religious zealot

I was recently labeled a "religious zealot" by someone who, although they had never met me, did not seem fond of me (per a preconceived bias against Scorpios, and a problem with strong women in positions of authority). Like my existence was seemingly somehow unfair to her, as if I posed a challenge or threat to her comfort zone. At first I was taken aback by the comment and her attitude, and immediately told my mom about it, who is partly responsible for my Christian upbringing and unwavering faith in God. I asked, "can you believe she called me that?" and my mom answered "well, you ARE". I sat and mulled that one over all night, while poking around on my laptop and watching Christian satellite TV programming. I have recently become re-connected with these enlightening channels, and have resumed watching the very interesting international programming which is often shown. You could say I took a hiatus from my ritualistic absorption, with the baseball playoffs occupying my screen, and several recent trips out of town, the TV did not get my full attention.

The other night I watched a program called the Jesus Boat Revealed, which was an archaeological/historical commentary on the Galilee region (present day Tiberias) and relevant artifacts found there. While Jesus' ministry was focused throughout northern Israel, he spent a fair amount of time around the Sea of Galilee, including the famous "walking on water" episode. This boat, which was discovered in recent years, is commemorated in a museum/store just off the shore of the Sea of Galilee. While I visited this store during one of my trips to Tiberias, it was interesting to watch the historical commentary regarding this relic, by many credible researchers and ministers alike. This film in part helped re-ignite my fire for all things religious and historical. If you want to talk about religious persecution, Jesus was the Prime Mover. Religious zealot? If so, I copy. No time to be lukewarm, or the God of Israel will spew you out of his mouth. Do you think Jesus knew he would die at the age of 33?

Immediately following that program was a movie called Kabul 24. It was an account of 8 Westerners who were kidnapped and detained by Al Qaeda in Afghanistan in 2001, just prior to the terror attacks of 911. All 8 were accused of trying to convert Muslims to Christianity. The Taliban had them in a type of prison. At one point an English Journalist got thrown in there with them, for donning a burka and venturing into one of the Afghan cities. When interviewed about her observations in the prison, she stated "I've got religious fanatics on one side, and religious fanatics on the other side." She was released soon thereafter for her "unruly attitude". They probably would have kicked me out too, I would have asked "where is the salad bar?" The prisoners were tortured, and later forced to ask their governments for money as an exchange for their release. They were ultimately released shortly after 911, a point in time which these prisoners did not experience the same collective feeling that the rest of the world did.

At a Thanksgiving function yesterday, I got into a deep discussion about Judaism with my step-brother in law. I really don't remember how it came up, but I mentioned I went to a few Jewish Synagogues while living in Israel. Keep in mind that I am of Jewish descent, but am a Christian by faith. I was able to come and go freely while in Israel because of a student visa, and American citizenship. Not all inhabitants of the Holy Land have it that easy. Anyway, I shared with him that the men and the women are separated by a temporary wall or partition during the Jewish services. Same is true when visiting the Western Wall in the Old City of Jerusalem, women must enter to the right and cover their heads in reverence. Again regardless of your religious beliefs, everyone must follow the rules - when in Israel, do as the Jews do! Later my mom came up and contributed to the conversation by reminiscing about the bustling Ben Yehuda Street in Jerusalem at the end of Shabbat. We found ourselves there one Saturday night after a Messianic Jewish church service in a building nearby. She mentioned the groups of Chinese Christians singing and playing music, and that although Christian, we are referred to as "Believers" in Israel, to distinguish us from the Catholics and other Christian sects.

I think I like this new title, I can get used to it! But my blog about me the "religious zealot" would not be complete without honorable mention of my Palestinian refugee Muslim boyfriend (who I met in Berlin). A week or so ago, I spoke with a man claiming to be Palestinian, hailing from the island of Cyprus (ok dude, you are mistakenly Greek, not Palestinian). I had approached him and asked "is that a Palestinian scarf?" referring to a distinctly patterned cloth draped around his neck. He asked me "how do you know about that?" I answered "uh, because I had a Palestinian boyfriend?" He became mesmerized by me. I admitted that I had lived in Israel/Palestine for about a year and had earned a Master's Degree in Middle Eastern Studies - a truly life-changing experience. He then asked me, "what do you think about the Israeli-Palestinian issue?" I was like "are you serious? do you realize what a loaded topic that is? how much time do you have?" His time was limited, and although he was interested what I had to say, he concluded "I don't think we're on the same page". This inclination may have been partly due to my admission of being 1/4 Jewish. I told him if these people had roofs over their heads, he didn't really need to worry about it, personally!

There is a difference between being a "religious zealot" and holding a Master's Degree in Middle Eastern Studies from an Israeli University, and a Bachelor's Degree from a Christian/Nazarene College. Errr, or is there? You decide. I may have studied Islam, but I do not typically wear a hijab as the Muslim women do. I may have lived in Israel, but I do not speak fluent Hebrew as the modern Jews do. I may have bought a rosary while in Brazil, but I do not say the Hail Marys as Catholics do. I may have spent time in Greece, but that does not make me Orthodox. I may practice Yoga, but I do not bow to the Hindu deities. And I may be a Believer, but I will not be persecuted for my Faith. Call me what you will, but knowledge is power, and the Power of God is behind me.

whats your raashee?

Last night, I watched a Hindi movie called "What's Your Raashee?" (What's Your Sun Sign?) It was a perfect movie for me to see, because I'm really into Astrological signs and the various personal traits which accompany each. I'm also really into Hindi movies and Indian culture. I had invited a friend to go with me, whose mom is actually an Astrologer. I thought he would really appreciate it too, not only for the astrology, but because in the Indian culture most of the marriages are arranged, and his mom coincidentally chooses who he can and can't date (though she doesn't subscribe to Hindu philosophies in general). Anyway the plot of the movie was a Scorpio man's family giving him an ultimatum that he had to get married within a few weeks. After joining a dating service, and getting 167 interested women to respond to his ad, he decided to choose 12 to date, 1 from each sun sign.

While this movie portrayed a pretty darn accurate assessment of each of the sun signs and their respective traits, I was surprised that the Scorpio man ended up marrying the Aquarius woman in the end. Sorry to spoil the ending for those who have not seen it, but it was obvious the pair hit it off from the beginning. The Taurus was a total crackpot, he referred to her as "raving mad". I thought that was really funny because I recently dated a Taurus with an insane temper, similar perspective though the Taurus woman in the movie had more of a playful spirit, and she was indeed pretty crazy! Its funny to me because supposedly Taurus is the best match for Scorpio, intensity wise for sure, and in all other areas that really "count". The character did agree to marry her at one point however the uncle wouldn't allow it because he too agreed that she was crazy!

I would have also chosen for him the Cancer (whom he definitely took a liking to on a "deeper" level), and of course the Scorpio (ok so I'm a bit biased). The Scorpio reminded me of myself to a T! She was funny, fun, exciting, intense, energetic, hilarious, sexy, smart (rattled off facts as I often do), and beautiful in many ways. Her cousin(?) the main character's roommate, had described her as "a lot of woman", and that she was "too much" for most guys to handle. Thus she was still single despite the fact that her parents had been trying to marry her off and she instead had aspirations to become a fashion model. Her character initially came across as shy and reserved, someone very different than her true sun sign reflected, which is inherently part of the Scorpio mystique! I suppose with all Scorpios, you really need to get to know us, as we are certainly the most exotic and intense of the signs -but only those privileged enough to be let in to our inner circle will get to experience this amazing energy and wonderful benefits which accompany that!

In my study of Yoga over the last several years, I have acquired a fondness of Hindi movies during the same timeframe, likewise I have learned a lot about the Indian culture, rituals, and religion. In the Hindu religion there are many gods, versus the Judeo-Christian tradition (which I belong to) in which there is only one God. Perhaps my favorite is the Hindu Deity Ganesha, the elephant-headed prince. Ganesha is known as the "Remover of Obstacles", but also resides over the realms of wisdom, luck, doorways, the household and writing. He is normally depicted with four arms, each holding something symbolic. The modaka symbolizes the sweet rewards gained while on the spiritual path. The ankusha represents Ganesha’s role in prodding one out of inertia and back onto their spiritual path. The pasa symbolizes Ganesha’s powers at curbing the ego, restraining passion and conquering delusion. He has the power to remove any obstacle, whether it is physical or spiritual, from the path of his devotees. If one is not respectful or faithful to Ganesha, he is known to place obstacles in one’s path to render worship fruitless and cause one’s undertakings to fail.

So what's your raashee? We can seek balance and harmony in any relationship, but only if the obstacles are removed. Stubbornness, ego, delusion, or another person's unhealthy interference can all contribute, thus rendering the true seekers of peace and love helpless in their quest. Recognize the root of the issue and pull it out - pull HARD if you have to! Do whatever it takes, but don't let any obstacles spoil your party! Press on towards your goal, and be persistent as you stand your ground. As for arranged marriages (or marriages in general), this is a decision between 2 consenting adults, but should not be influenced or determined by the parents. I have seen one too many a parent interfere in his or her daughter or son's relationship, thereby causing unnecessary stress and undue torture even. If two people's signs are compatible, and they connect upon their first meeting, they will know and recognize if they have important desires and life goals in common. Parents nowadays certainly have a great responsibility to raise and protect their children, of course until they are grown and living on their own. Namaste.

the diver

I have not blogged much since my dad passed away, primarily because he was my biggest fan, and an avid reader of my blog. I know of only 2 other people who read it, my mom and my cousin. I keep wondering if I write, who will read it? I have also been focusing on a lot of personal communication in getting back in touch with old friends, and fortunately they are usually reading what I write to them on a personal level and taking my words to heart. However with this season of new beginnings (coming with 09-09-09), I am making some major adjustments, re-prioritizing my life, and catching up with those areas I have neglected for a while - as I reflect upon those things which make me a truly unique masterpiece.

In late July, I experienced a painful injury - a broken toe, which resulted in more down time than anticipated this summer. All of this down time has provided the opportunity to become more social again, whereas I had been relatively private, isolated, and emotionally regenerating since my dad passed away. The day I broke my toe I was in church, and prayed that "something would happen soon" in my life, to change my current path and give me some kind of direction. Later that day on my way out of the house to meet a few friends, I tripped over some stray objects in my hallway resulting in the broken middle toe - which I thought was just stubbed. Later that evening at a Brazilian party, a few people pointed out to me that it was in fact broken, based on the way it had become discolored and swollen. I began treating it immediately, and was in a lot of pain for about 5 weeks.

That same night when I went to sleep, I had a dream about a former place of employment, where I had worked in high school. In the dream, the name of a person I hadn't seen or heard about in 18 years came to me. When I woke up, I immediately typed his name into Facebook and found him. We began corresponding and found out we had many things in common, such as international travel adventures, vocational background, musical skills and interests, and even our place of birth. I also found out that he was a scuba diver, an activity I have enjoyed in the past, as I have also been really into snorkeling over the years. I'm not sure why we are in each other's lives, but he has already made a significant positive impact on me, which I trust will continue. I believe in Divine appointments, and that everything happens for a reason.

As a water sign, I often reflect on various situations with water as a metaphor. In looking at some of my friend's underwater photos, I was reminded how complex and intricate life can be under the surface. Multi-colored coral and fish, various plant life and seaweed, along with the multitude of sea creatures, from turtles to whales and sharks. The deeper you dive, the more rewarding this life beneath the surface can be. When I went diving in the Red Sea, off the coast of Eilat Israel, I swam with dolphins and also observed beautiful coral reefs and colorful fish. I was absolutely captivated by the diving instructor who swam with me. After the dive he told me a bit about his life, and it seemed so interesting, so different than mine - I began to dream. We exchanged email addresses and have kept in touch to this day.

Can you imagine swimming with the dolphins daily, and feeling the freedom that comes with the flow? Many people can not, as they limit themselves to what I refer to as "living in a box". These people measure their success by material possessions, such as a nice house, a nice car, a cushy career job, lots of money, and an exclusive group of friends. They often do not have "room" for anything else, and tell people "I don't have time to make 'new' friends". Rarely do they spend time outside of the workplace or their nice homes, and seem to treat people as if they are not good enough to grace their presence. Because I'm water, I cannot easily flow with people who have such restrictive parameters. They even put restrictions onto their friends, like "don't call me, I'll call you", "you can send me an email, but only if you use certain words," and "I'm really busy, and I do not choose to discuss details with you". I try to not take them personally, as the problem is usually not me, but them, who ultimately have to live with themselves.

I have come to realize that I am a rather positive optimist, perhaps an idealist, and it is challenging for me view life any other way. While many people stay on the surface, I tend to dive a bit deeper, because I know that the beautiful treasures which lie beneath are worth pursuing. I believe some people often fear that which they do not understand, or that which they have not taken the initiative to explore. However I think we can all learn a lot from each other, regardless of vocation, location, and communication style. Take the time to listen and learn, not run and hide in your little box. Your thougths determine your beliefs, your beliefs determine your actions, and your actions determine your quality of life. Your future is whatever you make it. Why would you let life pass you by, by living inside a little box, and designating little compartments for others? Stay in the boat as long as you need to, you'll be safe there on the surface. I'll be deep-sea diving, exploring, experiencing, enjoying.

and the winner is...

Mahmoud Ahmedinejad, voted Iranian President for his second term. With a 85% record high turnout for the election, AJ received nearly 63% of the vote. He described the election as "free and healthy", claiming that "triumph represents a great achievement for the country." However, Friday night before the official results emerged, former Prime Minister Mir Hossein Mousavi appeared to be the winner. The public could hardly believe that the election results could have changed dramatically overnight, suggesting there were voting violations and fraudulent vote rigging during the election. Upon the announcement of AJ's victory, protests broke out in the streets of Iran, and have continued for the past week. Many of Mousavi's supporters are protesting AJ's victory, as they are resisting the continuation of a governance of lies and dictatorship. The protests have turned to riots, and the Iranian government has blocked most internet access and communication within and out of Iran in their attempt to "control" the Iranian population. Very limited media access remains, and pirated access to social networking sites include YouTube uploads and Twitter updates, with footage and reports of the outrage. I am fascinated by this coverage, as I have been blogging about AJ for years.

Ayatollah Ali Khomeni has instructed the Iranians to unite and support AJs victory, that it was a legitimate election. However, 70% of the population in Iran reportedly wants to be free of these radical religious "thugs". Thus the protests continue, echoing "where is my vote?" and questioning the accuracy of the election. The Ayatollah and Ahmedinejad want to instill Global Sharia Law, and they believe all nations should come under their regime. This religious scheme is certainly more realistic to them, but seems totally far fetched to most other countries. In general, the secular do not take the religious seriously, given their seemingly idealized versions of life. The secular-minded people are so estranged from religion that they don't realize religious aspects carry such heavy weight to many people who are religious. Many news sources and politicians believe that many of the things AJ says are just internal rhetoric - not as though he is serious or wants to die himself. But not only is he serious, he believes that he will hasten the return of the 12th Imam, or Madhi. He believes Israel should be destroyed, and that the Holocaust never really happened.

Shortly after his election victory, AJ gave a public address in which he stated, "who dares to threaten Iran in the world? God willing this year if I go to UN I will ask 'which one of you dares threaten Iran? Please raise your hand - and I will cut your hand off'." Ayatolla Khomeni supports the re-election of Mahmoud Ahmendinejad, as he addressed the Islamic Republic of Iran on the issue of his re-election to the masses just yesterday. His speech was televised throughout the world, and his faithful supporters present at his public address chanted "Death to Israel! Death to America! Death to the West!" Any reader of the Quran can tell you that their text clearly suggests anyone who does not follow Islam is considered an "infidel" and must be killed. Targeting of the West by Muslim Extremists is not a new phenomenon. Besides the Islamic attacks of 911 on America, numerous bombings in London, France, and India (among others) indicate that any nation who does not subscribe to the rhetoric and ideology of these religious zealots has a target on their heads. The Iranian-Israeli rivalry has been present for years, regardless of Iran's intention to produce nuclear weapons. Other countries in the Middle East (except for maybe Syria) and throughout the world would also be fearful or a nuclear Iran, as the effect of an attack on Israel would be resonate throughout the region.

Meanwhile on the topic of nuclear threats, a new threat arises from a rogue nation, North Korea, officially known as the Democratic Republic of Korea (DPRK). The Republic will push ahead with its nuclear weapons program although the UN Security Council has imposed wider sanctions on the DPRK. They absolutely won't abandon their weapons development, in fact counter-measures include weaponizing new plutonium and enriching uranium. Their uranium enrichment program was previously somewhat secret, but not only are they turning these elements into nuclear warheads, their ruler recently claimed "we will never give up nuclear ambitions". US Secretary of State Hillary Clinton has called Kim Jong-il's response "regrettable", and the UN will be imposing new sanctions on the DPRK. Despite the sanctions and condemnation by the international community, they continue to threaten anyone who attempts to interfere in their efforts. If anyone attempts to blockade their ships, they will attack the ships, as they did in dealing with hostile acts of the US military buildup at the border of North and South Korea. The DPRK blames South Korea for following US policy and cooperating with their US ally. The DPRK has threatened to fire a missile at Hawaii on July 4. As I plan to return to Hawaii soon, I will remember to not make my travel reservations for US Independence Day. But how long will we keep our independence? Depends how long we will stand around and do nothing when a New Hitler threatens to seek and destroy.

national solution

in the United States, a bill was recently passed by Congress which now allows people to bring guns into National Parks. This bill was "hidden" as a piece of "pork" inside another, more relevant bill. However, anti-gun activists have been trying to suppress our 2nd Amendment rights for quite some time, some of them within our very own US Congress. Thus the passing of such a bill came as a surprise to many people. While I am not a gun owner myself, I had the opportunity to go to a shooting range in 2007 with a gun owner. The 2nd Amendment is an important part of many US Citizens' lives, but many careless people are also just as willing and able to carry guns - especially if the Government allows them to do so at will.

in Israel, anyone can walk the streets carrying a gun. This seemed strange to me when I visited the Jewish nation in 2006. I will never forget being in a cafe in Eilat (resort town on the Red Sea at the southern tip of Israel) and seeing a girl in her 20's carrying a semi-automatic weapon draped diagonally over her shoulder like one would carry a satchel or book bag. She was just a few people ahead of me in the line to order a coffee, and this was probably the closest I'd ever been to such a weapon. Cafes in Jerusalem seem to have tighter security, there are usually security guards upon entering just about any establishment. It would be less likely to see a gun inside a Jerusalem cafe. My suitcase has been disemboweled by airport security in Tel Aviv on more than one occasion, so I have definitely experienced their tight security policies first-hand. Israel is perhaps at the highest risk of threat by terrorists and unwarranted attacks than any other nation.

in Iran, the country's President Mahmoud Ahmedinejad threatens to destroy Israel on a daily basis. He has reiterated this in many public speeches, and in a recent address to the United Nations, he received applause at some of his opening statements referring to such an attack. Perhaps because many people do not understand Farsii, or his Islamic undertones in his "hastening the Mahdi" rhetoric, or because there are other people who think the Nation of Israel should be destroyed. Whether their reasons are political or religious, this anti-semetic spirit is alive and well throughout the world. Yesterday, Iran fired a "test" missile which could have reached as far as Europe. This unwarranted incident alerted many news media sources as well as governments around the world, especially in light of the recently proposed "two state solution" for Israel and the Palestinian Territories. Perhaps it is time to take Ahmedinejad's daily threats seriously, or are we ready for Armageddon?

in Cuba, terrorists from around the world are often detained in a place called the Guantanamo Bay Prison Camp. This facility has served as an excellent "home away from home" for dangerous terrorist offenders. Since many of their crimes are internationally-focused, housing them on an international base has proven to be both appropriate and effective. Their crimes are against humanity as a whole, not necessarily against a person or even a nation in most cases. When the Muslim-raised Barack Hussein Obama was elected as the US President last November, he promised to close Guantanamo within one year. It appears as though he intends to follow up on his campaign promise, as doing so may perhaps benefit the economy in some way. However US National Security may be sacrificed in this process, as the prisoners will likely be moved to US Prisons rather than released. Nobody knows for sure, but is closing Guantanamo really a viable national or international solution?

Little positive can be said for our Nation when people remain uneducated on National Security and even personal defense. I recently heard someone accuse me of carrying automatic weapons (as though I do this regularly). However what they actually observed was a picture on one of my personal websites from that day at the shooting range in 2007. Because I am a small person, I can only handle the smaller guns - again I am supervised by the guns' owner, an "expert" on guns. The funniest part of their false allegation is that the gun they referred to as an "automatic" weapon was a mere 22 caliber (one of the smallest guns on the market), inside a "rifle" case. Thus it appears to look like a larger gun, especially when held by a petite 95 pound woman, and perhaps even moreso to someone who knows absolutely nothing about guns. However in reality, neither a 22 or a rifle is ever considered to be an "automatic" weapon. I was then informed that this 200 pound individual was "afraid of me" after seeing the picture of me holding the 22, and sought to obtain a "restraining order" against me! As though I had left the shooting range with the gun that did not belong to me and had wandered into his backyard like a displaced refugee bandit. This man was also later reported to be frightened by a public press photo of Sarah Palin (lifetime NRA member) holding a gun, also posted on my personal MySpace site. I have no doubts that Palin is fully capable of operating such a weapon, though I do not know her personally. My friend the gun owner and I have laughed about this for quite some time. It never ceases to amaze me how ignorant people can be to the truth, but if they would just take the time to educate themselves (and even ask questions to people like us directly), they might become enlightened to reality. Most importantly, the issues that concern our security, and that not everyone possesses such terrorist motives as Mahmoud Ahmedinejad.

As for our National Security, allowing citizens to carry guns into an increased number of public places is not necessarily the solution. Transporting terrorists to our mainland from a soon-to-be closed international island prison (thereby allowing them easier access to our great nation) is not necessarily the solution either. And just sitting back while terrorists like Hamas, Hezbollah, and Iranian leaders continue to fire their missiles into other countries is not the most worthwhile solution either. Yesterday's Iranian missile hit the Indian Ocean, but what if it would have hit India itself? Would that have been "ok" in the eyes of the international community, since the target was actually Israel? Was this merely a "test", or perhaps just a "mistake" by Iran, since Ahmedinejad's self-proclaimed motives are supposedly "peaceful"? Take some time to educate yourselves on the facts surrounding these important issues. If you do not think they pertain to you directly, you may want to think again, especially if you live in one of the aforementioned countries or their neighboring nations.

beautiful places

Of all the beautiful places in the world, I had never been to Hawaii until last week. I never really had a reason to go. But some friends of mine were getting married on the beach in Maui, which gave me an excuse to get out and explore. It had really been a while since I'd traveled anywhere, with New York and Canada being my prime trips last year. As many of you know, 2006 and 2007 were filled with international journeys, during which time an incredible life-changing experience occurred while living in the Holy Land of Israel.

When I up-and-moved to Israel, ready to start a new life and pursue a degree program, I had never done anything like that before. Having lived in only the US southwest for the majority of my life, any trip out of town was a big deal, though I have always traveled quite a bit during my lifetime. But a move to the other side of the world, though somewhat temporary, really got me out of my comfort zone. While traveling and living abroad, and without the distractions of "home" I was able to gain a clearer perspective overall.

Talking to a close friend on the phone just last night, I was reminded of reasons I left San Diego at least 4 times, the petty engagements and low-life mindset of many of the city's residents. In other words, the kinds of things that people uphold as priorities in their lives mean little to nothing to me, and I simply can't relate. Upon returning from Israel and then Greece, I found I could not easily connect with people here on the mainland anymore, at least not in quite the same way. Could this be some form of transcendence? Or just a realization of societal evolution to its now backwards state? There's something about travel that clears the mind, and connects all the senses. If yours are disconnected, I'd recommend a week-long trip away from your element.

Brazil and Greece are perhaps two of the most beautiful places I'd ever been in my lifetime, and I thought nowhere could surpass their landscapes to behold. I was proven wrong last week. When I arrived in Maui, my breath was immediately taken away, even on a misty evening like last Monday night. The sun was setting, and the air was humid and temperate. Rain loomed in the air, but it did not actually rain. I retrieved my luggage and headed to the rental car location, only to be awarded a car with a license plate bearing my initials. This was going to be my week indeed, my week in paradise. Although it was dark by the time I arrived to my hotel, I immediately went out to the beach and spent considerable time simply celebrating the fact that I was in one of the most beautiful places on earth. I was set on a course for adventure, a much needed time in paradise.

The first few days of the trip were all about unwinding, relaxing, and becoming familiar with my new surroundings. I met up with my friends for their wedding festivities beginning later the first night, and then at least one activity per day. By the second day I came to the realization that Hawaii was a lot like Brazil, only CLEAN. The Island of Maui possesses much of the same type of lush tropical landscape and beautiful tranquil beaches, but without the third-world feeling. In fact, I was in the lap of luxury, surrounded by resorts and upscale condos, with prices to match. But I didn't really mind that aspect, simply being there among all that beauty gave me a greater sense of peace then I have ever felt on the mainland. As close as I have felt to the wholeness I experienced while living in the Holy Land. I suppose if I can't be in a war-torn nation due to safety concerns, I should probably pick a beautiful place of tranquility to consider for my future home.

While in Maui, I participated in a few boating excursions, in addition to many hours spent on various beautiful beaches. On the second night, we embarked on a sunset dinner cruise which served as the rehearsal dinner for the wedding party, I being a guest of the Best Man. In the water we saw several whales, and stood in awe of the green mountainous and rocky coastline, bearing similarities to the coastlines of Greece. Any time I am on a boat NOT in the San Diego harbor, I am reminded of the cruise I went on throughout some of the Greek Isles, a journey I intend to embark upon for a longer timeframe later this year. The beautiful mountain observed during our dinner cruise was graced by a low-lying cloud, covering half the mountain. See my Hawaii galleries for the amazing image of the mountain and gorgeous coastlines.

Although I was in Hawaii for 5 days, this was not enough time, and I decided that I must return as soon as possible. I am now considering the idea of moving there, as I do all of my work online, it can be done from anywhere. My other option is to travel as much as possible this year, though I am due for a change of pace, a change of lifestyle after undergoing some very tumultuous times in recent months. While my primary residences of Phoenix and San Diego are amazing in their own way, there are many beautiful places in the world to travel to OR to live. I choose to surround myself with beauty - beautiful places are where I thrive, and connect with God within.

your bail-out

During B. Hussien Obama's visit to Arizona this week, the crowd went wild upon hearing an earful of alleged promises to "fix" the nation's forclosure crisis. Obama outlined his "rescue plan" for the unfortunate people who had become overturned in their mortgages, due to economic hardship, job loss, inflated interest rates, etc. He noted that those who "had not been responsible" about their mortgages, or those who were in real estate "for profit" would not qualify for government bail out of their "mistakes." As his words echoed through the halls of Dobson High School and into my home via CSPAN, I thanked the Lord that I have not been a victim of this "housing crisis" but that God has always provided for me in my times of hardship.

What many people do not realize is that God is actually our provider, not the government, not the banks, not even our spouses, when it all comes down - for those who believe. However if we do not trust Him to provide in all aspects of our lives, we will end up hopeless and helpless - pleading with lenders, politicians, and anyone who will come to our rescue. Many people call on God in times of trouble, but do they really fully trust him, with their lives? Do they really believe God can "bail them out", or has the act of crying out to Him become a facade, more of a "woe is me" plea of desperation, "God please help me" and then go back to their self-absorbed lifestyles?

I had someone tell me the other day that I have a "distinct writing style". For as many authors and bloggers that are out there on the internet, I was pleased to hear that my unique abilities were identifiable, distinct enough to stand out from the masses. God created each one of us unique in our own special way, which is all part of his plan; if we have accepted His Word, we must share it, thus we are supposed to stand out. But if we continue to subscribe to the "herd" mentality, "keeping up with the joneses", or trying to be on the "cutting edge" of society, we cannot fully surrender our lives to God, or allow Him to truly rule over our lives. After all, who rules your home, "the Messiah" B. Hussein Obama, or God - your Creator? He alone is your Refuge, your "bail-out".

love one another

A few weeks ago, my cousin asked me why I had not blogged since September, during the Presidential campaigns. I think he was curious to hear my thoughts on the election. Most people who talk to me regularly know where I stand, so I did not feel the need to blog about it. I actually became sickened by the media's coverage of not only the election but all of the pre-election "poll" results and blatant liberal opinions which were unavoidable and dominant to the point of influencing the indecisive masses. People were clinging to messages of "hope" seemingly out of desperation and grasping for anything that sounded like it would "save" them from their terrible lives. Messiah or talking head? In recent weeks I have actually decreased my media consumption overall - I think the election did me in! However with the inheritance of a digital television system (among other valuable resources) I have altered my focus slightly since I've been living in Phoenix. It's not that I wasn't already focused on the things of God, but recent overwhelming situations in my life have led me to my knees on a nightly basis. Listening to the 24-hour Christian music station as well as positive broadcasts and international programs have helped me rebuild and refocus. The people who know me the best know how drastically my life has changed, yet I am still the same person, with the same international experiences, and the same solid upbringing. Close friends and family have been my backbone, the Holy Spirit my comforter, and God has been my strength.

My father was perhaps the nicest man anyone could possibly meet. Sure I'm a little biased, but those who knew him could attest to this simple observation. Though a bit quirky and random at times, he could hardly complete a few sentences without mentioning God, some passage of scripture, or other uplifting, positive message. His love for me, his only daughter, was stronger than I even realized, or may ever realize. Most women do not have as great a relationship with their father as I did, I am truly blessed to have had that experience. No matter how many poor decisions I made in my life, especially in dating the wrong guys and getting involved with ungodly people, I could always go running back to Daddy, tell him what kind of mess I got into, and somehow just his being there for me would make it all better. His Godly counsel and wisdom helped me through so many challenging situations, that I don't know how I could have gone through life without him. His positive attitude and Christ-like mindset is something I always admired and was even baffled by at times. How could someone be so positive ALL THE TIME, even when faced with adversity?

One thing I've learned in my 35 short years on this earth is that relationships are so fragile, yet so important. Anytime I've had conflict with my neighbor (friends, coworkers, people on the street) I have always tried my best to resolve things with those people. I have actually known people who pick fights and stir up controversy just because they can, and they think they are being funny or "cool", but they are actually being destructive and disrespectful. However it is essential to keep in mind that God created human life, and he created us with a heart to love and a brain to know right from wrong. Although I had never experienced death (other than a cousin and grandpa who lived in another country), I have always been one of those optimistic "don't let the sun go down on your anger" or "you never know when the last time you will see that person is" kind-of-people. Practice the Golden Rule and all will be well with your karma. We all know that anyone can die at any time, I could walk across the street and get hit by a bus, and you would never see me again. This is why we need to "be excellent to each other" as my dad always said (quote from Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure)!

Jesus came to the earth to teach mankind some very valuable life lessons. He also came to pay a ransom for our sins, if we chose to accept it. God loves us so much that He sent His only Son as a blood sacrifice like a Lamb to the slaughter. Some people commit such terrible acts against other people that we think there is no hope for them. Other people fall so far into the downward spiral of negativity, debt, relationship pitfalls, or even crime, that they are seemingly beyond "hope" - and they can't go running back to Daddy. However God is our Father, and He sent Jesus to save us from all that. No politician can do this, regardless of how smooth their speeches are. Jesus is the Messiah, yes, even to the Jews. Jesus taught us to "love one another" as the first commandment with a promise (all will be well). Coincidentally this is a basic principle which we are usually taught as children and the Golden Rule, "do unto others as you would have them do to you!" In John 13:34-35, Jesus states "A new commandment I give unto you, that ye love one another, as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another." Seems pretty simple doesn't it?

As I am striving to continue my Father's legacy, I would likewise challenge you to align with your Heavenly Father's agenda - a life of love. Show kindness, lend a hand, or simply give a smile to someone who looks like they're having a bad day. Love can make a world of the difference in someone's life, after all, you never know what a person is going through, what they have been through, or how long they have left on this earth. From 1 Corinthians 13, "Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." So love one another, because not everyone is equipped with a political ticker, but everyone was created with a heart to LOVE.

come together

Republican presidential nominee John McCain has temporarily suspended his campaign in order to assist in the recovery of America's economy and the Stock Market - a pressing issue which will essentially affect most of the world. McCain has urged his opponent Barack Obama to do the same, as his campaign's backstabbing tactics of McCain's group have not done much to aid his own progress towards the Oval Office. While the campaigning process has indeed been rigorous on many levels, the need for unity in America especially during these past few weeks of crisis (the hurricanes and now the economy) has superseded the division of race, culture, and religion - or has it? Have partisan tactics with the stirring of rumors and attacks upon the other brought our nation any closer to the unity we desire? With widespread dissatisfaction for the Bush Administration among many Americans, the need for change in the government has been an overarching theme in popular society. However, is the real change something that can be brought about by the government, or does it start with the people like you and I, our attitudes toward others, and our ability to coexist amidst the divisive agendas of those seeking our destruction?

The liberal media's portrayal of a model American family like Vice Presidential nominee Sarah Palin's has undoubtedly raised the awareness of basic morals and ethical values among many. A recent Saturday Night Live skit suggested that her husband Todd Palin had engaged in incest with one of their teenage daughters. This crude accusation, though framed in the context of a joke or comedy skit, reflects an obvious jab on the first family to the point of defamation of character. Many of the accusations made against Palin and her family are clearly hoisted out of evil intent and even jealousy against someone who is so successful and so upstanding. While no human is perfect, including Sarah Palin whose family is wrought with many of the same issues facing common American families today, her exemplification of upright ethical and moral standards should be heeded by all. Her love for God, her family, and her country have certainly contributed to her success even at a young age as compared to many other politicians. Though she is so similar to the average hockey mom, most people have never experienced anyone quite like her, with the tenacity of a barracuda and a backbone of steel - no attacks from the media or other politicians can keep her from being who she really is.

Sarah Palin's continued resilience to the numerous accusatory attacks show what a strong woman she is, but it is clear from her values and faith that God is the one who gives her strength. A familiar verse comes to mind Isaiah 54:17 "No weapon that is formed against you will prosper; and every tongue that accuses you in judgment will condemn." You see, when God is on your side He does not allow such attacks to destroy you, but instead He uses them to make you stronger, and even more resilient. Romans 8:31-33 says "If God is for us, who can be against us? Who will bring a charge against God's elect? God is the one who justifies." Political views indeed reflect a person's personal moral and ethical values, and transcend into various aspects of human existence. Another common attack against Palin is that if a woman is raped, Sarah believes that the woman should not have an abortion, and I would tend to agree with that policy. If abortion - the killing of another human being because they might cause an "inconvenience" to you - is legal, then would it be ok for me to kill someone who is harassing and threatening my family and I? As much as we are inconvenienced, the answer is NO... the bigger issue here is the motivation of the RAPIST. When is it OK for a man to disrespect a woman to the point of violating her body and not being sensitive to her feelings? That philosophy or mindset in and of itself is the inconvenience, NOT a CHILD, a living, breathing life created by 2 other humans.

Several months ago, I became involved with a man in San Diego. One night we hung out, I offered to give him a ride home as he was noticeably intoxicated, and upon arrival to his home he was a bit too forceful with me and attempted to rape me in my car. Fortunately I was not intoxicated myself and I was able to stop him, and suggested we go inside and go to sleep instead. He drew me a map to his house and assumed we would be together sometime when he was NOT drunk, however his substance abuse overshadowed our interactions. Despite this, I developed quite a friendship with this man as we spent more time together over the following months, but I refused to have sex with him as I shared with him that I was practicing abstinence. He then began to push me away but would never explain why, other than past relationship issues which unfortunately kept him from being true to himself and opening up to the potential of loving someone who really cared about him. Although it takes two to tango, I never did anything to hurt or harm him - quite the opposite. My apologies were misconstrued and misinterpreted, however my requests to make amends with him came from sincere concern for his spiritual and emotional well being. Several of his friends continued to harass and threaten me, both verbally and physically, spreading rumors and attempting to push my buttons, but I can only ignore them, rise above, and NOT let them destroy me. Most religions teach LOVE as their basic credo, and the Bible teaches us to pray for those who persecute us. The root of the issue is likely still unresolved, which is the reason for his disrespect of women. This has nothing to do with me, and I cannot take it personally.

Is it better to push people away, argue with them, attack or even kill them because they are "inconveniencing" you, or because they are of differing race, religious views, or political party? I attended a Barack Obama rally the other day, and was told there would likely be other McCain supporters there, along with a wide variety of food options which indeed enticed me. I jumped on the opportunity and was eager to mingle with other people who had politics on their minds - despite our differences. Many of the attendees were shocked and even appalled that a McCain supporter was in their midst, but after they got over it, rather than to ostracize me they welcomed me into their social sphere. I made some valuable connections that day, contrary to my expectations. I believe many of them developed a newfound respect for those who opposed their political ideologies, as we were able to relate on so many other more personal levels. Just as John McCain is urging our country to come together in a time of national crisis, we must come together as human beings, required to coexist regardless of our differing views. Is there anyone YOU have pushed away because they were different, or because you were hurt by someone like them? Consider making amends, and working together - your interaction with them could bring positive change into your life especially if you can let go of long-held grudges. Come together, you might even find LOVE.

blessed to be persecuted

Being half Canadian, many of my family members live in Canada, so I visit as often as possible. Since last Christmas my mom and I have been planning a trip for her birthday, to include a train ride to Toronto to visit one of her sisters and a day's excursion to the wondrous Niagra Falls. On my dad's side I am one quarter German Jew, and having lived in Israel and traveled extensively to both Germany and Israel, I have really connected with my heritage over these past few years. While my early interests in travel were primarily cultural (I hold a bachelor's degree in art with a minor in music), the political and religious aspects have now become most prominent in my life, in light of my post-graduate studies.

Shortly before I visited Israel for the first time, my father and I took a trip to Minnesota to visit his brother and for my Cousin's wedding. He asked me "why are you going to Israel?" I informed him that since 911 I was interested in learning more about the Middle East, especially about the Muslims and their rationale for terrorist attacks on our great nation. He said "you know we're Jewish, right? The Birman family is Jewish." I told him I thought we were German, as our family originally immigrated from Germany. He informed me that because of the German persecution of the Jews, our family was forced to flee from the oppression so they came to America. The family name was altered slightly to Birman (it had previously been Bierman or something more German-sounding so as to not stand out as Jews) and we were from a Royal or Aristocratic line. My uncle had done some lineage research a while back, but only got as far as the records which came with his father by boat to America. Fortunately, he escaped from Hitler's Nazi persecution of Jews just a few years prior to the Holocaust, which began in the early 1940's. When I first visited Israel and eventually moved there, I finally began to understand what all of this meant.

If you are not familiar with this important time in world history, please take a few moments to read up on the Holocaust, in which German hatred of the Jews led to their persecution - controversial actions of harassment, physical torture, inhumane treatment, and for many, a slow, painful death. This anti-semetic spirit has been around since the Bible times, beginning with the split of brothers Isaac and Ishmael. Both were sons of Abraham but only ONE received his blessing, and that was Isaac. Of course Abraham loved Ishmael (though born to an Egyptian woman, not his wife), but the Bible clearly states that Isaac's lineage would be blessed as a great people, successful, ruling over many, and scattered among the nations. These people were the Jews, God's chosen race, and at that time Ishmael's lineage began the Arab race (Genesis 26-27). These people also numbered many scattered throughout the earth, and eventually the Muslim faith was born out of the Arab race around 600 AD. Fast forward to September 11 2001. You have probably heard the politically-charged statement "911 was an inside job", and this is certainly true in a more literal way than often liberally interpreted. The US and Canada had become so relaxed on their immigration policies that millions of Muslims from all around the world have moved to these Western nations, whether legally or illegally. The hijackers of 911 were trained in American flight schools, and many lived or had family in the US.

Upon arriving in Toronto, I noticed a large number of Muslims everywhere, even more than commonly observed in the US. This reminded me of when I had visited Europe, and Germany in particular. Last Friday while in the Toronto train station, I purchased a few items at a kiosk. My ears perked up when the cashier was speaking to someone on the phone in Hebrew, I listened to part of her conversation, and she said "Shabbat Shalom" just before hanging up. I greeted her with "Shabbat Shalom!" an expression which is used among Jews in wishing each other a happy weekend (Shabbat is sabbath, or Saturday, the Holy Day). The rest of our conversation continued in Hebrew while I paid for my items. I thanked her by saying "todah", and she replied "bevakasha". This interaction was indeed the highlight of my day! Later at the hotel, I discovered an Arabic TV station. Reading some of the captions and listening to some of the programming, mainly Islamic - I had the opportunity to practice my Arabic too! And I gave considerable thought to the purpose of that TV station in the Toronto area. I had not seen a station like this since I was in Germany, where some Arabs I knew had just about every Arabic and Muslim channel on Satellite. Its amazing how technology has increased global accessibility for information and communication.

Recently a Nazi German man has been harassing me online. Although he doesn't actually know me personally, I believe his hateful attitude and actions towards me stem from his Nazi German roots. HE may not even understand why his hatred for me has become so strong, just that he does in fact hate Jews, and I have become his target of attack - a single Jewish woman, educated and determined. In the process of becoming stronger against his attacks and continuing to stand up for what I believe in, the persecution increases, though now I am starting to fully understand why. He has been threatening, hateful, derogatory towards women, accusatory, and racially-charged. This Nazi spirit is the same anti-semetic force with which the Muslims have sought to destroy our country. To them, the West includes America, Canada, and most of Europe, and they know no political boundaries (Republican, Democrat, etc); their politically-glossed modus operandi makes them "acceptable" to many people, including some in the Western government.

As an American I enjoy freedoms that citizens of many countries do not have - I am truly blessed, even in my persecution. Enjoying an amazing week in Canada, visiting one of the 7 Wonders of the World, spending time with family, blessed with excellent health - the appearance of a 24 year old with the experience of a 34 year old! I am able to care for my older relatives whose health is deteriorating (a major priority for me right now), and to be there for them as other members of their families have not always been. Family is one of the most important gifts we are given, and human life is too precious to waste away by projecting hatred on other people. The Jews understand this, a clear reflection on their perseverance as a race and a possible explanation as to why their faith is always so strong. They have escaped persecution throughout the years and have learned to depend on God, drawing close to Him, many Jews returning to His Holy Land - not surprising it is the most controversial piece of land in the world.

Not only am I Jewish by heritage, one of God's chosen race, I am a Christian by faith, a Child of God through the option of new life in Christ Jesus His Son (He came as our sacrifice, so it is no longer necessary to slaughter animals as they did in the Old Testament). Because of this heritage AND my family lineage, I am Royalty, and no weapon formed against me CAN prosper - including persecution by Muslims, Nazis, or even fellow Americans. Stand up for your faith, protect your family, and cling to your values, morals and integrity. God will bless those who bless Him, and His wrath will come upon those who persecute His people. Allah Akhbar!