

Last night and today in Israel, many stores and establishments were closed (including my gym) to remember the thousands of Jews who were brutally tortured and murdered in the holocaust during the 1940s. At 10am the country honored a moment of silence and observation, for some people this lasted an hour until 11am. I had classes and business as usual, but wore black in memory of those who died. My father's father was German Jew, and his family immigrated to America just before that timeframe. Being one-quarter Jewish is a reality that I cannot escape, although I am not Jewish by religion (I am a Christian), it is part of my heritage that I am learning more about every day. I am truly blessed with the opportunity to live in Israel, God's promised land for the Jews.

There are some extremists throughout the world such as Mahmoud Ahmedinijad who deny that the Holocaust ever happened (read more here). In the same way, there are also those who deny Israel's right to exist. I wonder sometimes if these people assume that by negating history (actual factual evidence of events that have occurred throughout time) that they will somehow change it. Pretty soon if you have enough people who subscribe to your lies, you can create an alternate reality in which people are basing their own existence on hearsay.

This reminds me of a situation in my personal life where a person told lie upon lie, and spread the poison like wildfire among a social circle. To my knowledge it is still being spread, and those who choose to listen and subscribe to it are letting the negative energy control their thoughts. The important thing for me however, is that I am grounded in the truth and clothed in righteousness (a special fire-proof suit). The same kind of thing can happen in our world today. Those who know the truth, who have read the history books and even the Bible, will KNOW the truth as FACT and be able to negate the lies that are fed to them from the media and various political figures. Thank you God that I live in a world so full of diversity that those who seek truth and righteousness may be rewarded, and can even help others to attain a greater understanding.

middle east 101

2007-04-14T13:54:00.000-07:00

If you hear of anyone who does not recognize Israel's "right to exist", you might suggest that they take a history class, or read a book.
If anyone offers you a free place to live or stay, WALK AWAY before you discover the strings attached.
If anyone asks you to marry them (and promise you the world) after you have known them only one or two days, WALK AWAY.
If you meet anyone who reminds you of your ex-husband in more ways than one, only reincarnated as an Arab, WALK AWAY.
If you encounter anyone named Mohammed or Amir, WALK AWAY before revealing any details about your personal life - or avoid them entirely if possible.
Note that the word "Hello" when yelled loudly usually means "watch out or I am going to run you over with my motorized cart in this narrow market alleyway", and not "hey how's it going, buddy".
Note that the word "Habibi" (in Arabic "my love") has multiple meanings and should be used freely as an important part of the culture, especially if you don't mind taking risks of being misinterpreted.
If a Bedoin asks you to give or receive a massage, WALK AWAY.
And finally, never give anyone your phone number who offers to "help you" with ANYTHING including the language. You will acquire more stalkers than you know what to do with.

common israelis

2007-04-12T12:43:00.000-07:00

Recently, I have had the opportunity to meet many wonderful new Israeli friends (to include "legal" Israeli Arabs), mostly outside of the university. Being that I'm quickly nearing completion of my program of study, the timing for meeting new friends couldn't be better (distractions are less of a problem at this point). In addition, I have been able to explore parts of the country with a new sense of freedom, without anything unnecessary weighing me down (eg "the tunnel"). This "out with the old, in with the new" energy has manifest itself in so many ways. As seen in recent posts, spending days at a time in Jerusalem has proven to be healthy for my body, mind, and spirit.

Today I spent the afternoon with a new friend. She is an Israeli graduate student, about my age, who works on campus. I wondered why I'd never met her before, though she had seen me once before under less positive circumstances. We went into town together today to take care of some things, and had a wonderful conversation. She had traveled around and lived in the US for a few years, among the cities she resided in was (America's Finest City) MY San Diego for 6 months! She knew many of the places in which I have lived and worked, and gave me a happy reminder of home.

The opportunity to live and study in Israel is such a wonderful experience. Culturally in many ways Israel is Western, but there is so much that is very different, that I "trip out" on! My friend and I walked into a store together (similar to a convenience store) so she could by cigarettes, but it contained only cigarettes, a variety of lottery tickets, and a wall full of liquor (as if they would serve you while making your ticket selection). After looking around the place, I commented to her "they have alcohol, cigarettes, and gambling"! She laughed, and understood my alarm at the common israeli "conveniences". Actual convenience stores (small corner stores) here are more like full grocery stores, but of course with fewer selections than the standard American supermarket. Spending even an hour in any Israeli city will provide an American with a broadened view of their culture... its not only about the conflicts between Jews and Arabs, but a very interesting place overall. I will continue to absorb all i can, and enjoy the wonderful unique opportunity that I have here.

lyrical miracles

2007-04-10T02:32:00.000-07:00

spending Easter weekend in Jerusalem, the city where Jesus lived, died, and rose again was a truly amazing experience. I attended two Easter services (one in English and one in Arabic) at the Garden Tomb, the place where Jesus was buried. Besides the World Cup in Germany last summer, the festivities of this week in Jerusalem was the most international event I have ever been a part of. There were people from all over the world who traveled to the Holy Land for this holy celebration. Though many of the people were of different denominations and the city was immersed in excessive fanfare, our reason for celebrating was the same - the miraculous resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. Jesus performed many miracles while on the earth, throughout the land of Israel. Whether you recognize him as a prophet, a teacher, God in flesh, or just a random carpenter, you can't deny that these events were truly miraculous. For those who don't include the New Testament in their Bibles, or who follow a different set of scriptures altogether, such as the Koran or other religious theology, the message that Jesus shared was one of faith, hope, love, and truth. Following is an excerpt from my personal journal, often lyrical in nature, of a reflection on my thoughts during the Holy weekend in the Holy City.

The city is where you find yourself, God, the world, a culmination of all that is truth, a celebration of life. In my life these words reflect my true inner nature. individuality. independence. holiness. purity. beauty. righteousness. truth. fidelity. cleanliness. Godliness. Allah akhbar (God is the greatest). Be honest with yourself. Nurture yourself. Clothe yourself in humility. Bask in the truth. Your soul resonates the holiness within, a reflection of your inner voice. Embrace life. Meet people. Enjoy their company. Share stories to confirm your own beliefs. Never sacrifice your individuality, values, or goals for another person. Live your faith. Embody the Divine. Exceed your earthly limitations. Remember your family, cherish those you hold dear to you. Detatch from drama and frivolity. Be grounded in truth. Re-affirm your foundation. Be captivated by the present. Dismiss the past, but hold on to the memories. Dream for the future but do not make plans, for the future is fleeting. Be here now. Be yourself, the unique individual whom no one else can define.

holy spectacle

2007-04-07T05:28:00.000-07:00

The Church of the Holy Sepelchure in Jerusalem was "the place to be" this Good Friday. I've always thought of this place as having a lot of unnecessary frills and fanfare, and with the Holy Days upon us, last night was no exception. The Holy spectacle to behold encompassed the remembrance of the death of Jesus Christ, with many different sects of Christianity and Catholicism represented in their own unique way. The entire facility was wall-to-wall people, celebrating their Holy Lord and the sacrifice he paid for all upon the earth.

Inside the church, there were numerous processional groups, one Coptic from Egypt, others various branches of Catholicism, singing their songs and wearing traditional clothing. The spectacle was complete with TV screens, cameras and special lighting, amidst the candles and lanterns already used to light the scene. Outside the church the courtyard was jammed full, with a rectangular walkway blocked off for the holy processional. This was certainly a sight to behold; a mock-funeral processional for Jesus, complete with coffin, flowers, incense, men wearing traditional robes and carrying banners and large ornate crosses. As formal as the procession was, it was still quite moving and meaningful for all in attendance.

Today, the streets of the Old City were jam-packed and most of the walkways were completely blocked off, compliments of the Israeli Police and IOF. It was not possible to go inside the Church of the Holy Sepelchure unless you had spent the night inside (which I had considered as an option), and people were not permitted to pass anywhere nearby. Fortunately, I met a local man who accompanied me around through all the back streets and walkways, and I enjoyed our adventure together. At one point however, we were just trying to get back to the place I was staying, when we got stuck for about 1/2 hour in a very tight crowd. By the end I almost fainted, as I am claustrophobic, and just as we emerged, we were met with a crowd on fire. The long-awaited moment of the "light coming out" of the Church, in which everyone carried lit bunches of Holy candles, to represent the Light going out into all the world. I thought my hair was going to catch on fire, but I was truly safe, with my private tour guide and surrounded by people celebrating this Holy event together.